Note: Sorry it took me so long to update. This one is well, I think you know when it is. I hope you like it, and please comment. : )
Memories
Memories,
Engraved in my mind.
I search to run away,
From their haunting past.
I try to clear my path,
And end this pain I feel.
But no matter what I do,
No matter where I go,
They find me.
But then there she is,
Guiding my way;
Because no matter what has happened,
She has always been here,
Giving me hope,
Giving me faith.
I was wandering on without anyone, without any help or guidance; just pacing away from this pain. But these memories resurface my eyes. I see her again; I hear her soft voice. She's not here anymore. Not giving me love that I need so much.
Yet now, this boy, he somehow gives me hope. He reminds me of home, when I didn't care about the world around me; I was free, free of responsibility, free to live and love, free to be who I am. He is so careless and joyful, and free, like a hawk soaring above the earth, above the world.
But every time I see him, she reflects in my eyes, she whispers in my ears. She is here. I don't want this to stop. I can't let this stop. Distant, cold, stiff; that is who I am, who I am to the world. But that's not me. I wish I could be the boy I was when I ran endlessly through the grassy meadow in my home, the air glistening as sunlight warmed my skin. Uncle, he followed forever after me. He was with me; we were free.
But no, that is not the man I am anymore. I am scarred, I am shamed, and I can never leave this deathly fate.