Writer: Azure K Mello
Title: A Bond Never Dies
Part: 43?
Words: 369
Warnings: Angst. Non-canon.
Remus said he didn't have a problem with looking at Harry. But he clearly had a reservation about having James and Sirius move in. Did he have a problem looking at someone else? Sirius felt sick but he forced himself to act the question that he'd been wondering about ever since he'd gotten out of the cars hours before. "Do you hate me?" He then added onto the thought in a quick pace before his friend could reply, "It's ok if you do. You can tell me. I think I would hate you if our rolls were reversed. If you got Lily back and James was dead I would resent you so badly. And I would hate myself for thinking it but I would hate you. And I don't think I would let you live in my house because I think it would drive me mad. You can tell me the truth, it's fine. This was a really stupid idea, I just thought that maybe we could all live together and be happy again. And I'm sorry."
"I should have known it was your idea. James is too busy obsessing over Lily's relatives to think about living arrangements." He smiled reminiscently, "I don't hate you. I've grieved for Lily, I knew she was dead. I've had three years to move on. You were in that awful place unsure if he was still alive. You spent three years agonizing. I can't begrudge you happiness now. And I don't think you would hate me. Not if our rolls really were reversed. If I had spent three years there. . . you couldn't hate me for getting my life back. I don't want you to leave. Yeah, it might sting to see you and James happy together but it would hurt much more if I lost you both. Or if you were both miserable. I like seeing you happy I want you here. I lost my family that day. I've been as good as dead for the last three years. I don't want to lose you again."
"But," Sirius said slowly, "you have a reservation, before you looked unsure about all this."
"No, it's just, where's Harry going to sleep?" Remus laughed.