A/N: ok, so a pretty long chapter ahead, but not one of my favorites. I thought it dragged a little. Please tell me what you think.
Well I guess
You took my
youth
I gave it all away
Like the birth of a
New-found
joy
This love would end in rage
And when she died
I
couldn't cry
The pride within my soul
You left me incomplete
All alone as the
Memories now unfold.
-Cemetery Gates, Pantera
Depression.
She hated it.
She found that her only way out was him.
Him
Why him, though?
Her mom was her best friend, is. But it still isn't enough for her. She felt so guilty.
But she felt good with him.
She knew he understood her.
He never even asked what happened that night, he somehow knew, and he knew exactly what to do to make it better.
She didn't need to talk.
She just needed him.
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"Rory?" he asked, a glint of concern in his eyes, though his face showed no emotion.
"Yeah?" she replied, her voice a little shaky. Her eyes were so tired.
"Better now?"
"Yeah" she smiled.
"Oh"
Pause
"Jess?" she asked, turning towards him, trying to get him to so the same.
"Yeah?" he said, refusing to turn around.
"You're really helping" she said, and saw his face lighten up but then he masked it with his trade-mark smirk. And she knew.
He really cared.
"It's not intentional" he said, smiling, not smirking Smiling. She noticed that he only smiled next to her, and sometimes, though it was rare, he smiled at Luke.
"Yes it is"
He didn't answer.
He really, really cared.
"I should go home" She said, breaking the comfortable silence.
They were now on the side of the road. When Rory started crying, before, he ignored her at first. But when her cries turned into hysterical gasps, he panicked and stopped the car.
They drove in silence, and to her surprise, and relief, he drove her to her house, and not to the diner. Se knew he was wasting his lunch break for her.
He stopped the car in the driveway.
"You like me" she said, surprising even herself.
"Says who?" he asked innocently.
"I do"
"Go home Rory" he said softly.
"Thanks" she said, and got out of the car, and watched him back out of the driveway.
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School, again.
Why can't it be Sunday every day?
She walked through the double doors, and wasn't surprised when Tristan appeared but her side, guiding her to her locker.
As if she needed help.
While she searched through her locker for the she needed, Tristan was lecturing her.
"How dare you run to him, and openly when you're supposed to be with me!" He hissed, "I told you, if you don't do as I say, that incident in the bathroom will repeat itself, again and again"
And he left before she could answer.
She was trying so hard not to cry.
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"… I want the essay on my desk next Friday" Mr. Pinster was saying.
She couldn't stand it, she needed air, now.
"um, Mr. Pinster, may I go use the restrooms?" Rory asked sweetly, using her talking -to -teacher- voice.
"Make it quick" he said.
She walked straight to the big double doors, she needed a minute outside. She exited the school, and started walking towards a big oak tree with a bench under it.
But she heard voices from around the corner, she stopped, recognizing one of the voices.
"she was so hot last night, she said-"
"do you even know her name?"
"no, but who cares?"
"I thought you with that Rory girl now"
Tristan laughed, "Of course I'm with her, I was just taking a break"
"Dude, and she doesn't even know you drugged her?"
Tristan took a drag from his cigarette.
"The stupid bitch thinks she was drunk, that it was all her fault" he laughed, saying the last part of the sentence in a mock-girly voice.
Rory's brain froze.
Drugged?
So this wasn't her fault, all this time, her let her believe that it was partly her doing.
She had trouble breathing.
The Bastard.
She wanted to scream.
Well, he was there, the best target in the world.
"you raped me!" she yelled, her head was swimming, she wanted to get back at him, and fast.
They both stared at her, Tristan and, now she recognized him, Josh.
"you almost raped me and got away with it!" she yelled, running towards him.
"what's wrong with you? You-" Tristan started, but Rory cut him off.
"you drugged me! It was all your fault! You bastard!" she yelled. She never cursed, it just wasn't part of her vocabulary.
Her head was going to explode.
She kicked something. A rock! She picked it up.
He just stared at her.
"don't look so surprised, you knew this was going to back-fire eventually." She said calmly, her vision was fogged with rage; the only though in her head was to get back at him, after all this time, days? Months? Year? No… she was still 17…
"Rory-"
"shut up" she said sternly.
Tristan looked around, Josh disappeared.
"so much for friends" Rory said, catching his attention.
"hey Rory, I'm sorry-"
That did it, that was the last draw.
How dare he apologize to her!
She threw the rock, hitting him in the forehead.
She grunted, a huge wave of relief washing over her, turned around, and headed for class.
And for the first time in weeks, she didn't feel like crying.
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He had to be here.
He had to.
Where the hell was he?
She was waiting outside Chilton, where Jess usually parked.
15 minutes
Why wasn't he here?
Then she saw his car.
She opened the door.
"you're late" she said, sitting down.
"yeah, well Luke was being as ass, so blame him" He replied, raising his eyebrows.
After a long period of silence, she saw the 'Welcome to Starts Hollow' sign and blurted "so, I found out that Tristan drugged me" she looked at him, searching for a reaction.
"Shit" was all he said.
She liked that.
Her house, why was this town so small? Can't it be bigger? only for the about half an our after she finishes school. Then it can go back to normal.
Stupid reality.
"come in" she ordered, and stepped out the car. She didn't even turn around to check if he was following her.
She knew he would follow.
"Pizza?" she asked, as soon as they entered the house.
"yup" he replied.
"it's from last Tuesday, well that's what mom said, and you should never trust her when it concerns life expectancy of pizzas" she said, pulling a pizza box out of the fridge.
"looks… moldy" Jess said, smirking.
"yup." She said, looking disgusted.
"yup"
Pause
"phone?" he asked.
"sure" she said,
"I'm just full of bright ideas" he smirked.
"yeah, well I would have thought of it eventually" she said, trying to look serious.
"you're helpless" he said.
She ordered pizza, with everything, and sat down next to him on the couch.
"I threw a rock at him" she said
"ouch" he replied, but he had a very smug look on his face.
"for him, and he deserves it!" she exclaimed.
"I know" he said, and touched her arm.
"the police came, and an ambulance." Trying not to sound to proud.
Pause
"they'll arrest me" she said softly.
"he won't risk it" Jess assured her.
"what?"
"he won't risk telling the police because they need a motive, and if you tell them what it was, he'll go to jail"
"oh"
"yeah"
"should I press charges?" she turned to look at him.
"did he rape you?" he couldn't look her in the eyes.
Pause
"no" he looked relieved.
"oh"
"but he drugged me" she reminded him.
"of course"
"should I?'
"do you have evidence?"
She thought for a moment, and reluctantly said "no"
"the drug thingy probably isn't in my blood system anymore" she added.
"true"
"I don't want to anyway" she said.
"why?" he asked looking alarmed.
"the rock helped, and, I'm healing" she said.
"ah, all spiritual now are we?"
They sat in a comfortable silence for while.
"Jess, why are you here?" she asked, staring at him.
"I was under the impression that you invited me in" he replied, a little taken aback.
"you can leave if you don't wasn't to be here" she said angrily.
He paused.
"we're ordering pizza, and I'm paying"
She smiled.
"fine"
"hey Rory?"
"yeah?"
"where's your mom?"
"out buying a toaster"
"huh, efficient"
"well, they did have a fight"
"I'm sorry?"
RING RING
"yo?" Rory answered.
Jess stared at her.
She winked.
"hey sweets! No time to talk, have an inn issue, not toaster time, go tomorrow, pizza, money under the red mermaid vase, back at 10:00"
Dial tone.
"huh?" Jess asked.
"she's at the inn" she said, a little in shock.
"oh"
"she didn't even let me reply" her face still wore a surprised expression.
"oh"
"she's coming back at 10:00" she explained.
"oh"
"she didn't buy a toaster"
"the oh-ness is just getting bigger" he smirked.
She laughed
"stay?" she asked, almost begging.
"yeah" he said
"more food?" she asked.
"Chinese?"
"Bless you"
"thank you, Lord"
"I pay"
"do I have a choice?"
"no"
"fine then" he said, lifting his arms up, in surrender.
"we shall live in peace" she stated, and half bowed.
Jess put his hand up, and with his fingers, gestured peace.
She laughed, again.
Yay!
The pizza arrived, and they decided not to wait for the Chinese food, that they ordered only minutes before, and started eating.
"Jess? Do you know why Dean broke up with me?" Rory asked suddenly.
Jess choked on his pizza.
Pause.
"um… no?"
"you" she said softly.
"oh"
Pause
"is that bad?" he asked.
"depends" Rory answered.
Bite, Bite. Munch, Munch, Munch.
"What did he say?" he asked his mouth full.
Rory swallowed.
"um, you know what? I need more coke" she said.
"huh"
She came back two minutes later
"that I liked you" she said,
"huh" he smiled.
They continued eating silently.
The door bell rang.
She ran to answer the door.
"chinese!" she yelled.
Jess came to help her.
She paid the delivery guy and started walking towards the living room.
"Rory?"
She turned around.
"maybe I should go" he said.
She walked towards him, putting the Chinese food on the floor, "why?"
"it's late" ha said, and pecked her lips.
She was so stunned that she didn't move until he closed the door after him.
"Jess!" she yelled after him
She opened the door and ran towards him.
"it's six pm"
"I know"
"I have Chinese"
"I know"
"the pizza isn't finished"
"I'm just so full of knowledge"
"well, spread your knowledge in my house and talk to my coffee table" she said, smiling a bit.
"you aren't mad?"
"not that I'm aware off"
"so kissing you isn't against the law?"
"not in my world" she said.
"cool"
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"you're mom will be back soon, don't you have homework in your big fancy school?"
"she'll be back in an hour, and I think being drugged and semi-raped is a good justification" she replied.
"so you're going to tell her?"
"I might"
"oh"
Pause
"you know, that wasn't really a kiss before, a little peckish" she said
"yeah?" he asked
She nodded.
He leaned into her, touching her lips with his.
She wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned back, he snaked his hand to the small of her back and moved with her.
They stopped
Breathe, breathe.
"that was fun"
"pathetic" he said
"what!" she exclaimed.
"Pathetic pick-up " he smirked "that wasn't really a kiss…" he mocked.
She stuck her tongue out.
He smiled and lenaed itno her again.
She liked this
It was fun
Real
Though a little wet.
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A/N: ok so that was the chapter! Please R&R and tell me what you think. I just feel that the story isn't as good as it was in the beginning. something's missing.