Title: Sick in the Head

Summary: Raimundo centric and in mostly Raimundo's POV. After having several wierd experiences Raimundo starts worry if anything is really real. Slight swearing.

Disclaimer: Xioalin Showdown not owned by me.

Chapter 10

Everyone's getting on my nerves a lot more these days. I'm snappy and irritated. They've stopped trying to confront me. And I think good! I want them to leave me the fuck alone! Who needs them anyway! I just want to talk to Dr. Goyendel again. He has the answers that I want— the ones I need— I know he does.

It's noon when I find myself suddenly getting very dizzy, and I welcome it. He'd better be there.

Once again I'm back to the padded cell and straight jacket. I sit impatiently in the corner. The annoyance is plastered all over my face.

It took several minutes before Dr. Goyendel came in. Right away he frowned.

"I have some questions to ask and I'd better get some answers," I state flatly. I don't wait for him to consent, "first, if I've been hallucinating the past two years then why is it that I'm suddenly coming out of it?"

"For the past month, we've been using a new drug on you," he explained casual, "it probably triggered your shock back into reality."

I took several seconds to process that. "All right and why if my world is not real would I make it so horrible?"

"I don't know you tell me that," he asked, "my guess is you feel somehow responsible for your sister's death."

"Why would I feel responsible for her death?" I yell at him annoyed.

"It's very common," he replied.

"And why would I have my own mother die!" I demanded.

"That's when we tried another set of drugs, you responded badly to it and in your mind your mother died to keep you locked into that world," he went on.

I shook my head annoyed; this was a worthless waste of my time.

Or was it?

It did make the slightest bit of sense. This drug was pulling things from my mind. Like Kimiko's voice, or Clay, that one day that I couldn't see him. What about the voices?

"When I'm there I can hear voices and I don't know who they are," I say, and then ask, "What about that?"

"Well, what do they say?" he asks calmly.

"I don't know I can't make it out," I replied staring at him.

"It could be the doctors and nurses around here filtering through your mind," he explained, "that's sounds like the best guess."

It did make sense. Of course everything he said had made sense. But what did I really expected: nonsense?

I tell him to leave me alone and he frowns but leaves.

I sit there seething; why am I so angry anyway. What do I have to be so angry about?

The door opens again and I'm about to yell when I see it's my mother.

She smiles at me just like she always does.

My anger abates a little.

"Hey," she says and sits down near me.

"What?" I ask her quickly.

"I just wanted to talk to you," she says and smiles sadly, "just like we used to."

"What do you want to say?" I ask curiously.

"Oh, tell you the truth I hadn't thought of that," she says and laughs.

"That would be just like you," I state but smile back.

There is silence between us.

I shift uncomfortably. I don't like being in a straight jacket.

"I'd like you to be real," I tell her sadly.

"But I am real," she smiles at me.

I feel my consciousness slipping but I don't want to go yet.

"Don't leave," she says urgently grabbing me and pulling me into a tight embrace.

"I don't want to," I tell her as it pulls me back in.

"Hey, Rai?" Kimiko says she waves hand in front of my face trying to get my attention, "Finally, you need to stop pulling this crap."

"Excuse me! What crap!" I snapped at her.

She looks at me stunned, "Well, spacing out for one."

"Well, you just leave me alone!" I hiss and make to get up.

"Do you really want me to make good on that promise that I made earlier?" she hisses back at me.

"Yes!" I tell her angrily and storm off; because of her I was pulled away from my mom.

I've made my mind up. There's no way this is reality. The very fabric of it is fake; searching for 'mystical' objects. Oh please! My mind was crazy when I made that one up. I mean here when I talk to people stuff happens, they go on mute or they disappear. How can this be real? How did I ever think this was real? If it was I would've never put up with half the shit that I deal with.

How do I get this all to go away and never come back?

End of Chapter 10-

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