1CHP 4 BITTERSWEET MEMORIES AND DECISIONS

oooorrraahhhh. I return. How cool is this. Anyhoo. I was watching Inuyasha last night, yes? And I suddenly had a desire to write a fanfiction with inuyasha and sesshomaru... how weird I thought, because of the fact that they are brothers so it wouldn't be a nice one...so the thought of a super M rated rape story came into my mind...why is this I wonder? Oh well. I personally blame Whackodante, for putting such thoughts into my head...

If you don't understand I suggest you go read one of his stories...if you like hardcore yaoi (ME!) You will like his taste...ANYhoo, enjoy!

Another memory day...

'Why do we make memories? Why can't they just be forgotten? God this sucks.' thoughts like this kept wandering through squall's mind on his way to the gym. Why couldn't he just forgive Rinoa...maybe because he loved her so much it hurt that much more when she left the way she did...or maybe because he was just a jerk. By the time he reached the gym he felt like such shit he didn't want to work out anymore. So he just kept walking.

Squall walked around the whole bottom floor before he realized there was no where to go. Not the cafeteria, he wasn't hungry, and he wasn't one of those losers who just sits there to look cool. Not the library, you can't just sit in there, they kick you out. No gym, NOT the dorms...right now he needed to be as far from Rinoa as he could get. He didn't want to fight so the training center was out of the question, he wasn't hurt so no Dr. Kadowaski. But maybe he could talk to her about rinoa? No, he needed to figure this out by himself. With nothing left to do on the first floor, squall went to the second.

He walked the hallways until he came to the end where the emergency exit was. 'I need some fresh air.' squall decided and walked up to the balcony.

As always, the scenery was breath taking. The garden really added to the look of things. Squall looked over to his right. He remembered when he was up here with rinoa and Zell that one time right before the garden was attacked by the Galbadian Garden. How rinoa had looked so beautiful with the wind blowing her hair, and the sunlight illuminating her face.

Squall looked out to the horizon. How had so many thing happen since then?

Flashback

night time. It had been six months since the battle with the sorceress. It had taken this long for both gardens to organize a huge party. And it was worth it...it was one of the largest parties ever held, it was just a big bash for both teachers and students and civilians from everywhere around the world. It had been going for three days now and tonight was the last night of the celebration. Everyone on squall's team had gone all three night. And it had gotten better each time. It was later now and almost everyone was on the dance floor dancing their hearts out. It was such a grand gathering. Even squall, Mr. I-can't-dance, was dancing. At first it was with rinoa but then she had vanished. Squall noticed this and went to look for her.

He found her outside on one of the many balconies the garden had. She was staring at the moon, which squall, being squall, found to be a bit odd. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist. He rested his chin on her head and stared at the moon too. Rinoa smiled and wrapped her arms around his. "Whatcha doin' out here?" squall had changed because of Rinoa...he wasn't the same cold guy. He had lightened up more. "Just staring at the sky." Squall laughed, " I know that, but why? What's so tantalizing that you have to leave the party to stare at it?" Rinoa shrugged and turned facing squall. She rested her hands on his arms. " Same question to you. What did you come out here to stare at?" Squall smiled, "you." A light red came to Rinoa's face. squall smiled and kissed her forehead, then rested his forehead on hers.

The music from inside floated in the air outside. Squall began to sway lightly to it and rinoa laughed. "Squall, are you happy? With the way things are now, I mean." "Of course I am. This is probably the only time in my life where nothing is wrong." Rinoa smiled. "Thats good. I'm gald." Squall stopped swaying and lifted his head off of Rinoa's to look down at her. "Why do you ask that?" rinoa looks at him, " I was just curious as to how you feel right now." Squall smiled, "Pretty damn good, if it makes you feel any better..." Rinoa smiled "yes, it does..." She stood on her tip-toes and placed a light kiss on Squall's lips. It wasn't enough for squall however and when she backed away he pulled her back to his mouth. She placed her hands behind his neck and entwined her hands together. His hands were on her lower back, holding her in place as he explored her mouth for the millionth time. His lips were pressed to hers possessively, while his tongue met with hers over and over again.

Finally air was needed and the kiss was broken. Squall placed sweet little kisses up her jaw line and she smiled. He stopped to look at her. She was just smiling at him. He leaned foward and kissed her forehead again. "I love you.." Rinoa smile grew, " love you more." Suddenly fireworks went off in the sky. Rinoa turned in squall's grasp to watch. Suddenly everyone poured out of the main building to watch the show. Zell, Selphie, Irvine and Quistis all ended up next to the couple and they all watched the explosives light up the sky.

The party had ended more than and hour and a half ago but the music was still going. Most of the people had gone to sleep though. It looked like a bum central. People just fell to the ground and slept where they fell. Squall and rinoa however had made it to their room and where now in bed cuddled together. Rinoa and Squall had been sleeping in the same room/bed for nearly five months now. Nothing had ever happened however. Squall told Rinoa not to worry about that stuff yet, just whenever she was ready. This had made Rinoa much more at ease.

She had fallen asleep quickly but squall stayed up a bit longer and just watched her sleep. After a while he fell asleep aswell.

Squall woke up alone. There was no warmth of Rinoa's body next to him, no sweet good morning, she was just gone. He sat up suddenly and looked around him. He got up and was about to go look for her. Before he left though he found a note resting on his desk. He read it over, dropped it , then ran out to try and see if she was just messing with him or not. He looked though the entire bottom floor until he came to the entrance, where Headmaster Cid was waiting. He told Squall that he had caught Rinoa right before she left. She didn't tell him where she was going, she just said to not look for her. Squall walked over to a bench and sat down, trying to process what had just happened.

end flashback

Squall breathed in the fresh air. Somehow, this had helped him sort out everything that he needed to sort out, for the time being anyways. There were still a lot of emotions he needed to go through, but for now he had enough organized to take action.

He needed to see Rinoa, and now.

ooooooh what will happen I wonder 0.o? ooohhh it makes me so mad to not know what will happen next...don't you just hate it when authors do that? ... heehee I'm such a bitch aren't I? Well, let me know what this chapter did for to you? Quicky? Orgasm? Let the reviews pour in. Thank you!

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