Hello normal creeps / pawns / grunts and people assigned with menial tasks! It's me once again but in a new category- I'm also Imouto for those in the know and i'm still watitng for the day the Haruhi ticket will be approved.

Foreword: This fic is based on my perceptions of thought processes via the third or second person view but narrated in the first.

This is a sort of Haruhi-centric fic- it deals with her thoughts.

My Standard Disclaimer is applied here- so look at my profile for that.

Prologue:

I feel so insignificant.

Everyday of my life, these words have been my thoughts- who cares if you do feel that way anyway? Well anyway, those words have been my thoughts each time I wake up- listening to the sound of the fan blowing, even the birds to the splashing Koi in the pond to the gentle trickling of the stream beside my room, all of this the fabric of my routine called life.

I now open my eyes…

Still the same… Light fixture, ceiling, star stickers- still the same old things. I still can't and will refuse to believe that this small space is really small compared to the grand scale that lies just beyond my hands- just out of reach.

I now sit up on my futon, look to the left and right… nothing changed... my room still feels like a prison for me- one that has kept me for three years or even beyond that… I simply don't know. I feel cold. I take a moment to close my eyes and recollect of all the things that have happened- a lot of things; a lot of sad things, of unfulfilled wishes, desires, needs and wants- I want something, I wish for something I need and desire... I look at the hanger holding the one thing that I liked since I have acquired it- a uniform of North High.

I wonder if he- impossible, it has been three years already- he might be attending university now, or maybe his beliefs have been changed since then- well he might have not changed his beliefs but… I'm sure that he's not there anymore.

I want to see that light again… that light that helped me decide what to do today- from now on.

I now stand up and look at myself in the mirror- looking nice there.

I have decided, after all those years of thinking that I'm going to change- no waiting for the enemy to pass- I'll just go to their base and take them all! Unleashing full firepower, aim directly at all the weak spots! Take whatever is in reach and grab more! Believe and think outside of the box called logic- that's what I'm going to do… for I will have that real life that each one of us should have- yes, I will find it- that light…

I will find myself… I will absolutely…Because I am Haruhi, Haruhi Suzumiya- and the word impossible will be impossible for me!

"Hey Haru, keep your energy down a bit!" a familiar voice came in- uncle's- oops; it's only 7 AM- better not drive them too much.

I will feel significant.

And boy, I was really that right on that word- literally.