Fruits Basket: Memories

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Kyou felt like jumping off the roof and falling to his death, little help that would do any, he'd only land on his feet. There were plenty reasons why he felt this way, but one stuck out more then the rest, that was the reason why everyone he loved had left him – everyone he loved would forget about him, everyone who was supposed to love him. It started off with his mother, she told him that she loved him, she cared about him and that he was her only joy – if that was right then why did she leave him, why did she die? Why did she commit suicide? His father never really loved him, so he was never given that choice. But Kagura, she may have been scared off by first sight of his other form, but she came back and she declared her love for him – which was meant to be ever lasting, but why then? Why did she decide to get Hatori to erase her memories? Why did she decide to break that promise, that promise of love, and leave him? Why did everyone he love leave him? Sure he didn't tell or show that he loved Kagura but he really did. He really loved her so much, but he wouldn't say because his pride as a man meant he wasn't to be shown as weak – he wasn't like Yuki, he wouldn't flirt so openly on someone he knew would love him back.

"Why?" That was the only word he could bring out of his lips. Why couldn't she have left him some clue, a letter or anything? Something to make the pain go away, something to leave him feeling still loved – is there a way that she can regain her memories? Kana and Momiji's mother hadn't regained theirs… but they didn't know… and they didn't want to – what if he could somewhat make Kagura want to regain her memories? Would that work? He didn't know but he wanted to, he wanted to be able to show Kagura that she loved him. Sure, he did know that he kissed Tohru, but there was a reason for that kiss too… it wasn't a kiss of love, it was a kiss for thank you, he just wanted to thank Tohru for making him realise about how special Kagura was. She had told him about how amazing she found Kagura to be – to have someone care about him as much as Kagura did, that that kind of love was special and he was lucky to have someone to hold it – for him. He thought he had no one, no one to be his friend, and then he found Tohru. Then he thought he had no one, no one to love him, and then Tohru helped him find that he did – in Kagura. Perhaps he had to dedicate himself to helping her find her lost memories, the memories of him and the memories of their childhood and the only way he could do that if he… and he shuddered… got help from Yuki and Haru to help her remember all the times they spent together at Kazuma's dojo. He would also need to tolerate Momiji's voice and get her to remember all the times she spent with Momiji.

But it was going to be hard; he really didn't want to have to be 'friends' with that stupid rat. But to think about it, wasn't he only enemies because of that stupid story – if Haru could realise that – and have a special bond with Yuki, then is there anyway, for Kagura, to be friends with Yuki?
If you two become friends that would make me very happy…

Her words rung through his mind, he remembered how she had said that, she had heard from Haru that Yuki and he were getting on better perhaps that could help regain her memories. It made him very mad to see that that was what he was going to have to do, but if they worked together, perhaps then, they could get her back and he could explain anything she had concerns over. The reasons, yet he did have to ask Hatori why exactly he let her go through with it. He knew how hard it was, he lost Kana because of the same thing, if Kagura was really that bad, then she must have been like Kana – and that hurt Kyou to think about it that way. Perhaps then, perhaps he could find a way, there had to be some way – yet to think about it… this wasn't the normal case of amnesia.

Damn, why did he have to be so stubborn? What would Shigure say this time? That it was manly to show the courage to tell someone you loved them? Well he wouldn't listen to him anyway? What did Shigure know? He couldn't keep a lover if his heart depended on it… but then again, what would Tohru and Yuki say? If they were ever to find out that he loved her? They would be disgusted – more on Yuki's part – which she did this to herself and all along he loved her back. It was very quite upsetting to think about it that way, he had to find someway to apologise to the girl – but now, Kagura didn't even know who he was. That was another one of the reasons why he couldn't help but want to kill himself. He felt like this was going to be a tragic love story. Like Romeo and Juliet but not even in death can they be together, as Kagura didn't even remember him. In Romeo and Juliet it was in death that they could be together, for them it was if she could remember, then they could truly be together.

But it sounds a lot easier than it will be – especially to get along with Yuki!