--Fight Harder Huh? I don't see you fightin' so hard Baby. I don't see you running up to Daddy telling him I'm your guy
--I will, With my father its complicated. I will tell him.
--I don't believe you baby. I don't think.. that you ever had any intention of telling him EVER
The radio in the alarm clock went off at 7 am. The same time that it went off each morning. It played the same song each morning and that was how the day started. Just as it did every morning, it must have been going for fifteen minutes maybe more. The only reason I woke up was because of that dream.
"Fight Harder Huh?"
Those words kept playing over and over in my head as I woke up in a cold sweat. It was the same dream that I had been having every night for the last four months. It was the same dream that woke me up night after night. It was the same dream that seemed to plague me. After leaving Kellerman's and leaving the love of my life. I went off to Mt. Holyoke. Hoping that maybe I could go on with my life. Go on with the fact that we couldn't be together. Johnny is the one person that become me. Everything inside me loved him and at first he probably couldn't stand the thought of being around me but in time I guess you can say he grew to have strong feelings for me. Even though he never came out and said that he loved me, I knew. It was in the way that he looked at me. There was no denying it. No matter how hard anyone could try. We loved each other.
--I can't imagine being here without you even one day.
--Just think you'll have more time for horseshoes and croquet. Maybe they'll saw you into seven pieces.
-- I guess we surprised everyone.
--I guess we did... I'll never be sorry.
--Neither will I.
--I'll see ya.
Rolling out of the bed I stumbled over a few pieces of loose clothing scattered across the floor from the night before. This was my morning ritual. My fingertips slipped over the button turning the alarm off with one push. "Will you still love me tomorrow?" She sighed softly repeating the music that played on the radio. "Will you still love me tomorrow?" She questioned herself again. "I have to stop thinking about that because its going to get me no where. It's not going to change things and I know that. I just have to accept it. No matter what it takes." I sighed as I stretch out. "How could I let myself get this far into it?" I knew from the get go what was going to happen but I still let it take place.
Running my finger through my hair I made my way over to the mirror, I stumbled a bit as my fingers ran slowly over the small bump that was forming. Even though I was already four months along you couldn't really tell that I was pregnant. My small form hid it well but I knew that I would soon be showing. Soon you would be able to tell that I was indeed pregnant. Soon I would have to tell everyone that I was pregnant. Pregnant with Johnny Castles baby.