"To have Lost"
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "The Kill" By 30 seconds to mars
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Im sick of the screaming! Im sick of the fighting when will this stop? They wont let me get a word in! Whats the matter with them? All of this over me? I started this and im going to finish this! You say its your way no matter what. Well guess what im sick of it!
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do?
"You told me. This is the way it goes and tough if you don't like it! Well im sick of it! It's my turn! Now sit down and listen! Im not going to be pushed around anymore!" I scream
it was total silence, finally I have gotten their attention!
"Now you listen here -
I cut my father off ... "No! You listen here! I left because I was unwanted, a burden, I left and I was doing good for myself! Then I was dragged back here to be treated as a criminal!" I roar
Come break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
"You drove me to leave dad! And you act like im just some stupid child who ran away from home for no reason!" I scream
"Oh because of our little talk last time?" he asks calm
"Yes! You know the reason! You know whyI left, you know why I feel so lonley so empty inside!" I scream with tears running down my face
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you
"But im done being the little boy who patiently waits for his fathers love and respect! You don't deserve my respect! you yell and scream at me! Well guess what we are the same! I have your stubbornness, I have your face! I have your dark feelings! And I have your rage! im not going to be the one that always gets put down! Im not going to just sit down and take it all in!" I scream
"Trunks..." my mother starts
"All I wanted was my father to care about me!" I scream so loud pictures are falling off walls
Come break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
"I tired to be what you wanted me to be! The son you always wanted! But it was still no good! Everything I did was wrong! Im just a screw up!" I say more calm
After I said those words it was silent, everyone was just staring at me, I realized my baby sister even came out of her room to watch the scene I was making! I don't care! Let the world come! Let them all hear how I feel! Let them feel what I have been feeling all my life! I tried to be someone else. But it was all the same! I need to be me wether or not he cares I cant continue to be this fake person anymore I need to be me!
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
The tears streaming down my mothers face. It seemed to make me less angry.. I was so foolish, I had one person to love me, my mother always cared and I just left.. I treated her the way my father treated me, I was so worried about making my father proud I forgot my mother was always proud of me, she cared when I was scared, when I was sick, when I was happy, when I was lonely.. And when I was sad! I just never saw it, I was blinded by my rage for my father.
Come break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
"Mom.. Im sorry I left and hurt you but I had to leave I needed to figure some stuff out you understand don't you?" I ask
"Oh sweetheart! I never knew you felt that way!" she cries
my father just stands there no emotion in his eyes, no emotion.. At all.. Did he even hear a word I said? Or was he just blinded by his hate?What if I wanted to break...?
What if I...
What if I...
"Bulma.. I need to talk to Trunks for a minute.. " My father says "Alone" he adds..
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what do you think? Did I make this chapter good? I thought this one was good for this chapter.. And I know I said this is stricktly a Trunks's POV story but in the last chapter I am making it Vegeta's POV so keep your eyes open to the last chapter of "To have lost"
Anoke