hot damn! 30 some reviews for 1 chapter! wow....
*glomps reviewers * glad y'all like it!
oh, and some shout-outs....
*glomps GrimGirl * heh-heh.....welcome to da club! Yaoi rox...especially yami and yugi!! *giggles *
yam: *rolls eyes * see what you're doing, oni? you're corrupting the innocent out there.....
^_____^ i know! i've determined....my sole purpose in life is to serve as a bad exampe for others........lead me not unto temptation...for i can find it myself.....and drag others down with me....... *giggles *
yam: *snorts * mental case......
yam and oni: *start arguing *
yug: *smiles, shaking his head * *grins, showing off his braces with light blue ties * well...before they kill eachother....onto the fic!
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how many of you even bother to read author's notes?
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i didn't think you guys did........
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Yugi ran down the hall and out the door, ignoring the click as it shut, locking itself. He pushed his short little legs as hard and fast as they could go. He ran across the bare, grassy field, the high, un-cut grass tickling his knees through his jeans, then disappeared into the woods the edge of a field, behind the thick, leafy branch of a low slung tree and onto a well worn path.
There were many paths through out the small wooded area, treaded by generations of skippers and hooky players. Yugi's sneakered feet thudded upon the packed, dry dirt; he knew the area well, for he had often taken this path when running from bullies on his way home from school, before Yami had come into his life and saved him. The bigger, bulkier bullies' bodies couldn't move as easily as Yugi's petite one, which allowed him to slip in between bushes and under branches, easily getting away.
About half way through the wooded area, Yugi came to a small glen, which was full of wild grass and just budding wild flowers, a faded and chipped white stone bench and a worn and splintered well next to it, under the shade of an apple tree that had beautiful pink blossoms. This was Yugi's special spot, his refuge. He'd spent hours here, hiding from bullies, playing, or coming here when he needed comfort and just wanted to get away from the world. As he did now.
Yugi fell to his knees upon the chipped bench, folding his arms upon it and burying his innocent, sweet face on his sleeves, his shirt and bench becoming soaked with his tears as his soft little body was wracked with sobs.
He couldn't believe Tea was right.....he'd been so sure he and Yami had been growing close. But....maybe his mind was playing tricks on him. No one had ever cared for him the way Yami seemed to do, was always at his side. Yami was his comfort and companionship...but...what did he offer Yami? Nothing; Yami never cried on his shoulder. Yami never hid behind him in fear. Yami never asked for Yugi's help with any of his problems. Yami was strong; Yami could stand on his own.......and....Tea WAS right.....Yugi knew he was nothing more than a burden on his Yami.
His dear, beloved Yami. "Oh, Yami.....how I wish I could be the one for you, the one to make you happy.....but....I'm being so selfish, ne? Wanting you for myself....." Yugi trailed off, shaking his head sadly as he voiced his thoughts, unable to hear the tears and broken heart in his own soft voice. "I never considered you wouldn't want me......we'd been getting so close......but......I guess my foolish heart.....I want.....wanted you so bad that I....tricked myself into thinking we were becoming more than friends......You were just.....doing your duty.....but.....no more; I promise, Yami....I will never burden you again....I.....All I want is for you to be happy, Yami.....so.....I will do my best to make you happy.....I....won't bother you anymore......"
Yugi broke off, wracked with a fresh onslaught of pain and tears. His heart was torn, and he was wanting nothing more than Yami there to put the pieces back together. But.....Yami didn't want that; Yami didn't deserve that. He deserved a worthy partner.....someone....someone who was what Yugi could never be. His sobs became louder, his body quaking in the warm spring breeze. A cry stuck in his throat, causing him to momentarily choke, when the breeze ruffled through the newly budding trees, and a few pink petals fell down, their cool silkiness caressing Yugi's milk white cheek.
He opened his eyes, gasping in fear and surprise, a few stray tears running down, knocking the beautiful petals off as he gazed through pain darkened eyes at the beautiful, cheery world around him. So beautiful.....Yami would've loved it......and Yugi would love to share it with him.....but......he knew it was wrong of him to think such thoughts. This spot.....would be perfect for lovers, but....Yami wasn't his lover, and he could never be. No, Yugi Motou would never know what it was like to be called "koibito." He would never be anyone's love.
Yugi looked away, still in the day, silent tears running down his cheeks as he uneasily stood and leaned over the wishing well, peering down into its cool, secretive depths. Shinning in the birthing sunlight, under the reflection of the dark water, were all of the coins Yugi had tossed in, one a day, wishing that he'd find true love, that Yami would feel the same about him.
But...."I've know what it was like to be loved.....I'd convinced myself Yami loved me....I'd been so happy for such a short time....so......I guess my wish was granted to the extent that it could be......I....thank you for....giving me what you could, wishing well." Yugi whispered, lowering his head. Today, instead of coins, two big, warm and salty tears rolled from his soft cheek, falling down the cold stone, and plopping into the cold water, causing it to ripple as Yugi turned away. And the water seemed to shimmer more than when Yugi had tossed his shiny copper pennies into it.
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Yami nervously paced through the deserted halls. The bell for school dismissal had rung 10 minutes ago, and the jail birds....err....students were free for the day. Yami, whose locker was on other end of the building, had come to his hikari's locker, where Yugi was usually waiting with a sunny smile on his face. A smile just for him. Yami's heart warmed a smidgen as he pictured his hikari's sweet face, then dropped two degrees, knots of nervousness clenching his stomach.
Today, Yugi hadn't been at his locker, which was firmly shut, and his books were scattered everywhere, now torn and dirty from inconsiderate animals....err...students stepping on them. Yami had picked them up and cleaned them as best he could, shoving them in Yugi's locker, then checked all the bathrooms, dumpsters, and hallways, praying to God that no bully had caught his little one.
Yami had tried to use his soul link to find his aibou, but Yugi had shut it off. The pharaoh was frantic with worry; something must have happened to Yugi, and he wanted to know what. He wanted his aibou safe in his arms, assured that he was alright...
"Hey, Yami!" Yami jumped at the cheerful voice to find Tea with her book bag and a gym bag slung over her shoulder. She was smiling at him with laughing sky blue eyes that seemed to ignore his distress.
"Tea, have you seen Yugi anywhere? I thought you passed his locker on your way to class, after lunch."
"Why, Yami? Did something happen?" Tea filled her voice with worry and evaded the question.
"Yugi's missing, and I think he's in trouble. When I came to meet him, he was nowhere to be found, and his books were strewn all across the hall. I've looked all over, and haven't seen him, and I can't contact him through our soul link."
"Oh, well....I don't know, Yami....hmm....maybe....maybe he isn't in the school...lets go look around the neighborhood for him; he must be around here somewhere. With legs as short as his, he can't have gone far. I have an hour break between school and dance practice, so I'll help you look." It wasn't exactly true; Tea had class in forty five minutes, but she decided she could be a little late for once. This was too good of an opportunity to miss to spend some alone time with Yami. She was sure she could convince him to forget about Yugi.
Yami nodded and took off, his mind focused on his hikari. Tea trotted alongside him, attempting to purposefully misguide him as the ran throughout the nearby streets, calling Yugi's name.
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Yugi wiped at his still crying, red rimmed violet eyes, trying in vain to stop the tears. They no longer shook his body, but inside....he felt so dead, so hurt. Yami didn't love him, and Tea wanted Yami. Yugi stood no chance. His only shot at happiness had been snatched away before he could even grasp it.
His head snapped up, innocent, huge violet eyes going even wider in shock and a soft gasp escaping his lips. Someone was calling his name! And that someone sounded like Yami! Yugi's soft face lit up with joy and he broke into a run, heading towards the main walkway of the school, his heart pounding. Yami was looking for him!
Of course Yami would be worried about him; he was Yami's responsibility, and....by running off, he'd caused his beloved to worry about him, caused him even more stress than before....Oh, what a baka he was! Tea was right; he couldn't do anything right! All he did was screw things up and make matters worse, no matter how hard he tried.
Whimpering and blinking, trying to stop the onslaught of tears, Yugi shook his head, sending a few crystal drops flying; they shimmered in the bright sun before plopping onto the pavement. No, Yami mustn't' see him cry; it would only make matters worse. He must be happy; he'd have to think some pathetic excuse for his running off....but.....he refused to worry about that now; he just concentrated on the joy and pathetic hope that Yami was looking for him! He pushed himself into the illusion that Yami was looking for him because he loved him, not because he had to.
Yugi rounded a bend with a joyful smile on his face and a warm greeting in his eyes. "YAM-" He skidded to a halt as he saw a very stressed, worried looking pharaoh and a seemingly concerned Tea, who, as soon as she saw him, stepped a few inches closer to Yami. Yami didn't notice, though; his concerned crimson eyes were locked on Yugi.
Yugi's heart wrenched; he hated himself for causing the look on Yami's face, and Tea....she had already replaced him! He could see it in her smug smile, and her closeness with his crush; she was almost touching him.
"Yugi! Aibou! What happened? Where were you? Why weren't you waiting for me?-" Yami's barrage of questions was cut short by Tea, who stepped forward to look Yugi in the face, and to block Yami from running and hugging his dear little one.
"Yugi, was Ushio giving you trouble again?" Tea asked, her blue eyes glaring at Yugi, silently telling him to go along with her lie.
It was the only way out, the only option that Yugi had was to place his trust in Tea and pray she wouldn't burn him too bad. He meekly nodded, looking down and hating himself for lying. He closed his eyes, biting back his tears.
"But the principal did stop him in time, didn't he? I remember you told me earlier that you heard him say that he was going to keep a closer eye on things."
Yugi nodded again, not trusting himself with words.
"I'm glad you're okay, Yugi, but....why did you run?"
Yugi glanced up at Tea, tears shimmering in his eyes as he avoided Yami's gaze. He was too terrified to know what Yami now thought of him. She obviously wanted him to say something, but no words would come. He wasn't good at lying; he hated it....it made him feel so low and dirty. He tried to force something, anything to come out of his mouth, but all he could produce was a tiny squeak. Immediately, his head shot down again and he looked at his toes.
"Aww, you poor thing." Tea gushed with faked concern. "Ushio upset you good, didn't he?" She rushed forward, again blocking Yami, and knelt down next to Yugi, drawing him into a loose hug. "Yugi, don't let Yami see you cry.....he was telling me how great his day was, until you were missing....you ruined his day, Yugi...way to go...."
Yugi gasped, fresh tears traveling the tear stained trails of his soft cheeks, his amethyst eyes going wide. "G-gomen n-nasai...." He hiccupped into her shoulder, hiding his face from Yami.
"Oh, Yugi, it's too late for that...just run....go home....and leave Yami alone."
Yugi cried out, suddenly wrenching from Tea's arms and running off towards his house.
Yami started forward, one hand out reached towards his hikari. He didn't know what had gone on between Tea and Yugi, but he was going to find out. He had wanted to hug his aibou, hold him and tell him everything was alright, but Tea.....she had come there first, and Yami hadn't wanted to upset the little one more by fighting with Tea over who got to hold him.
"Yugi, wait-!" Yami's cry was cut off by Tea's slender hand laying on top of his arm, gently pushing it down.
"Yami....let him go.....the poor dear; he's so upset.....he just wishes to be alone for a while. He said he'd be alright." Tea nodded her head for emphasis, and Yami watched the retreating form with saddened crimson eyes.
"Come on, Yami....let's go...."
"No." Yami shrugged her arm off. "I want to comfort Yugi myself. I'm going home now. Good day, Tea." Without a backwards glance, Yami purposely strode forward, towards the game shop and his crying hikari.
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Damn! that was long! well, plz review!!!
*glomps reviewers * glad y'all like it!
oh, and some shout-outs....
*glomps GrimGirl * heh-heh.....welcome to da club! Yaoi rox...especially yami and yugi!! *giggles *
yam: *rolls eyes * see what you're doing, oni? you're corrupting the innocent out there.....
^_____^ i know! i've determined....my sole purpose in life is to serve as a bad exampe for others........lead me not unto temptation...for i can find it myself.....and drag others down with me....... *giggles *
yam: *snorts * mental case......
yam and oni: *start arguing *
yug: *smiles, shaking his head * *grins, showing off his braces with light blue ties * well...before they kill eachother....onto the fic!
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how many of you even bother to read author's notes?
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i didn't think you guys did........
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Yugi ran down the hall and out the door, ignoring the click as it shut, locking itself. He pushed his short little legs as hard and fast as they could go. He ran across the bare, grassy field, the high, un-cut grass tickling his knees through his jeans, then disappeared into the woods the edge of a field, behind the thick, leafy branch of a low slung tree and onto a well worn path.
There were many paths through out the small wooded area, treaded by generations of skippers and hooky players. Yugi's sneakered feet thudded upon the packed, dry dirt; he knew the area well, for he had often taken this path when running from bullies on his way home from school, before Yami had come into his life and saved him. The bigger, bulkier bullies' bodies couldn't move as easily as Yugi's petite one, which allowed him to slip in between bushes and under branches, easily getting away.
About half way through the wooded area, Yugi came to a small glen, which was full of wild grass and just budding wild flowers, a faded and chipped white stone bench and a worn and splintered well next to it, under the shade of an apple tree that had beautiful pink blossoms. This was Yugi's special spot, his refuge. He'd spent hours here, hiding from bullies, playing, or coming here when he needed comfort and just wanted to get away from the world. As he did now.
Yugi fell to his knees upon the chipped bench, folding his arms upon it and burying his innocent, sweet face on his sleeves, his shirt and bench becoming soaked with his tears as his soft little body was wracked with sobs.
He couldn't believe Tea was right.....he'd been so sure he and Yami had been growing close. But....maybe his mind was playing tricks on him. No one had ever cared for him the way Yami seemed to do, was always at his side. Yami was his comfort and companionship...but...what did he offer Yami? Nothing; Yami never cried on his shoulder. Yami never hid behind him in fear. Yami never asked for Yugi's help with any of his problems. Yami was strong; Yami could stand on his own.......and....Tea WAS right.....Yugi knew he was nothing more than a burden on his Yami.
His dear, beloved Yami. "Oh, Yami.....how I wish I could be the one for you, the one to make you happy.....but....I'm being so selfish, ne? Wanting you for myself....." Yugi trailed off, shaking his head sadly as he voiced his thoughts, unable to hear the tears and broken heart in his own soft voice. "I never considered you wouldn't want me......we'd been getting so close......but......I guess my foolish heart.....I want.....wanted you so bad that I....tricked myself into thinking we were becoming more than friends......You were just.....doing your duty.....but.....no more; I promise, Yami....I will never burden you again....I.....All I want is for you to be happy, Yami.....so.....I will do my best to make you happy.....I....won't bother you anymore......"
Yugi broke off, wracked with a fresh onslaught of pain and tears. His heart was torn, and he was wanting nothing more than Yami there to put the pieces back together. But.....Yami didn't want that; Yami didn't deserve that. He deserved a worthy partner.....someone....someone who was what Yugi could never be. His sobs became louder, his body quaking in the warm spring breeze. A cry stuck in his throat, causing him to momentarily choke, when the breeze ruffled through the newly budding trees, and a few pink petals fell down, their cool silkiness caressing Yugi's milk white cheek.
He opened his eyes, gasping in fear and surprise, a few stray tears running down, knocking the beautiful petals off as he gazed through pain darkened eyes at the beautiful, cheery world around him. So beautiful.....Yami would've loved it......and Yugi would love to share it with him.....but......he knew it was wrong of him to think such thoughts. This spot.....would be perfect for lovers, but....Yami wasn't his lover, and he could never be. No, Yugi Motou would never know what it was like to be called "koibito." He would never be anyone's love.
Yugi looked away, still in the day, silent tears running down his cheeks as he uneasily stood and leaned over the wishing well, peering down into its cool, secretive depths. Shinning in the birthing sunlight, under the reflection of the dark water, were all of the coins Yugi had tossed in, one a day, wishing that he'd find true love, that Yami would feel the same about him.
But...."I've know what it was like to be loved.....I'd convinced myself Yami loved me....I'd been so happy for such a short time....so......I guess my wish was granted to the extent that it could be......I....thank you for....giving me what you could, wishing well." Yugi whispered, lowering his head. Today, instead of coins, two big, warm and salty tears rolled from his soft cheek, falling down the cold stone, and plopping into the cold water, causing it to ripple as Yugi turned away. And the water seemed to shimmer more than when Yugi had tossed his shiny copper pennies into it.
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Yami nervously paced through the deserted halls. The bell for school dismissal had rung 10 minutes ago, and the jail birds....err....students were free for the day. Yami, whose locker was on other end of the building, had come to his hikari's locker, where Yugi was usually waiting with a sunny smile on his face. A smile just for him. Yami's heart warmed a smidgen as he pictured his hikari's sweet face, then dropped two degrees, knots of nervousness clenching his stomach.
Today, Yugi hadn't been at his locker, which was firmly shut, and his books were scattered everywhere, now torn and dirty from inconsiderate animals....err...students stepping on them. Yami had picked them up and cleaned them as best he could, shoving them in Yugi's locker, then checked all the bathrooms, dumpsters, and hallways, praying to God that no bully had caught his little one.
Yami had tried to use his soul link to find his aibou, but Yugi had shut it off. The pharaoh was frantic with worry; something must have happened to Yugi, and he wanted to know what. He wanted his aibou safe in his arms, assured that he was alright...
"Hey, Yami!" Yami jumped at the cheerful voice to find Tea with her book bag and a gym bag slung over her shoulder. She was smiling at him with laughing sky blue eyes that seemed to ignore his distress.
"Tea, have you seen Yugi anywhere? I thought you passed his locker on your way to class, after lunch."
"Why, Yami? Did something happen?" Tea filled her voice with worry and evaded the question.
"Yugi's missing, and I think he's in trouble. When I came to meet him, he was nowhere to be found, and his books were strewn all across the hall. I've looked all over, and haven't seen him, and I can't contact him through our soul link."
"Oh, well....I don't know, Yami....hmm....maybe....maybe he isn't in the school...lets go look around the neighborhood for him; he must be around here somewhere. With legs as short as his, he can't have gone far. I have an hour break between school and dance practice, so I'll help you look." It wasn't exactly true; Tea had class in forty five minutes, but she decided she could be a little late for once. This was too good of an opportunity to miss to spend some alone time with Yami. She was sure she could convince him to forget about Yugi.
Yami nodded and took off, his mind focused on his hikari. Tea trotted alongside him, attempting to purposefully misguide him as the ran throughout the nearby streets, calling Yugi's name.
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Yugi wiped at his still crying, red rimmed violet eyes, trying in vain to stop the tears. They no longer shook his body, but inside....he felt so dead, so hurt. Yami didn't love him, and Tea wanted Yami. Yugi stood no chance. His only shot at happiness had been snatched away before he could even grasp it.
His head snapped up, innocent, huge violet eyes going even wider in shock and a soft gasp escaping his lips. Someone was calling his name! And that someone sounded like Yami! Yugi's soft face lit up with joy and he broke into a run, heading towards the main walkway of the school, his heart pounding. Yami was looking for him!
Of course Yami would be worried about him; he was Yami's responsibility, and....by running off, he'd caused his beloved to worry about him, caused him even more stress than before....Oh, what a baka he was! Tea was right; he couldn't do anything right! All he did was screw things up and make matters worse, no matter how hard he tried.
Whimpering and blinking, trying to stop the onslaught of tears, Yugi shook his head, sending a few crystal drops flying; they shimmered in the bright sun before plopping onto the pavement. No, Yami mustn't' see him cry; it would only make matters worse. He must be happy; he'd have to think some pathetic excuse for his running off....but.....he refused to worry about that now; he just concentrated on the joy and pathetic hope that Yami was looking for him! He pushed himself into the illusion that Yami was looking for him because he loved him, not because he had to.
Yugi rounded a bend with a joyful smile on his face and a warm greeting in his eyes. "YAM-" He skidded to a halt as he saw a very stressed, worried looking pharaoh and a seemingly concerned Tea, who, as soon as she saw him, stepped a few inches closer to Yami. Yami didn't notice, though; his concerned crimson eyes were locked on Yugi.
Yugi's heart wrenched; he hated himself for causing the look on Yami's face, and Tea....she had already replaced him! He could see it in her smug smile, and her closeness with his crush; she was almost touching him.
"Yugi! Aibou! What happened? Where were you? Why weren't you waiting for me?-" Yami's barrage of questions was cut short by Tea, who stepped forward to look Yugi in the face, and to block Yami from running and hugging his dear little one.
"Yugi, was Ushio giving you trouble again?" Tea asked, her blue eyes glaring at Yugi, silently telling him to go along with her lie.
It was the only way out, the only option that Yugi had was to place his trust in Tea and pray she wouldn't burn him too bad. He meekly nodded, looking down and hating himself for lying. He closed his eyes, biting back his tears.
"But the principal did stop him in time, didn't he? I remember you told me earlier that you heard him say that he was going to keep a closer eye on things."
Yugi nodded again, not trusting himself with words.
"I'm glad you're okay, Yugi, but....why did you run?"
Yugi glanced up at Tea, tears shimmering in his eyes as he avoided Yami's gaze. He was too terrified to know what Yami now thought of him. She obviously wanted him to say something, but no words would come. He wasn't good at lying; he hated it....it made him feel so low and dirty. He tried to force something, anything to come out of his mouth, but all he could produce was a tiny squeak. Immediately, his head shot down again and he looked at his toes.
"Aww, you poor thing." Tea gushed with faked concern. "Ushio upset you good, didn't he?" She rushed forward, again blocking Yami, and knelt down next to Yugi, drawing him into a loose hug. "Yugi, don't let Yami see you cry.....he was telling me how great his day was, until you were missing....you ruined his day, Yugi...way to go...."
Yugi gasped, fresh tears traveling the tear stained trails of his soft cheeks, his amethyst eyes going wide. "G-gomen n-nasai...." He hiccupped into her shoulder, hiding his face from Yami.
"Oh, Yugi, it's too late for that...just run....go home....and leave Yami alone."
Yugi cried out, suddenly wrenching from Tea's arms and running off towards his house.
Yami started forward, one hand out reached towards his hikari. He didn't know what had gone on between Tea and Yugi, but he was going to find out. He had wanted to hug his aibou, hold him and tell him everything was alright, but Tea.....she had come there first, and Yami hadn't wanted to upset the little one more by fighting with Tea over who got to hold him.
"Yugi, wait-!" Yami's cry was cut off by Tea's slender hand laying on top of his arm, gently pushing it down.
"Yami....let him go.....the poor dear; he's so upset.....he just wishes to be alone for a while. He said he'd be alright." Tea nodded her head for emphasis, and Yami watched the retreating form with saddened crimson eyes.
"Come on, Yami....let's go...."
"No." Yami shrugged her arm off. "I want to comfort Yugi myself. I'm going home now. Good day, Tea." Without a backwards glance, Yami purposely strode forward, towards the game shop and his crying hikari.
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Damn! that was long! well, plz review!!!