Sleepless In Kokubu

Jacob -

Thanks to Misa, Jacob and Janet had to share a room…and a bed. Misa had it in her head that Janet was Jacob's wife and wouldn't see it any other way. Jacob or Janet didn't want to offend her so they played along. Mukong wasn't any help as he grinned and agreed with his wife just to irritate Jacob! Besides, Jacob was going to sleep on the floor and let Janet have the bed. Misa would never know as she and Mukong retired for the evening.

Lying there, with his fingers laced behind his head as he stared out the open window Jacob could feel that Selmak was scheming something. She was awfully quiet while he and Janet had talked out in the garden for over an hour. Perhaps that was a good thing not having her add her two cents in every time he said something. It enabled him to open up as he talked with Janet. He told her things he hadn't said to any woman or closest friend in a really long time.

And in doing so, he found that he missed it. He and Allison used to talk for hours. He could always tell her things he could never say to anyone else. Even after his tour in Vietnam, Allison was there for him when he needed her most.

Janet was so much like Allison that it was down right frightening to Jacob, but frightening in a good way. For Jacob was scared to death when he first realized he was in love with Allison. Even after so many years the feeling was unmistakable within his heart. And just like with Allison, it didn't take him very long to realize he was in love with Janet.

"Jacob!" Janet called quietly.

"Yeah?" he whispered back.

"I can't sleep knowing you're on that hard floor. There's more than enough room for you here."

Jacob sighed quietly to himself. To be honest the floor was rather hard and not very comfortable even with the pillow for his head and a thin blanket to lie on. And he was feeling a little vulnerable lying so close to the window in just in his boxers.

"Jacob, I trust you to behave like a gentleman," Janet added. "I'll lie awake all night feeling terrible about it."

"Ok," he chuckled and moved quietly to the futon bed. "I wouldn't want you to lose any sleep on my account."

"Thank you."

"No, thank you. My back will appreciate it in the morning. Now go to sleep Janet."

Though the futon was indeed more comfortable Jacob could not sleep. His senses wouldn't let him. He couldn't entirely ignore the sweet fragrance that filled the air around him. Nor could he ignore the warmth of her body that was mere inches from him.

With his symbiote enhanced vision, in the darkness he could see her outline as she lay on her side facing away from him. She was wearing a more American style nightgown, as it was a rather warm evening. The gown hugged her womanly form that he found as beautiful as the person he had come to know. Her bare arm rested comfortably on her side, rising ever so slightly as she breathed deeply.

'You have nothing to lose and everything to gain, Jacob,' Selmak quietly told him.

'She would be offended,' he weakly protested and not surprised that his symbiote wasn't asleep.

'No, my friend. Janet chooses to be with whom she wants. She is the kind of woman that allows no one to dictate anything to her. It's not in her personality. And she is one who lives in the moment. Do not be afraid to take the chance.'

'It has been a long time.'

'You have no idea, my friend,' she replied.

'But…we've never…you know.'

'Don't think…just feel. And don't fight it…we are as one…remember?'

Jacob wasn't entirely sure if he was ready for this or not. The desire for Janet was there. The will to act was not. He was afraid. He didn't want to see Janet get hurt. But there was no going back as Selmak moved his hand, setting it on Janet's arm then released control back to him. Jacob held his breath when Janet's head moved slightly at the contact. He couldn't tell if she was awake or not. Her arm didn't move nor did she make an effort to move away from him.

Slowly and tentatively he started caressing Janet's arm lightly with his fingertips. A few moments later, when her hand gently touched his he discovered that she wasn't asleep. Her fingers slowly intertwined with his, caressing each other's. Emboldened, Jacob slid closer to her, cupping her body with his. He pushed himself up on his elbow as his hand affectionately moved up her arm and over her shoulder, carefully pulling aside her hair and exposing her slender neck.

'Tell her, Jacob,' Selmak said encouragingly to him. 'Tell her your true feelings.'

Not rushing, his fingertips tenderly stroked the side of her face and neck. Then he pulled the strap down off her shoulder and kissed her shoulder softly. Her breathing increased ever so slightly and he was rewarded with her body gently moving into his.

"I love you Janet," he whispered into her ear, his hand moving beneath her arm. "We…love you."

His lips found hers and suddenly Selmak started purring. A warm, pleasant heat transferred from her down his spine. His senses came alive like never before! His touch magnified. How he felt was intensified! Selmak's anxiousness mingled with his own.

She told him it would be different…better…more sensual then he could have imagined. But he didn't believe her until now. And this was only the beginning. He was eager to experience more. Jacob made use of some of Selmak's own memories with what he already knew through experience. Thus, enabling him to pleasure Janet in ways even she probably had never even thought of in her wildest fantasies.

And as for Jacob, it was truly nothing like he had ever felt before. Every fiber of his being felt as if it was on fire with ecstasy. Selmak suddenly gave him a gently nudge. He hadn't realized he had stopped what he was doing as he was relishing in this new sensation his body was experiencing.

'Sorry,' he told her.

'No need to apologize,' Selmak mumbled.

He could feel Selmak's anxiousness. He had to remind himself that she was feeling everything he was feeling. While at the same time, he was feeling everything she was feeling. And he was as anxious as she was.

"No…Janet…don't stop," he gasped breathlessly when her hand suddenly moved from his neck. "To pleasure Selmak is to pleasure me…we are one…we feel everything the other is feeling."

"Oh…I'm sorry," she cooed.

Her fingers slid in a teasing manner up his spine, increasing in pressure as they grew nearer Selmak. He could feel Selmak stretch in anticipation. Together the three of them became as one again and again, losing track of time and losing themselves in each other's affections.

It was some time before Jacob tuned back in to the world around him as he gently lay with Janet.

"Sorry," he whispered between his affectionate kisses. "I couldn't help it…I had no idea!"

"No idea?" she managed to asked, while he was kissing her mouth.

"This is my first time with Selmak on board," he explained, looking down at Janet, his hand playing gently with her hair. He even giggled at the state of euphoria he was still in. "Selmak said there were no words to explain it and that I just had to experience it for myself…she was right!"

"And what is she doing right now?" she asked, caressing his face.

Jacob turned inward, his senses reaching out to Selmak. She was purring softly in her own state of euphoria. She gently hugged him, extending her gratitude.

"She's purring and feeling very…very content," he smiled while kissing Janet again.

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Janet -

His breath was hot against her neck in between his deep, moist kisses. And his fingers…Janet inhaled deeply as his fingers touched her in just the right way and in areas she never even thought were sensual. Whether Jacob learned this through experience or from Selmak, Janet didn't care. She felt so alive as he pleased her again and again.

His didn't care for himself. Everything he did was for her benefit. His movements were slow and enticing. Nothing was ever rushed or hurried. It was as if they had an eternity to perform the act of making love. Even how he whispered his affections into her ear seemed to roll slowly from his lips. She heard rumors of how passionate the Tok'ra were but she never knew what a blended man was capable of…until now.

"We do love you Janet," he whispered, moving her hand to the back of his neck.

She felt Selmak move beneath her hand. Startled she yanked it away.

"Do not be afraid, my love," Selmak cooed, putting Janet's hand back. "You as a Doctor already know that the area exposed is highly sensitive. And now you know why."

Janet smiled and understood at last. She lost all track of time as her euphoria consumed her. His kisses were deep and passionate as was all his affections for her. And she somehow managed to return that passion to both him and Selmak. Although at one pointed, Janet's attention drifted because she was concentrating on what she was feeling. From the expression on his face when he pleaded with her to put her hand back suggested that it really had been a long time for both him and Selmak. Of course Janet understood as it had been some time for her as well.

Sometime later when he relaxed onto her, Janet listened intently to him as he apologized for his passionate cry and tried to explain how it was his first time with Selmak within him. To him these were new sensation of euphoria he had just experienced and that he just couldn't keep it all inside. He was talking too fast and sounded so excited. There was some light, enough that she could see the amusement in his eyes.

Then when he fell silent, his gaze changed. Such affection filled those eyes as he smiled at her. She trembled deep inside. She had forgotten what it was like to have a man look her in that way. She missed it. While her husband was an idiot he did truly love her early in the relationship. He just couldn't compete with her, especially not once she became a Doctor. Because in his mind, she became stronger than him and his ego couldn't handle it.

For a long time, Janet was hurt and wouldn't even consider accepting dinner invitations from men after the divorce. She focused on her work. And over the years that was all she knew. Then when she was ready to have a man back into her life her reputation often dissuaded would be suitors from calling. Perhaps that was why she said yes to Jacob.

"I do love you Janet. Selmak and I both do love you so very much," he said softly. "You don't have to say it back. We know it's too soon for you."

"I don't want tonight to end," she whispered back, wrapping her arms and legs around him, not knowing what else to say but knowing what he told her was true.

"I don't want it to either," he said, his handing tenderly caressing her face. "But we will have many nights ahead of us."

"But none will be as tonight…our first time," she said and turned her face away, embarrassed with herself for not wanting tonight's pleasures to end. "Sorry."

Jacob said nothing. He gently turned her face back towards his, smiled, and then kissed her deeply. Their passion for each other slowly came to light again. Janet could feel how much he and Selmak loved her by the passion of their kisses and how their caresses lingered pleasurably. Their love was deep. Deeper than any love any man had every given Janet.

Again, like before, they were consumed by their passion for each other. Janet's senses were only aware of the man in her arms, giving to him as he gave to her. The rest of the world didn't exist as far as she was concerned. All that mattered was the one goal the three of them were striving to achieve. When finally they were as one and their mouths quickly muffled their cries of ecstasy.

He spoke of his and Selmak's affections repeatedly between his passionate kisses as they slowed and lengthened. Janet was unable to return the sentiment. She was afraid to. Still unsure if this was truly passion from her for Jacob or pure unadulterated lust because it had been so long since she last had sex with a man. And she didn't want to hurt his feelings after all they had gone through.

It was some time later when Janet's senses were aware of their surroundings that she felt Jacob pull the blanket over them. She allowed him to hold her in his arms. Together they watched the sun rise. Janet was so surprised that it was morning already.

So surprised, she just had to giggle.

"What?" he asked, his hand caressing her hair.

"I feel like were in a movie," she explained pushing her fingers through his chest hairs. "The bad guys are after us. I'm the damsel, you're the action hero, and…"

"And we just concluded the obligatory sex scene!" he quickly laughed. "Only in this case we made love."

"Yes, you did," she sighed, still trying to sort out her feelings for this man.

Did she love him? Could she love him knowing what he was? A man with a symbiote in his head. Which did have its advantages that Janet took great pleasure in. Then there was Selmak to consider. If Janet did love Jacob, then what of Selmak?

Janet did miss being in love and she felt drawn to him. She felt…a connection with him even though he was old enough to be her father. And she knew Jacob's feelings were true. He's not exactly the kind of man who gives his feelings so freely to people. The evidence was on his hand as the light glinted off his wedding band. She couldn't miss it as his hand caressed her arm that was across his chest.

His love was faithful and everlasting. Her stomach suddenly fluttered at the thought.

"Only question now: How does the story end?" he questioned interrupting Janet's thoughts. "Do we ride of into the sunset together or…"

Janet quickly put her hand over his mouth.

"Don't say anything…let us enjoy this for as long as we can," she requested.

He slowly nodded and she pulled her hand away.

"Sorry," he smiled. "Selmak often says I'm a bit of a sourpuss."

"Selmak and I will have to work on that then," she countered snuggling in his arms.

It was too soon to say if she loved Jacob or not. But it was also too soon to give up and not discover what lay ahead for her with him. After all, this was only their first date.