CHAPTER 4: LIFE IS HARD.
I came home at 8 exhausted from my first day of work. "Where is everyone!" I entered the dark house and turned on the living room light.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Different colors of things shot at me. It took me back to the time me and Tidus made a wish.
Rikku entered the room with a big cake on a cart containing 17 tricky candles lit on it.
They started singing as I smiled warmly. I was too happy to even notice Tidus and Dona. I looked at them and down to their connecting hands.
I looked back at my big blue and pink theme color cake.
"Make a wish." everyone said.
I stopped to think for a moment. I closed my eyes, fold my hands together, put my head down wishing; As long as he's happy, let it stay that way. Between Seymour and I, my feelings adding up 3 years is almost leaving me no matter how hard I try, please just guide me through life to succeed happily.
Seymour smiled and gave me a big kiss. He handed me his present. "I love you babe."
I nodded and smiled back.
JUST THE BEGINING
After we ate junk, we surrounded a table with simple acohol.
"We're gonna drink til we drunk right Yunie?"
I nodded. "That's what we're gonna do." I repeated differently.
Lulu came in with 8 of 24 ounce beer mug. "Fill them cups up." Lulu laughed as she carried back out out 10 pounds of hard liquor.
"First round!" Gippal shouted and raised his cup up. "This is for Yunie's birthday!"
We all cheered and drinked down the whole mug. I swallowed hard and frowned.
"Any suggestions for game?" Wakka sat there thinking.
"Land ocean." Seymour said. "You guys all know how to play it right? 4 similar cards, throw your hands in the middle, last one to do that gets the card, first one who reaches 32 gets full cup from all of us."
I nodded. "Sounds good." Even though I'm not a tough drinker.
"Yep. I like it!" Rikku start picking out cards as Seymour advise her.
Wakka chuckled. "See, I'm never gonna lose then."
Lulu giggled. "Sure you're not."
Seymour looked at Tidus.
Tidus shrugged. "Yeah, sure, why not?"
"Alright! Land Ocean it is." I clapped once.
DRUNK?
After an hour playing Land ocean, we got our results.
Rikku lost two rounds, Lulu lost one, Dona lost three rounds, Tidus lost 1 round, Gippal lost 3 rounds, Wakka lost 5 on accident, not purposely, Tidus lost 2 rounds, Seymour lost 2 and I'm about to lose!
I sigh. "This sucks!" I looked at my number. 29.
Seymour patted me on the back. "It's okay. I'll help-"
"No helping! New rule!" Dona raised her index finger up. "No helping!"
"Tsk.You can do it right babe?"
I nodded. "Right."
Tidus's hand flew down on the card set in the middle.
"Fudge!" I threw my cards on the floor. "Come on. Pass it over guys." I waited patiently.
I gulped Seymour's drink down, then wakka, then Lulu, then Rikku, then Gippal, then Dona with despair. Tidus began filling up my cup with liquor as I showed a sign of puking. I chuckled. "I'm straight."
Tidus slid my cup over to me slowly. A heavy load came up my throat. I cupped my mouth. Seymour rubbed my shoulders. "I'll take it for her."
"You can't!" Dona refused the offer. "Rules are rules."
I cupped my mouth again as my left hand wrestled with my stomach. "Here, I'll take-" Seymour reached for the mug but Dona took it.
"We'll wait."
"Come on, Yunie's not a drinker." Rikku whined. "I'll take it."
I extended out a hand from under me symboling that I got it. Dona sat it on my palm. That fucken whore! I gulped it down. She's got something against me. I laughed inside. But rules are rules.
MORE DRINKS
I lost the next round right after that and drinked a total of 14 of the 24 ounce mug. I was knocked out.
"Is it getting cold in here or is it just me!" I laughed. Everyone looked at me. "What I'm sorry, Can't-" hiccups. Eww. Disguisting! "help myself!"
Rikku laughed also. "I know what you mean."
"What! Come on, you guys are not really buzzed right!" Wakka laughed.
"Seymour." I hugged him. "Why are you guys looking at me!" I laughed bobbing from left to right.
My eyes were half closed. I started to peck Seymour on the lips.
Rikku and Gippal already started.
"Babe are you okay?" Seymour asked.
I moaned.
"Hey Yunie! Yunie!" Lulu shouted. "Chill!" She pulled me back from Seymour.
"Hrmm." I moaned and stood up fixing my thin t shirt. "I'm going out to takea fresh air.You guys have fun." I laughed andletthe door slam after me.
After a while talking to Seymour, I blurted things out carelessly. Then I realize what I've been stressing about lately. I talked with an untactful manner. Tears swell up. Seymour is a great guy and he's done so much things to much. I can never repay him. I come home, exhausted was because of that issue. I work all day with the same thought on my mind, then I get frustated when doing things and everything turns out to ruin my day.
"Babe!" Seymour patted me on the back. "Wasn't that bad. Come on."
"It is bad Seymour." I sniff. "I hate today! I hate everyday!" I paused and wiped my tears. "I hate you! I hate him! I hate her! I hate myself!" I yankedaway my hand he was holding. "Let me go!" I screamed after he refuse to let go.
"Stop acting like such a kid. I should've never let you drink!"
"Yeah! You never should have but it don't matter either way 'cause I need to let it out." I paused and calmed down."Get away from me. I'm fine. I just need time."
"Baby! You're really not acting like yourself! What the fuck is wrong with you? It's late! Why are you out here?"
"Everything is wrong with me! Get away from me if you don't like it." I start walking out of the porch. "Don't you understand me!"
Seymour yanked me back in and backed me up on the wall. I pushed him away. He came towards me harder.
"Don't do this." I said calmlyas his teeth sanked into the skin of my neck. I can't move. His teeth sanked into my skin of my chest. I tried pushing him away. I know he loves me, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me...
I finally pushed Seymour away. Well, not really. He gently pulled back.
"I can't lose you Yuna. You're everything to me."
I looked away and wiped my tears. "I can't stand anything any more! I hate the way the lighting strikes, I hate the way the stars fall, I hate the way I can't stand here and watch him make his mistake. I hate how the moon is shape. I hate how the clouds puff up in the blue sky. I hate how you love m!"
I fell on the ground and silently cry, feeling cold. I feel like throwing up. I covered my mouth as Seymour sat next to me. "I'm sorry. Tell me what's wrong." Seymour paused."Babe, for all these years we've dated, you told me everything, everything!" Seymour moved closer. "So what's holding you back?"
I shook my head. "Don't worry, you won't have to sayall that again 'cause it's over."
There was a dead silent. Without looking at him, I can feel the tension. Seymour held my wrist. "WHY! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME WHEN ALL I DID WAS LOVE YOU!"
I cried because I knew every word he's saying is true. I breath heavily as more tears drowned my point. "I know. That's why I have to let you go before it's too late. I can't continue this. It hurts to much." I said in between tears.
"WHO'S IN THE WAY BETWEEN US! YOU'RE PARANOID FEELINGS?"
I cried as I hugged Seymour tightly. "Even this is a mistake." I said in his arms.
"All you need is time alone and you'll be fine."
"No! Time alone is not even close to what I need." I indicate as he looked down to kiss me. I escaped his arms and quickly walk back in the house.
THE TRUTH IS IGNORED
Tidus ran over to me as I waited deseperatelyforeveron the bench. "I thought you weren't gonna come."
He smiled. "I have 5 minutes before I gotta go pick up Yuna from work."
I smiled as he used my name. I sigh.It took a while before I can think of what I needed to say even though I've been planning this a while back. "Tidus, are you still mad at me?" I started out.
He chuckled. "Of course not."
"Okay. I'm just gonna get right to the point considering that you're gonna go pick up Yuna." I paused and sigh. "Tidus... I still love you. There was never a day in my life ever since I met you did I not think of you." Since we were 8. You were the sweetest thing that ever happened my life.. and.. you're still the sweetest thing ever.
"Yunie. I met her already. No matter what happens, I'm gonna stick with her." Tidus looked me in the eye with the seriousness thats telling me to back off.
I sigh with no fear of tact. "What if you found out she's not Yuna? What if she lied to you! You don't even know her! Will you love me then? You said Iseem like Yuna! What changed your mind? Do you even have any feelings for her? You know you don't but you're just convinced that she's Yuna!"
Tidus hesitated. "She's Yuna okay? Don't try to seperate us 'cause I love her and none of your words will effect my feelings for her." Tidus stood up coming his hair with his fingers.
I ran in front of him and held the front of his shirt defiantly. I cried. "Tidus. I love you, can't you see. I don't care if she's your child hood girl. Why don't you put that in the past in move on! How do you know if she even loves you any more! You don't know what happened between now and when you were gone! You can't beleive her!"
"Then I can't beleive you either." Tidus backed away."I don't need you to tell me what I can't believe and what I can. You need to incept what is right now. I can look out for myself. Maybe if you're so wondering in curiousity, lemme tell you, she still has my breaclet that I gave her when we were young. Is that enough for you now! I have to go pick Yuna up from work." Tidus proclaimed and pulled walked around me. "Are you happy now! I told you the truth. Now, you can take that truth and move on."
"Stop calling her YUNA. She's not YUNA! If you don't beleive me and if you don't wanna see me again or hear my voice, I only want you to do me just one favor! Don't call her Yuna. Call her by Dona." I shouted in a complete different subject.
"I'm not listening to you. Save your breath."
"Then you're gonna have to see me again and you know you want that. That's why you're refusing my offer!" I stopped crying. "TIDUS!" I shouted. He just continued walking. "I'm Yuna." I squeaked with hot tears drowning my voice.
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