It frightens me not being able to help Ruby, she gets sicker and sicker by the hour.
If she dies I will lose the only person who sees through the lies, the deceit, the only person who sees the real me, who I truly am not Ram or Gabe, not all the things I pretend to be, just me.
I hate that I have lost control of my life, my destiny, that the place where we end up will be where ever this boat lands.
I struggle to keep control over myself, my emotions, I am Ram leader of the Techno nation, I am a genius, a king among the rabble, a leader, a soldier, a man. I am Ram, I will not break, I will not bend.
There are storm clouds up ahead...