Author's Note: I hope this is helping you guys understand Edward's reasons better because it is a true pain sometimes trying to analyze his character.
Disclaimer: Me no own Twilight. Simple enough?
I refrained from going to Bella's house and see her because I knew I had to give her space or she'd run away even more than she already did. I don't think I could track her if she wanted to get away from me. Instead, I waited impatiently for morning to arrive and began to get ready for school. Bella has made me look forward to another day again by just being present in my life. I took a bit of extra time taking a shower and dressing so I wouldn't have free time to get anxious again. I went downstairs and saw the others already ready and waiting for me. They were all blocking their thoughts from me, probably because they didn't want to bother me with more thoughts of Bella than I already have.
I grabbed my keys from the hanger by the door and went out to the car. The others followed quietly but I think they were a bit anxious too. I wasn't the only one that loved Bella. They all were happy to see her back, even Rosalie. They just wished it didn't have to end up like this. I got in the car and gunned the engine. It came to life instantly and I pulled out of the driveway, driving to school.
Edward, sooner or later she'll realize why you did what you did and forgive you. Bella's not an unreasonable person, she'll listen eventually; she's just too shocked right now. Give her some time, you'll see.
I smiled at Alice for her comforting thoughts but I already wasted enough time and couldn't afford to lose anymore.
I drove into the parking lot and pulled into my parking space easily. The school's entire student population was standing around in the parking lot by their cars in groups and talking about random subjects.
I scanned for Bella and spotted her down my left. She was having a conversation with Troy. His thoughts infuriated me and anger threatened to consume me. I calmed myself, reminding myself that I had more important issues on my hands right now.
Bella dismissed Troy's offer to take her to class and walked away. When she was at the entrance to the school she paused to glance at her watch. I made my way towards her hoping she wouldn't try to run. She looked up and caught sight of me.
Instantaneously, she walked into the empty school as if she's seen a ghost. She walked much faster now, she was going at vampire speed-walking speed. I sped up too in an attempt to keep up with her.
She broke out in a run in response to my speed and I was forced to do so too. She was fast but not as fast as me. She must've realized it because she suddenly stopped and threw me a hateful glare.
"What do you want?" She asked coldly.I stopped in my tracks, a bit shocked that she had given up so easily. I gazed at her angry expression. I knew it wasn't the time, but she was adorable when she was angry. Her eyes seemed to glaze over for the briefest second before they returned to normal.
"I want to talk to you," I replied knowing I was pushing my luck.
"I thought I made it clear I didn't want to talk to you," she snapped. It seemed that she knew exactly what to say to ruin my day. She knew exactly what she was doing and her words reflected it. This was a side of Bella I've never seen before and it only made her more special. No one have ever hurt me with words before.
"Bella, I know you're mad at me and I don't blame you-"
"I don't either. In fact, I blame you," she interrupted cleverly. I let out a sigh and pulled my gaze from hers, tired of looking at the coldness in them. She wasn't going to make this easy for me.
"I know but can't you at least give me a chance to explain myself?" I shot back getting a bit frustrated.
"Why? So you can lie to me again, and a few month later, decide to leave again?" She argued matching my statement. "You know, it was bad enough that you left. The least you could've done was let me believe that you never existed but you just had to leave your stupid rose behind. So pardon me for not wanting to get hurt again." Her words were dripping with sarcasm but I was too shocked to say anything back. She had misunderstood everything. While I was in a daze, she turned and walked away. I wanted to follow her but my legs refused to obey my brain and remained planted on the spot where she left me.
I stood there until the bell rang. I didn't even remember going to class today but somehow I ended up in the lunchroom a while later. I got the food that I was going to use as my prop today and sat down at our usual table. I picked at my food while re-running the conversation I had with Bella this morning wondering where everything went wrong. When the bell rang again for fifth period, I had picked my food into microscopic pieces. I got up swiftly and dumped the tray into the trash.
I followed the rest of the student body into the hall and went to my Theater class. I don't know why I was signed up for this class but didn't feel the need to go through the long process of having it changed. Besides, I've never had a problem reciting lines from a piece of paper and play pretend like I was in the story. It just required a bit more attention than usual, but mostly, it was a lot of down time without the background noise of the teacher's lecture.
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