A Destiny I Never Wanted

By Tenchi Malfoy

Disclaimer: Obviously, the things you recognize are not mine or I would be rich! Well the only thing that is mine is a few select characters and mannerisms as well as the plot to the story.

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Chapter 6: Breakdowns

His stared silently at the door that Rico had closed softly as he walked away from the situation…away from Harry. Even know he couldn't remember exactly what had happened he still felt responsible. He bit his lip uncertain as he turned back toward his mum and dad who were looking sadly at him. He looked questionably at them as if asking for confirmation and turned away silently as he received two nods.

Harry put his hands in his pockets as he took a deep breath and walked out of the room slowly. He was going to figure out exactly what had happened and try to fix the problem. Harry opened the door and walked out slowly toward the living room to sit down and think for a second in silence.

He had to talk to Rico but he didn't know where to find him. All he could think about was that one word, kill. The word that had ruined his old life, the word he hoped wouldn't ruin his new one. To fix his problem he needed to find Rico and to find him he needed Trebel.

"Trebel," Harry whispered quietly knowing that Trebel had heard by the crack that issued soon after.

"What may Trebel do for Harry sir?" asked Trebel as he looked at his master happily. Harry looked up at the house-elf sadly before taking another deep breath and letting it out slowly.

"I need you to show me to Rico's bedroom if you could," replied Harry as he stood up. Trebel looked inquiringly at him which he smiled sadly but stayed silent.

"Trebel is not sure that is such a good idea Master Harry," said Trebel as he bowed his head in shame for somewhat refusing his master's command.

"I know but I need to talk to him Trebel," Harry said as he sighed and sat down reluctantly as he put his head into his hands.

"Trebel doesn't quite understand sir," murmured Trebel confusedly as he looked at his master uncertain of Harry's actions.

"Well that makes two of us," snapped Harry bitterly as he glared at the house-elf who squeaked and closed his eyes.

"Sorry Master I won't do it again, I will punish myself," spoke Trebel rapidly as he started twisting his ears. Harry stared surprised at the house-elf and his own anger which had been building up since he had arrived. He sighed once more as he banged his head against the table.

"No Trebel it's my fault I shouldn't have lost my temper," Harry said miserably as he picked his head up from the table. "It's just I have had a lot of problems these last few days and now I have another one," muttered Harry more to himself then to Trebel who was listening sadly.

"Yes well I will show you to Mister Rico's room," announced Trebel proudly as he stuck out his chest with newfound confidence. Harry smiled earnestly as he jumped up off the couch and picked the surprised house-elf and spun him around.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you," Harry muttered over and over into Trebel's large pointed ears. He set down the small house-elf and dusted off his robes subconsciously.

"I am only here to serve sir, follow Trebel if you would," responded Trebel quietly as he weaved himself out of the living room. Harry followed silently as he contemplated Trebel's words. Was Hermione right along did Trebel and all other house-elves only here to serve? Or could there be some other reason as to why they were brought here if not to just help wizards? Harry didn't know but he wanted to find, he had to find out for Trebel.

"Trebel is wondering sir if you are going to be eating with the Mistress and Master tonight with Mister Black and Mister Lupin?" asked Trebel as they climbed the staircase.

"You know what Trebel I think I will," answered Harry with a small smile on his face and a twinkle in his eyes.

"Oh the Mistress shall be most excited!" squeaked Trebel as he came to the landing in the stairs and waited for Harry to reach it as well. Harry nodded slowly before biting his lip nervously and asking Trebel a question.

"Why would she be excited?" asked Harry attentively almost afraid to even ask such a question because of fear of the answer. Trebel shook his head sadly as he look down to his dirty booties.

"Master Harry hasn't had dinner with the family since he was seven years," answered Trebel with a small glance up to Harry who was nodding almost expectantly.

"Oh," he murmured with a guilty look on his face as he looked away from Trebel with a sigh. "I wasn't a nice person was I Trebel?" asked Harry already knowing the answer as he looked ashamedly down at his feet.

"No sir you weren't," whispered Trebel with a sad shake of his head before snapping his fingers and disappearing with a pop. Harry looked up surprised at the sound and noticed he was standing in front of a dark red door.

Harry took a deep breath before he knocked softly on the door. A quiet muffled go away was all he heard before sighing once more and running his hand through his hair. He closed his eyes and bit his lip again before opening his eyes and nodding his head to himself. Harry slowly reached for the golden doorknob and twisted it slowly before pushing the door open gently.

He walked into a dark red painted room with a golden bed. Dark mahogany furniture was spread about the room and a large muggle fish tank sat by one wall with peculiar looking fish. There was a door that obviously led to a bathroom on one side and a door to a closet on the other. A red fir rug lay across the golden linoleum floor and a large window with a seat stood on the back wall. He noticed a small lump under the comforter on the bed and noticed the odd curled up shape it was in.

"Rico could I maybe talk to you?" asked Harry nervously as he wriggled his thumbs and bit his lip. A small grunt was all he got in return so he went and sat down on the bed before speaking once more.

"Rico I know I am bad person and that I am not the best brother," started Harry sadly. "But I want to be," Harry finished in nothing more then a whisper. Not really expecting a whisper he put his head back into his hands. A small shuffle was heard and he looked up to see his brother looking at him suspiciously.

"You do?" asked Rico with a slightest bit of hope in his voice. Harry nodded not really trusting his voice at the moment. "I thought I was just a small and pathetic failure?" asked Rico as he looked down into his hands.

"You don't look like a failure to me, you look like my brother who I love," answered Harry truthfully with a small smile gracing his features. Rico still looked a bit unsure but nodded happily as he sat all the way up and folded his feet beneath him.

"Is this a prank?" asked Rico as his smile faded into a glare. Harry furrowed his eyebrows as he shook his head hesitantly.

"Umm c-could y-you, well I w-wanted to k-know if you umm could tell me about that a-accident," stuttered Harry looking into his brother eyes that he now noticed had speckles of brown in them. Rico looked away almost immediately with a stubborn look in his eyes and a glare plastered to his face.

"No," replied Rico stubbornly as he suddenly found the red rug quite interesting. Harry looked hurt but nodded his head in acceptance.

"Well you don't have to I just wanted to know and I-" mumbled Harry apologetically but before he could finish Rico said something.

"You really want to know?" Rico asked so quietly that Harry had to strain to here exactly what he had said. Harry nodded as he kicked off his shoes and sat down on Rico's bed and looked back at Rico attentively.

"Well it all started when we were outside," started Rico with a large breath.

Flashback:

Rico was outside playing with Jenny who had come over his house earlier. Jenny was turning eight soon and had bright red hair with small sparkling blue eyes. They were watching Cyzelena who was running with the Pegasus when Rico heard a door shut loudly. He and Jenny looked up alertly and stood up at the sight of his older brother.

"Hey Rico, playing with the Weasley girl again?" asked Harry disgustedly as he sneered at Jenny who returned the gesture. Rico nodded angrily as he tried to stay calm because he knew his brother was baiting him. "What have I told you?" asked Harry with a glare and an arrogant tone in his voice.

"That the Weasley's are trash and always will be trash," answered Rico with a small sigh and turned away from the hurt gaze Jenny was sending him. Harry smiled maliciously as he sneered back at the girl and let out a small, cold chuckle. "But your wrong, the Weasley's are better then you!" exclaimed Rico with a shake of his fist. Jenny looked up surprisingly and smiled shyly at Rico who winked at her.

"What did you say?" asked Harry angrily as he looked down at his brother and took the few steps that were separating him and Rico.

"You heard me or are you deaf?" asked Rico sarcastically as he glared back at his older brother.

"Why you little twit, you will pay for that!" yelled Harry as he pushed the boy to the ground roughly. Rico took in a large breath and realized that this time he had gone too far. Harry picked up the slender boy easily and hoisted him over his shoulder as he pushed down the small girl to the floor and laughed as she sat there crying.

Harry laughed as he walked along whistling through his brother's cries and pleas to put him down. Harry just ignored Rico as he walked toward a large lake and smiled evilly before getting Rico into his arms and off his shoulders so he could see what was about to happened.

"This is what happens when you insult me," said Harry as he let go another malicious chuckle. Rico looked up and rubbed his eyes questionably before looking at the water fearfully and starting in another fit of cries.

"No please Harry," begged the small boy as he hung on to Harry for dear life. Harry just sneered disgustedly at the boy before tilting Rico's chin toward him.

"You're not my brother but a failure toward the Potter name," replied Harry with a tight lipped glare. Then he threw Rico into the deep lake for him to get out by himself. Only problem was, Rico couldn't swim.

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"Jenny had left to get mum soon after and found you sitting down by a nearby tree whistling to yourself," whispered Rico with an uncontrollable shiver running through his body.

"What happened next?" asked Harry hesitantly with small tears rolling down his pale cheeks.

"Mum seen the splashing about a minute after you had through me in, I was giving up hope and started sinking," Rico said before taking another deep breath and continuing. "It another few minutes before dad could get me out and by then I was unconscious and not breathing. Dad did that popping thing and took me to St. Mungo's where they revived me," finished Rico as he started to sob quietly and laid back down against his pillows. "I almost died and you were still back at the manor whistling cheerfully to yourself and laughing every other moment," added Rico as he sniffed and covered him self with the large blanket.

Harry was lost for words as he stared at his brother, the brother he never had and almost killed. During that time all his other self could do was laugh and whistle? Was he like this in reality? He lied down next to his brother and protectively put his arm around the boy's small waist. Rico stiffened at first but soon relaxed as Harry brushed the boy's red hair out of his closed eyes.

"Don't worry Rico I won't you fail again," he murmured more to himself then to the sleeping Rico. Harry murmured that over and over until oddly he was whistling a soft tune that sounded kind of familiar. He chuckled once softly before falling asleep with a whistle like snore a laugh like breath.

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AN: There you guys go and oh my there was a lot of reviews and now you get t know what the whole killing thing was about. But no doubt you all have some more questions about this chapter and I gave you a better look at this dimensions Harry. Oh my I cried when I wrote this chapter but especially the part with Rico and the old Harry! Well I want to thank all of you who reviewed and answered my question and hope you like the new chapter!

Ranma Hibicki- Yah well you get a better gist in this chapter and I am glad you liked the last chapter. I got what you were trying to say though and yah you are kind of correct. You were saying that the old Harry was like our Harry's Bellatrix right? Well I hope you like the new chapter and sorry it so short but I don't have the time to right a really long chapter!

80286- Thanks but yes he will be going to Hogwarts in time for his second first year. Yah I thought I did okay but you will see more of them in the next chapter as well as Remus and Sirius. There is a Ginny and a Jenny I decided that I wanted Ginny to have a sister so thus Jenny was bored. Ginny is about ten now and Jenny is a newly turned eight year old. No Rico will not end up with Ginny he is rather young for her but I think you know who he may end up with though. You find out in this chapter why and how but if you want more information on the subject just go ahead and ask me! I want you to think of more questions because I like questions and even more I like to answer them! Thanks for your forgiveness and sorry that the chapter is kind of short but I hope you like it!

Imill123- Yup that is what Dumbledore told them and I cannot tell you what they are going to say when they figure out he is not which will be soon that I can promise you! Who is to say there wasn't any tests or spells might I add done to Harry I never did say but all will be revealed about Harry's supposed Squibility, I just made that up! Harry will not get the Holly and a Phoenix feather wand but he will get a powerful wand. I am not saying how powerful or if it is more powerful then the Holly but I will say Neville will maybe get the Holly wand and may not. Hope you like the new chapter and keep the questions coming!

Shadowed Rains- Yah they are and that will only increase as they spend more time with this Harry. There will be more Lily and James in the next chapter as well as Remus and Sirius. Yah it will take a while before people get used to the new Harry but the scars will never heal from the old Harry. There is a Ginny and a Jenny one is about ten and the other just turned eight. Actually the height is quite possible and I didn't say he was five foot tall I said around there but he is really about 4'10 and when I was seven I was five foot but I am rather tall for my age and so is he! Plus he is about to turn eight in a week or so I believe! Sorry if I came off rude but I just wanted you to know and couldn't find another way to word it. Don't worry I feel the same way but nobody will no for awhile because my cold heart feels that it is necessary for Harry to keep it in so something will grow! Thanks and I hope you like the chapter!

Junky- Yes he still has all his old skills and abilities but his physical and magical abilities he will have to improve as the other Harry was a squib and his body needs to adjust. So Harry will be having an extra hard summer trying to get his magical levels up some more to an adequate level. Where parseltongue is concerned you will just have to wait and see if he has it but you will not have to wait that long, I can tell you that much. I am a supporter off Harry being the hero as well so don't worry he will be someway or another! Hope you like the new chapter and thanks for answering my question and all!

Intromit- Glad you like the Lily and James part and hope you like the new chapter as well!

DebsTheSnapeFanNow- Hope I got your name right but thanks for reviewing and hope this chapter is not vague for you and answers some of your questions. Hope you like the new chapter and thanks for reviewing!

Gaul1- Um thanks I think, hope you like this chapter as well!

AlwaysSariyana- Thanks for reviewing and hope you like the new chapter! Don't worry they will be more suspicious but right now they are barely spending time with him a confrontation may be in the next chapter but if not it will be in the one after for sure!

Inu-Angel Z- Thanks it means a lot to me that you think I did a good job on James and Lily. Yah I knew it would be but it was a necessary thing for the plot line. I am glad you like the last chapter and hope you like this one as well!

Dragon's Cry- So do I that is was I decided to write one. Usually if I get set on a certain plot I make my own story up about it using my own ideas and stuff so yeah that is how this story has come to be! Yes he is very mysterious and people will notice that and the mysteriousness will grow with him! Lily and James are cute together and you will get more of them in the next chapter along with Remus and Sirius! It is fine I was just wondering anyways I hope you like the new chapter

Petites Sorceries- Or should I say small witches? Anyways I would prefer it if you didn't used French but you can do it if you don't know English. I am glad that you like the chapter and I understand what you are saying about the questions about the change in Harry but Lily and James have not been around our Harry to notice a very large change but they will! Did you mean to call me crazy or him well I guess I am a bit crazy sometimes! I am a girl you can see that in my profile if you would like! I don't understand that sentence but Harry is not going to be really super but he is going to be strong that I can tell you. I know that Harry is the boy who lived but in my story he switches his destiny for an even harder and better one. I never said that his connection to Voldemort was gone I just said it had disappeared but all will be revealed soon enough! Hope you like the new chapter and thanks for reviewing!

R-Kruelle- Thanks I think its pretty good myself! Thanks for reviewing and I hope you like the new chapter!

YumiFukushima- It's all right but you should really go back and read why he is mad because it is a very big reason. You need to know why to understand this chapter so if you still haven't figured out why then you should! Yes I know the names are a bit weird but once again it all has to do with the plot lines a junk like that! Hope you like the new chapter and thanks for reviewing!

DDwelling- Wow thanks nobody has ever been that enthusiastic about my story and I really enjoy it so thank you! Don't fret he can do magic and they will find out very soon! Hope you like the new chapter and thanks for reviewing!

NSW- Thanks and hope you like the new chapter!

AzureSky123- I Happened to think so too! Well thanks for reviewing!

VFPC- Well here is your update and hope you like it and aren't disappointed at all. Thanks fore reviewing and hope to see you soon!

Well that was a lot of reviewers and I loved every moment of it! But now I am tired and want to go to bed because I don't have school tomorrow and am really glad about it! But I cannot forget to ask my weekly question and hope that you all answer it! Well here it goes and please answer it if you can!

Question: Who do you think Harry should be friends with when he eventually goes to Hogwarts?

Ooh that is a good one so all of you please answer it if you can! I will see you all soon at least in the next week or so okay? Well all of you have a good weekend and I love you all!

Love yah,

Tenchi Malfoy