Slowly stretching out I looked at myself in the mirror. The bump had gotten more noticeable over the last few days. I sighed softly as I grabbed a shirt and threw on a pair of jeans. When I found out that I was pregnant, I made the decision right then and not to tell anyone. Not even the most important people in my life. Not even Johnny. I felt that the best way to handle it was to keep it to myself. I knew eventually that the truth would come out and I would have to explain it to everyone, but while I was away at school I knew that I had enough time to come up with something. Even if it was some kind of lie. As much as I hated saying that it might had to be done. My father hated Johnny and I knew that more than anyone else. He never felt that he was good enough for me. Even though he knew that Johnny was not responsible for what happened to Penny he would never approve of Johnny and I being together. He would understand why made us us. Closing my eyes for a minute, I left my mind drift back to Kellerman's. Back to a night when it was all about us.
You want to hear something crazy?
Last night I dreamt that we were walking along and we met you father and he said "come on" and put his arm around me just like he did with Robbie.
Snapping myself out of it I looked in the mirror. "You have to stop this. You have to stop this now. You can't spend you life thinking about what might have been. What should have been." I sighed softly as I looked down at my stomach. "I promise you sweetie. I am going to do whatever it takes to make sure that you are safe and happy. No matter what." Throwing on the oversized Mt. Holyoke hoodie I walked over to the bed placing the shoes on my feet.
-I've been looking all over for you.. They found the Schumachers, fingerprinted there water glasses and found out they were wanted in Arizona, and in Florida and they made a fortune here this summer.
-So then its all right. I knew it would work out. I knew they would have to apologize to you.
-I'M OUT BABY.
-They fired you anyways because of me.
-And if I leave quietly, I'll get my summer bonus.
-So I did it for nothing. I hurt my family, you lost your job anyways, I did it for nothing.
-No Not for nothing. Nobody has ever done anything, like that for me before.
-You were right Johnny. You can't win no matter what you do.
-You listen to me. I don't want to hear that from you. You can.
That was when my mind changed about everything. I had always believe in the good that people had to offer. That everyone was alike and no matter what you do you could change the world. "It takes a real saint to ask Daddy." I spoke softly to myself.. I went to my father for the money for Penny, and I went to him after Penny had the abortion. But I couldn't go to my father with this. Not this. I couldn't tell him that I was pregnant. I couldn't tell anyone. I used to be able to tell my father anything but this was different. This would devastate him. "Johnny." I whispered softly. I couldn't tell him either, no matter how much I wanted to. We promised on the day, after the last dance that we would meet back at Kellermans next year. He wanted me to go on to school on not give up the dreams that I had. Maybe by then I could explain what happen. Maybe I would be able to tell him the truth and maybe he would be able to meet his child. I looked over at the clock. By this time tomorrow I will be headed home. Headed back for Christmas Vacation. I know I can hide that fact that I am pregnant from them by using over sized shirts or I can just say that I packed on a few pounds from college. Hopefully mom and dad will buy it and will not question me about it. That was all I needed.
I slowly got up and picked up a few loose items that were scattered around the floor and put them back in there rightful place. I had the place to myself for the night because Anna, my roommate left to go home a day early. Not even my roommate knew that I was expecting and that was the one person that I shated my life at Kellermans with. Returning my books to the library were the last thing on my list before I leave. Grabbing my purse and the books I locked up the door and headed down the long hallway. My mind drifted out with each passing step.
"Sorry about the disruption folks-- but I always do the last dance of the season. This year somebody told me not to. So I'm gonna do my kind of dancing' with a great partner, who is not only a terrific dancer,... but somebody who's taught me that there are people willing to stand up for other people no matter what it cost them. Somebody who's taught me... about the kind of person I want to be. Miss Frances Houseman."
"Whoa. Slow down Tex." I heard as I was quickly snapped back into reality. I had bumped into something and didn't even realized it. The books flew through the air spreading the contents of them on the floor. I groaned a bit and leaned down to start picking them up. "I'm sor." I started to speak as I seen them leaning down to help me. My mouth froze as I saw his piercing eyes. They were so familiar, I gasped softly. "Johnny?"."