To Have Lost Chapter 4: Broken Home, a dragon ball z fanfic

"To have Lost"

By: Anoke

Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "Broken Home" By Papa Roach

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Broken home

All alone

Broken home

All alone

Against my will I was brought back here. To my prison. My windows in my room have bars on them now, I suppose my mom made them for sayian's since I cant break them.. My door has a lock on the outside so im stuck in.. How long will I have to be in here? Locked away in my cage. Put out of sight where no one can see me? How long? I can hear them fighting, all the way in my room. It was never like this before, I thought I helped them! I thought I made things right between them again by leaving but they just keep shouting, I already asked I cant have any visitors I just need someone to talk to is all. They wont even allow that. Well I should say my father wont allow that. I havent talked to my mother yet, as soon as I was brought back I was thrown in my cage like some animal. Now it is morning. The screaming it is getting to me, all of this because of me? I would have stayed if I could spare my mother this! I never wanted to hurt her or for her to feel pain because of me. And now look what I started!

I can't seem to fight these feelings

I'm caught in the middle of this

My wounds are not healing

I'm stuck in between my parents

I wish I had someone to talk to

Someone to I could confide in

I just wanna know the truth

Why was I brought back here in the first place? Did my mother make my father come and get me? Or did he do it on his own? I need to know. Maybe dad was just lying to make me feel worse maybe he did want me? No.. Dad never lies.. No matter how much it would hurt someone he wouldnt lie...

Want to know the truth

Why? Why was I born into a loveless home? Why when I finally leave and I dragged back to stay in my prison? I know I am only 16 but still I managed for a month and a half without anyone! I could go longer! I don't know how long but atleast there was no one that called me a mistake, unwanted and a burden. he is the one that is my father! It counts all the time! Not just when I do something in martial arts he is my father when im scared, when im sick, when im happy, when im lonely.. And when im sad! He cant just turn it on and off when ever he please's!

Broken home

All alone

I know my mother loves me

But does my father even care

If I'm sad or angry

You were never ever there

When I needed you

I hope you regret what you did

I think I know the truth

Your father did the same to you

Did the same to you

I often think back to stories you told me about your father when I was younger, how he was a stern, cold, evil man but you still loved him, because he was your bad, he showed you no emotion, you told me you hated him for that, that he never cared, he never once held you in his arms and said I love you! Don't you realize your turning into him? How could you? Your worse! You told me stories of how he never showed he cared but you knew he did! I don't even have that! I thought you cared! I thought you loved me but I was wrong! And I cant take it!

I'm crying day and night now

What is wrong with me

I cannot fight now

I feel like a weak link

Crying day and night now

What is wrong with me

I cannot fight now

I feel like a weak link

Whats wrong with me? I keep crying I do love my father! I really do! Why does he have to hate me? Why does he make me feel unwanted! Why? Why does he show more love to my baby sister than me? I need love to! I just want things back to the way they use to be! How when we were fighting you would smile at me when I did something right! It made me feel like you were proud of me! That you loved me! Why did it all change!

A weak link

Broken home

All alone

You make me feel worthless! You make me feel like a piece of trash! I love you but I hate what you have become! Just go back to being my daddy! I don't want to feel bad for myself anymore I don't want to stay up crying!

It feels bad to be alone

Crying by yourself, living in a broken home

How could I tell it so all y'all could feel it

Depression strikes hard just like my old earth would tell it

To me, her son, she told me I'm the one

Pain bottled up about to blow like a gun

Stories that I tell are nonfiction

And you can't take it back cause it's already done

It hurts! Your words! Your cold eyes! They hurt! Don't you get that? Why would you hurt me? You may have never wanted me but im still apart of you! Im still your ONLY son! Your first born! I notice that screaming has stopped... I can hear footsteps coming up stairs, you both enter my room. The fighting starts again

BROKEN HOME

"Trunks we need to know why you ran away" my mother says

"I.. I just" I start

"You just what? Spit it out brat!" my father says

"Don't call him a brat Vegeta!" my mom says

"I'll call the brat what I want!" my father replies

Can't seem to fight these feelings

Caught in the middle of this

My wounds are not healing

Stuck in between my parents

"I just!... " I try to get it out, but their screaming is to loud

"He's my son to Vegeta! Now stop calling him that!" my mother yells

"Make me!" he screams

BROKEN HOME

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Whatcha think? You like? I thought this song fit this chapter perfectly! And it's from my favorite band Papa roach! XD review and tell me whatcha think while I work on the next chapter (dunno if I will post it today, I might if I get good reviews on this chapter)

Anoke