Chapter Four

Lindsay hadn't moved from Danny's side for 2 days straight, the Dr made the occasional visit to check on him, when Lindsay or anyone from the lab questioned him on Danny's condition, all he ever said was 'He's improving.' as if thats meant to bring comfort to them. Lindsay was stirring in her sleep, she was having the same nightmare she kept having, ever since Danny was attacked.

Lindsay is dressed all in black, a congregation of people were moving towards parked cars, everyone with a glum, solome look on their faces, just on the left, behind her, Mac, Dr Hawkes and Flack are stood, Stella is stood next to Lindsay, holding her hand tightly.

"Lindsay, we had better get going."

Lindsay started to feel tears fall from her eyes, she could feel them as they fell down her soft cheeks.

"He lied to me Stella...he said he would never leave, and he has gone and done just that."

"Lindsay, he tried to hang on...he tried."

Lindsay bent down, she was holding a single red rose, she placed it in front of a gravestone, she placed a kiss on her hand and placed on the stone.

'Daniel Messer,

1975 - 2006

Beloved son, brother,

Friend,

And partner.

Gone but not forgotten'

"What a thing to put on his grave, 'Gone but not forgotten' as if i could even if i tried."

Lindsay stood up and looked at Stella, Stella knew, she walked towards the rest of the gang.

"Lindsay needs a few minutes, she will be over when she is ready, i think we should wait by the car."

Stella and Flack walked together, Flack had his hand around Stella's shoulders, pulling her close, Mac and Dr Hawkes walked beside them saying nothing.

Lindsay was left stood at the grave of the one man she had ever truly loved, she couldnt hold it back anymore. The anger, the tears, the sorrow. She made sure that all of his remaining family had left, she didnt want them to hear this, they were gone, she saw Stella and the gang by the car, she took a deep breath and looked again at the stone.

"So this is what you had planned for me, it wasnt exactly what i had in mind...i had rather you hadnt died, i wish you didnt have to go and ruin everything!"

Lindsay could feel the anger building.

"How could you do this to me, US, you promised you'd always be there for me, and your not, i should have known better than trust a word that you said! But i did anyway."

Lindsay took a deep breath. She could feel Stella, Flack, Mac and Dr Hawkes' eyes all on her, but she ignored it.

"But do you know what hurts the most Danny, i still cant stay mad at you...all those petty fights with have, all the times you told me i was right when i really wasnt, i'd give them all back, if it meant i could feel your arms around me one more time, if i could feel the warmth of your touch...the safety that you made me feel, vanished the moment you died...as did my heart."

By this time her voice was trembling, tears were falling faster and faster. She fell to her knees, she didnt care, she wanted to be with him.

"I love you soo much Danny, and now your not here, with me where your supposed to be. I miss you."

Stella and Flack were making their way towards Lindsay to take her away, back to a life without Danny.

Lindsay was stirring, she was crying in her sleep, this dream did that to her, and it ended at the same point everytime.

She felt something different this time, all the other times, she wanted to wake up to see Danny staring at her, awake, alive, but each time she woke, she was disappointed, but this time, even though she hadnt opened her eyes, she could feel as though someone was watching her, someone she knew. She felt someone squeeze her hand tight, tight enough to make her realise who it was.

"Danny?"

She slowly lifted her head from the side of him, looked up and saw the bright blue eyes she had longed to look into again. He was awake.

"Danny!"

She grabbed his hand and kissed it, and held it tight, crying as she did so.

"You were doing that in your sleep."

"You were watching me sleep? How long have you been awake?"

Danny tilted his head back, his mouth was dry, Lindsay noticed it, so she leaned over to the bedside table and poured him a glass of water, she put in a straw and held it as Danny took a drink.

After Danny had moistened his mouth he answered, not that Lindsay much cared anymore.

"Only about 10 minutes before you woke up, i did want to wake you, you know stroke your head but my free hand wasnt lng enough to reach over and well you had hold of that one pretty tight."

Danny wriggled the hand that Lindsay was clinging to. She realised that she was holding onto it pretty tight, she loosened her grip, not too much though she still wanted him to know she was there.

"I had better call the gang and tell thm that your ok!"

Lindsay went to stand up when she fel a sharp tug from Danny's hand she turned to look at him.

"Danny? Are you ok?"

Danny looked scared. But Lindsay didnt know what of?

"Danny, please talk to me."

Lindsay sat back down in her chair, staring intently at Danny, as he was mustering the strength.

"I'm scared Linds."

"What of Danny, i'm here."

Lindsay took hold of his hand again and stroked his head with the other.

Danny took a deep breath.

"Of losing you."

Lindsay was in shock, as far as she was concerned she wasnt going anywhere.

"What do you mean, Danny, i'm here and i'm not going anywhere, not if i can help it."

Danny's eyes started to well up. Lindsay had never seen him like this.

"Linds, i have never been so scared in my life, i was lying there, dying, and all i could think of was making sure you were safe from them...and thinking if i would get the chance to say all the things i wanted to say to you."

Lindsay had tears falling from her eyes. She responded.

"I have never been so scared in my life either, i was walking along the second floor, when i saw you laying there, i thought you were dead, you should have seen me running though the lab like a looney, i was screaming my head off, and these past few days, all i could think about was whether you had heard the last thing i had said to you."

Danny smiled, then cringed in pain, and then smiled again.

"I knew, i knew before the attack as well, i've known since i first met you, you didnt need to worry there."

Lindsay smiled as the tears fell, tears of everything.

"I love you soo much, Danny Messer, i can honestly say i would have nothing worth living for if you had left me."

Even as Danny laid in the state he was in, he still managed to muster his cheeky smile.

"Like i said..."

Danny let go of Lindsay's hand and held her face, he looked deep into her eyes, he saw all the emotions she had been going through the past couple of days.

"...a pack of wild dogs cant keep me away."

Lindsay smiled, and started laugh happy tears.

"Look what you do to me Danny! I'm a wreck, what a sight to wake up to."

"I've seen you look worse."

Lindsay playfully slapped him on the arm, still laughing. Danny mocked a oww that hurt pose, rubbing his newly battered arm.

"That really hurt Linds, i thought you would take that as a compliment!"

Danny winked as he said it, still as he lay there having been through eveything he had been through he still managed to make fun, and all Lindsay could do was smile.

"You know to me you will always be beautiful, even if you think you look like a relative of Frankinstein."

Lindsay smiled once again, she stood up and walked towards the door, she looked out no-one was coming, she shut the door and pull closed the blinds.

"Lindsay if you hadnt noticed i am a bit incapcitated at the moment."

"I know."

Lindsay laid on the side of Danny's hospital bed, she fitted perfectly, her svelt figure shaped perfectly was close to Danny, the way he had always liked it, he didnt like sleeping alone after he spent a night with Lindsay.

"Lindsay what are you doing?"

"Sleeping, with the man i love."

Danny smiled, he saw Lindsay's bright face, turn to him, she lent towards him and edged him on, he lent in as far as he could, they were centimetres apart, Danny could hear her breathing, he could smell the faint smell of her perfume and shampoo, either Stella or the nurses had told her to go home for a bit. But this was the sort of moment they both thought they had lost forever, as far as they were concerned, if they could stay in this moment they would, Lindsay could sense that it was imminent, not want to waste any time, she brushed her tender lips over Danny's, Danny tried to catch them, so he give her what she wanted, they kissed slowly, lovingly, they liked the feeling, Lindsay linked her arms around Danny's neck as their kiss gained in momentom and passion, Danny wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her closer to him, she knew where it was leaving, but it was thing that she told herself wasnt going to happen not like this anyway, she broke off the kiss, released her arms from his neck and slid off the bed and back into the chair beside the bed.

"We cant. Not here, not an hour after you have come out of a coma, i just dont think so, can you see where i am coming from."

Danny motioned to make an inapropriate Danny comment but she stopped him.

"Danny, not like that and i'm sorry, until you wound has healed completly, there is going to be none of you know..."

"Heaven, thats what it is."

"That isnt going to work!"

Lindsay smiled at Danny and then yawned.

"I think you should get some sleep..." he patted the spot she had just left.

"I promise nothing will happen, we're adults, and beside, you told me you sleep better when you can feel me next to you."

Lindsay accepted his offer and crept onto his bed and snuggled into him, he wrapped his arm around her.

"I dont think i'm going to have that nightmare tonight..."

Lindsay trailed off and began to sleep, Danny looked at her soo peaceful, he could only imagine what he had put her through.