Ruthie took a deep breath as she started her car. "You can do this." She said aloud to herself over and over. She was going to see Martin and it gave her a well deserved vacation from her family.

She had a long conversation the night before with Simon and he was leaving Rose. She encouraged Simon to talk to Sandy which surprised Simon that Ruthie was speaking so highly of Sandy after everything that went down all those years ago. Then Simon brought up Martin which was a confusing subject for Ruthie lately. Ever since he had replied to her email she's been confused on what was going on between them.

She hadn't talk to Martin since that night; every time he called she ignored it not wanting to hear that he didn't mean it and he was just caught up in the moment. Ever since Peter broke up with her she's been afraid to really open up to Martin because she didn't want to get hurt again.

He didn't know she was coming and hoped that he would be surprised and not slam the door in her face. She silently prayed that he want to see her and that he wasn't angry for her not returning any of his 21 phone calls over the past 2 days.

When she got to Martin's she took a deep breath. She slowly got out of the car gently shutting the door trying to calm the nerves in her stomach. As she walked to his door she wiped her now sweaty palms on her skirt. She let the sound of her heels clicking on the pavement calm her as she knocked on the door.

He opened the door looking exhausted and quite irritable. She cringed thinking that she caused him to be this state but he instantly light up when he fully processed who was in front of him.

"Hey."

"What are you doing here? I mean I called you and you never called back. It was like you didn't want anything to do with me. And to be quite honest it was like it was the time before I left where you wouldn't talk to me and it hurt. So yet again I ask what are you doing here?"

"I um…shouldn't have come." She turned and headed back to her car the tears falling faster than ever. Martin went after her and whipped her around coming to see the same face he left all those years ago.

"Ruthie stop running from me." She looked at the ground studying her shoes.

"I came here to see you, I hoped for the opposite reaction but I guess I was too stupid to realize I never get what I want." She sniffled and more tears fell. "I wanted to tell you this in person and not over the phone. Martin I think I've fallen in love with you but I can see that I don't deserve you just like before." She pulled her arm out of his grasp and wiped at the new tears.

She got back in her car and drove to Simon's. She stood in front of his door sobbing and when Sandy opened the door Simon rushed past her and grabbed Ruthie before she fell to her knees. Sandy just watched Simon comforting Ruthie before leaving to talk to Martin.

Simon pulled Ruthie into the house sitting down on the couch and asked her over and over again to tell him what happened. She sniffled and took a deep breath preparing to tell Simon how she hurt him.

"Well after Martin left I emailed him and he emailed me back, right? Well then he called and I didn't answer for some stupid reason so every time he called I didn't answer but I didn't know that it wasn't hurting Martin. Then I decided this morning to come see him to talk to him face to face but when I got to the door his reaction was the opposite of I thought it would be. I told him what I had to say and left knowing that I can't have him just like I couldn't have him before. I didn't mean to hurt him I'm just scared. But now I only have myself to blame for what happened it wasn't his fault. I'm just too stupid to realize what I was doing was hurting both of us. I can't take it back and now I'll never know what could've have happened." She started sobbing again and Simon was there the best he could be.

Hours later Ruthie was asleep on the couch and Sandy was no where to be seen. Simon just sat in the chair diagonal from the couch and watched his little sister sleep. Ruthie tossed and turned all night reliving the past day's events. Around 2:30 in the morning she got up and wrote Simon a note thanking him for everything he's done and soon she was in her car again driving somewhere.

She found herself in front of Martin's; she could see that his lights were still on. She wondered if she should go to the door and apologize for everything but then again it would only make things worse so she just sat in her car. Finally throwing fear to the wind she went to door feeling confident in herself for once in a long time. Lightly knocking on the door Ruthie fixed her somewhat wrinkled skirt. Martin opened the door and Ruthie put her hand blocking the door.

"Don't shut the door. Hear me out, I'm sorry for not answering the phone for the past two days and I'm sorry that I couldn't have told you what I said earlier but you have to remember that I just got out of a 3 year relationship which I now believe is based on a lie. I mean you just showed up out of nowhere after 6 years and it was a little overwhelming."

"Ruthie."

"No I'm not done. You can't just expect me to fall into your arms after everything that's gone down in the past couple of days." She pushed her way inside.

"Done?"

"Yes now I'm done."

"Now what are you doing here at 2:30 in the morning?"

"I was at Simon's and I thought I would try and talk to you again. I knew you were still up."

"Stalking me now?"

"No."

"I'm kinda glad you came over." He stepped closer towards her leaving only a little gap between them.

"Really now?"

"Yeah I didn't mean what I said earlier."

"Its okay."

"You sure?" She pulled him closer to her pressing her lips against his. He pulled away and looked down at her.

"Yeah." He yawned and then Ruthie yawned. "Are you tired?"

"Yeah just a little bit."

"Oh well then I'll better go so you can sleep." She started towards the door but Martin gently grabbed her arm.

"Or you could stay with me." She turned towards him asking with her eyes. "If you want too that is." She smiled at Martin as he blushed. She kissed him lightly on the lips as they walked to his room.

As soon as her head hit the pillow she was out and Martin fell asleep looking at her sleeping like an angel. Both slept that night with a smile on their faces, now only if they could figure out that's going on between them.