Ruby is an angel now. That's what Amber told Lottie, she might be a little kid but she is not that stupid, part of me wants to reach out to her, I know she loved Ruby. There are no angels, there's no god, no heaven and if there is a hell then this is it. It reminds me of some song lyrics from before
"One
thing, I dont know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you
try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain due
time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as
the pendulum swings
Watch it count down till the end of the
day
Clock ticks life away
Its so unreal
You didn't look
out below,
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to
hold on
Didn't even know, I wasted it all
Just to watch you
go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all
fell apart
What its meant to be
Will, eventually be,
A
memory of a time,
When I tried so hard and got so far
But in
the end, it doesn't even matter...
I had to fall, to loose it
all...
But in the end, it doesn't even matter...
Part of me wishes I could believe Amber, Ruby would be a good angel, she was my angel, the right to my wrong.
I wish we had more time together, I feel so empty inside, so very alone.
Amber puts her hand upon my shoulder in a comforting gesture and I fight the urge to cry once more. I do not want her pity, I want my world to be full as it once was, I want to see my angels face one last time, I don't care that she saw me cry as I cradled the dead girl in my arms.