1Chapter 7:Look what you've done

While the family was out celebrating after opening ceremonies, I declined an went back to the condo. I figured that one of them forgot to bring the key when a loud knock was at the door.

"You know shaun, I did remind you to bring the key so I wouldn't-." I swung the door open to see Travis rice and Ross powers standing there looking angry with a mix of alcohol in there systems.

"Your not shaun?" The way Travis's body language came off made me feel uncomfortable in my shorts and tank... very uncomfortable.

"I can take it from here" Travis had already pushed his way into the condo and revealed a canteen of hard liquor in hand. He had this gleam in his eyes;

the look I remember to well...

the look that would haunt me

Joe's look.

"Okay Travis lets get you back to your condo; your drunk, tired and scaring me."

"Good babe you deserve it." The way his breath smelt against my face made me cringe.

I pushed him towards the door but Travis had slammed me into the wall making the scab on the back of my head split open and bleed. This scene was too fresh in my mind.

"What the he-" a surge of pain came when travis yanked me up from the ground and was shouting words like: I wish you and your family to hell, if I could kill you and other mental slaps.

I got out of his reach and used all my might to try and make him leave, my attempt didn't work it resulted in travis spinning into me and crashing his mouth into mine. I was so disgusted and shocked that I didn't push him away for a few seconds.

"Get out, get out and leave me alone." I shoved him away and ran for the couch which I curled up and allowing a few tears to run down my check.

Do I really carry around a sign saying 'Hi I'm cara, what's your name. of course you can hurt me'.I had just met travis this night and I was already being physically and mentally hurt. I was getting more and more frustrated at what had happened the more I thought about it.

What could I have possibly done to upset him... to have him curse my me and my family.

Was it just a drunken rage? It couldn't have been his words seemed so meaningful when travis said them.

When I peaked out form my hands travis had not left and had hit the jack pot in his mind. He had found me in a vulnerable state which made his eye glow eerie.

"What are you doing?" travis had dragged me off the couch and was bringing me into the condo's bedroom. When we were at the foot of the bed travis kept trying to shove me onto it, but I fought back.

"Please stop, let go of me travis. Help someone, anyone; help!" travis was grabbing the triceps of my arms and shaking me when he spoke.

"No one can hear you now princess."

"Yes they can rice... help please help."

"You lil' bitch, this will teach you never to mess with me; Make sure to tell him that for me . Or will your little mind not be able to handle that when I'm done with you?."More weight was being forced on my shoulders making me sit on the edge of the bed.

"What did I ever do?" forcing the tears back

Before I could do anything travis had socked me hard in the stomach causing me to collapse backwards onto the bed. I tried to scrunch up into a ball but I was already starting to be raped by travis. Every time my vision would become less fuzzy since the last punch and his blonde hair come into view another punch would come and yet again I would be knocked into darkness.

The weight was lifted and my eyesight was finally coming in without a punch. The front door of the condo was unlocked and I could hear all three of my cousin's conversation with travis.

"Shaun why is he here?" Jesse had murmured

"Just helping your friend get back to the condo after the fall she took down the stairs.."

"What the hell happened, is she ok?"Kari replied finally speaking

"besides a few bruises and bumps she'll live."I could tell travis wanted to get out of there with his urgent tone. silence over took the group before shaun spoke.

"Woah! You didn't even make the team, Why are you here?" Shaun asked arogantly.

"Eh. There's good mountains up here to shred, no reason besides that."

"Uhuh shredding right" Shaun nodded his head in a 'yeah right' way and with that travis had left the room and Shaun, Kari and jesse came running into all four of ours bedroom.

"Cara... Cara..."

"Shaun she can't hear you she's barley conscious." kari was hovering over my head starring at my face and rambling on"Woah, do you see her face, what a fall."

"Feel her head it hot and her breathing is fast; do you think we should call mom and dad?"

Not to make me worry or anything about how I look, but out of what I could process and hear shaun never called his dad, dad unless it was serious.

"Nah, cara just needs to sleep it off." jesse the oldest noted, even though he is the oldest he is not the wises of the group placed me gently on the pillow my body being very limp from Travis's doing. I felt a soft warm hand brush the hair out of my face and softly rubbed his knuckles against my cheek.

If I could only find a way to tell them about my real life because it's getting hard to keep this secret from everyone in my life.

Slowly the voices faded and my vision was showing black fuzziness around my eyes I could only make out the three different blobs of hair colors then nothing.

Travis was soo dead, I may be a tiny person but I could sock him a hard punch right now.

My stomach was killing me, I slowly lifted my head which felt 20 pounds heavier; I moved Shaun's hand from my wrist and made my way to the bathroom. All I could say was what a horrible dream I had. The lights were bright my head killed and my face was swollen by my left eye and temple with purple and green bruises.

It couldn't have been real; the rape, the pain and travis. No it couldn't have... but my face proved it.

SHIT my period. I rummaged through my suitcase and found no pregnancy box, like I was going to bring one it's not like I was planning on going to Italy to get knocked up. I then had an idea to look in Kari's bag as bad as I felt I did it anyway and found what I needed.

"Someone's trying to get lucky" I muttered under my breath.

For about 20 minutes I waited for the results in the bathroom, my stomach was killing me but I refrained from upchucking until I saw the results.

I was 16 and pregnant not just ordinary pregnancy the father of the baby had raped me.

I sat in shock hugging my knees in front of the bowl thinking of what my life had turned into.

A mess that what it turned into; my life started off at being abused by a physco father, then it evened out to when I started downhill racing which really took my mind off joe, then I couldn't handle my father any more so I started cutting my wrists and now im in present day when I met my cousin which so happened to be Shaun, kari and jesse white. And to be bearing a child who's father is pro snowboarder travis rice who raped me, not to mention I had never met before.

My life would be changed, most teenage girls would abort there baby but in this case as much as I wanted to go to that option I couldn't it was strictly against my religion and plus downright in humane it wasn't the babies decision to be born. I had only known my aunt and uncle for a month or so, would they think I was some kind of slut who slept with a pro boarder and got pregnant. I dreamed of going to the Olympics and skiing professionally but this upset the balence.

I slowly made it into the kitchen and started watching loony tunes in Italian; I felt no pain I was emotionally numb and it showed.

"You ok cara, do you want ice?"

I had been staring out the window for god knows how long when shaun looked timid asking if I needed anything.

"No no i'm going to get ready for your competition."

Shaun pov

I couldn't believe how badly cara had supposedly fallen down the stairs. As much as I wanted to believe that was the case it just didn't settle for me travis had always dislike my brother and I which led me to believe something was up.

She was different to and I thought she couldn't be hiding anything else.

She was so mysterious, to the point where she wanted to tell you but wouldn't let her guard down.

I knew something was up when for the last hour car had been staring at the tv blankly.

I'll put it behind me, you have to get focused white as much as you care for her she'll tell you when she's ready..

"You'll do great I promise." cara was the last to wish her luck and was shaking my hair

"excuse me miss the hair."

"What's the difference it's eventually going to get sweaty, wet and messed up." Cara had sprung back to life and said she would explain her fall after the comp.

I took my run and frustrated with my slip on one of the walls, my mind had been somewhere else during that one run particularly on cara.

See this is what happens when you get involved with girl problems.

Cara's POV

At the end of the night shaun was dubbed 'Shaun White Olympic gold medallist' and had an on going process of media which im sure he loved every bit of it.

His family was sharing stories about him as a child until he got back into the lounge.

I really didn't know what came over me when shaun walked in I got this huge sense older brother proudness and rushed over to him after his mom and jumping into his arms. shaun spun me around and when he put me down I hugged him tightly and did that awkward waddle hug where you have no idea which hug to give so you waddle. The whole ordeal looked very 6 year oldish, what can I say I never grew out of my age.

Shaun was out partying with jesse after his victory of the gold and kari and myself stayed back at the condo holding my hair back as I vomited into the toilet.

I shrugged it off to kari as just a bug, yet I knew I was seriously going through with delivering this baby. And if and when I see travis rice no matter where I'm I will fucking smash his head into a brick wall and then I will take a scalpel and scope his insides out. I know it's a very in depth description but that's how I feel.

Later that night with help from Kari we set up a blow up mattress and set it near the bedroom door because of the "bug" in my system. It was no use asking jesse and shaun for assistance considering they were extremely tired and probably had too much to drink.

I fidgeted my hands about trying to decided whether or not I should let it all out.

When I started thinking about who was going to stand beside me during these months, I somehow figured out in my mind that this would all be okay if I told my cousin's . I never really thought it out fully if I should tell them about the pregnancy or joe, I would spontaneously tell which ever my mind would let me say. I carefully tip toed next to the sleeping shaun and knelt down beside it so I was eye level and kept a blank mind waiting till shaun would wake up.

I didn't want to wake him up so I sat on my knees listening to my ipod and staring up at the sleeping shaun.

Any day now... any day now.