A simple monologue (type of thing) from Jack's point of view.

Disclaimer: Don't own 'em, wish I did cos then Jack would be mine, savvy?

Lost

I shouldn't be feeling like this.

At first I thought it was a phase, that it would blow away on the sea breeze, but it's turned into something much more. I know it's wrong of me, it's not like I want to be feeling these feelings that are feelings that I shouldn't be having, but I can't help it.

I love her

Jack, you're a fool, I know what they're all thinking. Maybe I am, there was a time when I wouldn't have been sitting here tormenting myself like this. Maybe I'm going soft.

I want her

I've often wondered what would have happened had I never met her, never been marooned on an island with her, never helped rescue her from Barbossa. Would things have turned out different? Or would I have just met some other woman and felt the same way? It's hard to say I guess, it didn't happen that way did it?

I need her

So many times I've wanted to kiss her, to hold her in my arms and breath in the scent of her soft skin. She's so beautiful, and, unfortunately engaged to be married to one Mr. Will Turner, now don't get me wrong he's a fine lad is Will, but I sometimes wonder if he's what she really wants. Many a time I've watched her gaze longingly at the sea as we've travelled from place to place and I can't help thinking that what she craves is freedom, adventure, and the chance to see the world. I could give her that, without a second thought too.

Who am I kidding? She wouldn't want me, besides, a pirate life is no life for a woman of her stature.

I can see her, standing on the deck looking out to sea, the wind in her hair and the sun highlighting her natural beauty. She'd look so fine on my arm at the wheel of the Pearl.

Get a grip Jack, go and drink your rum, it'll do you good.

I wonder what she'd do if I went up to her and told her how I feel. Probably slap me and tell me to get a grip of myself, I wouldn't blame her though. Then there's Will, what would he say? What would he do to me? More likely than not he'd threaten to send me down to Davy Jones' locker, oh well, it'd save the old geezer the trouble of trying to capture me I suppose.

What am I going to do? I need to be with her, without her I'm simply Jack.

I never thought I'd feel this way about anyone, and yet here I am, lost in a sea of feelings that I have no idea how to show, and even when I finally do figure that out, who's to say I'm going to be in time to make her mine?

I'm just… Lost.

There, rather short but i liked it where it ended and left it. Please R&R amd tell me what you think XD