Disclaimer: No, I don't own Teen Titans.

Author's Note: Yes! Finally I'm back. Please don't kill me. I'm sorry for not updating. I've had a busy life this year, so it was really hard for me to update my stories. But I will not stop writing. I have a commitment to keep writing for all of you. So here you go. The fourth chapter. Please review. Thanks.

Chapter 4

Burning Pain

'Darkness come to me…take the pain away from here…'

"Raven?" Starfire's soft voice interrupted her thoughts. Raven turned to meet a pair of concerned emerald eyes. "Raven, are you doing well?"

"Yes Star. I'm doing quite well." She responded and continued staring at the ceiling above her. She was at the infirmary.

"I was wondering if you wanted something to eat." Starfire said and added, "I will bring it to you."

Once again, Raven turned towards Starfire, and tried to give her a small smile, "No thanks, I'll eat later. I just want to rest now."

"That is fine friend. I'll come back later. Rest well." The alien princess smiled and left the room.

Raven sighed and tried to turn to her left, but she found it hard to do so because many cords were attached throughout her body.

She had woken up about an hour ago, but had to stay lying in her bed. The pale titan wanted to retreat to the sanctuary of her room, but Cyborg had stated that she had to stay there. He needed to finish running a variety of tests on her. He was trying to find the reason why she had fainted the day before.

She had objected saying that she was only tired that day, and that she hadn't slept well. Cyborg didn't believe her and told her that he wasn't going to take any excuses. Raven gave in just to make him stop insisting that she needed to be checked.

'Darkness will take over your soul, when light takes its final toll.'

'It's just you imagination Raven.' She closed her lavender orbs, trying to ignore the haunting voice. 'It can't be happening again.'

Raven had been troubled by the same words that had been in her nightmare. They repeated over and over in her mind. They were torturing her. And she could do nothing to stop them.

'You'll receive no consolation, once it causes your devastation.'

She felt the fear surge through her veins. Raven still felt the darkness creep throughout her skin; she felt it contaminate her body and soul. The titan still sensed how it had penetrated her thoughts.

Raven felt a cold chill run up her spine as she reminisced how his arms had encircled her waist. His touch had felt so warm and soothing; it had paralyzed her senseless. His whisper had been such bliss to hear, but it was torment at the same time.

A part of her wanted that voice to be Beast Boy, but it was all part of her imagination. It was her conscious, yearning to be with him…to feel his tender touch.

'Both of you weren't destined to be, it is something you cannot see.'

Raven knew that it was impossible for someone like her to feel such a thing. Emotions only brought more torture upon her. It only brought more sorrow.

'You can't deny something that you've been feeling, Raven.'

The teen ignored the voice within her mind. It knew nothing of the dangers Raven would put her friends through. She didn't want to risk their lives for her emotions even though her love for Beast boy seemed to stab her more as time passed. It was killing her.

'Can't you see! Maintaining love inside you will hurt them more! One of these days, everything that you have kept inside will burst and it is then when you will cause their destruction!'

'Leave me alone.' Raven retorted at the voice, 'Everything that I do is my business only. I don't need every one of you to tell me what to do.'

She hated this. She hated being here attached, trapped in the infirmary like some caged animal. Raven disconnected the cords around her body and stood up. She needed to go to her room. The teen just needed to be alone in a dark place.

As she stepped out of the infirmary, she slowly walked throughout the hall. She didn't want anyone to see her. They would send her back.

'Hope will vanish without a sound, it won't ever be found.'

That wretched voice seemed to always follow her everywhere. She couldn't escape it. It was always there within the depth of her mind.

'Face the truth for once Raven. Face your fears and fight! Don't do this to yourself. All you're causing yourself is pain? Don't you get it?'

She ignored the voice. No, she didn't need to listen. It knew nothing. Nothing.

'No matter how hard you try, you'll always live within a lie.'

'You're living a lie right now, Raven. You can't keep denying the fact you love Beast Boy. You can't lock yourself in your own little world. In the end, you're the only one who is going to end up hurt.'


She kept paying no attention to the voice. Why couldn't she just forget everything? Why?

Suddenly, Raven flinched in agony as she felt the throbbing within her head come back. Dizziness started to take over her being. All of her surrounding spun around in circles. She felt the darkness from her nightmare now. It was so clear to her. She was living it.

"Raven?" She heard her teammate's worried voices calling out her name. They were looking for her. "Raven?"

"I can't let them find me." Raven stumbled as she walked throughout the hall. She saw black and white spots dance before her violet eyes. "They can't see me in this state. I'll worry them even more."

Grabbing her head in pain she fell to the floor and rocked back and forth. She couldn't take it anymore. Everything was too painful. She wanted Beast Boy; she needed him so much. But she couldn't have him. Love was never meant for her.

"Raven?" They were still looking for her.

'Why don't you just tell him? Listen to us for once in a while.'

"N-no." She hissed in between her teeth. "No."

"Raven?" The voices were so close to her.

'Time will slowly transcend, but for you, love will never end…'

"Ahh!" Raven screamed in agony. "Make it stop! Beast Boy, please come to me…"

In an instant, Raven felt two hands lift her up from the floor she sat on. She lowered her arms from her head and saw him. He was her savior, Beast Boy.

"Raven?" He asked tenderly, "Raven, what is happening to you? What is wrong? Please tell me. I can't stand to see you like this."

'Tell him. Please, you need to let it all out. The pain will destroy you if you don't.'

She looked into his emerald orbs which were fading away in her vision. They were so beautiful, so full of light. And something else that seemed so familiar…could it be?

'Your weakness will be your ultimate destruction.'

She sighed and whispered gently, "It's always been you. You're my weakness, my destruction."

Raven lost consciousness right there in his arms.

To be continued…