A/N: Hey sorry I haven't updated in a long time, but my computer broke. Plus with school, its kind of hard, but anyways on with the fic.

Chapter 6

I woke up in the morning.

"That was the worst night ever." I thought to myself as I get out of my bed.

I look in the mirror at my red eyes and my cheeks were all puffy and swollen. I didn't feel like doing anything just sitting in bed and moping.

"How could this have happened?" I thought to myself.

Just then my door opened and in walked Mina.

"Hi Serena I'm sorry this happened, but I got you something to eat."

I just looked at her and shook my head. I started to walk back to my bed. As I got to it I lifted up the sheets and sat back down in it and put the sheets over my head and started to cry again.

"Oh Serena he is going to call you today and give you a reason why he left."

" I hope you are right." I mumbled back to her.

" Serena there are many reasons of why he left his apartment. I mean he could have went to a different one. Or he could have had to leave on a business trip. You know he's really into his work." Mina said in a sad voice.

" Mina I know your trying to help but I just want to be left alone. So on the way out can you shut off the light and turn on my radio and put in the Smile Empty Soul CD and shut the door?" I said between the cries.

Just then I felt Mina get up from the bed and I could hear her walk to the CD player and put in the CD. I could hear her pushing in the buttons. and then I heard her walking tot he light and the light switch click and then soon I seen nothing but the darkness just as she closed the door and I could hear the music start and I listened to the song (With This Knife) and I left the lyrics go into my head.

with this knife

I let myself fall into a lie

I let my walls come down

I let myself smile and feel alive

I let my walls come down

No matter how I try I don't know why

You push so far away

You wrapped your hands tight around my heart

And squeezed it full of pain

Chorus: With this knife I'll cut out the part of me

The part that cares for you

With this knife I'll cut out the heart of me

The heart that cares for you

can't believe the way you took me down

I never saw the pain

Coming in a million broken miles

Like poison for my veins

Chorus

The hate and the fear

The nightmares that wake me up

In tears

The nightmares and (the hate)...

Just as the song was ending i could feel my self getting weaker and then I count feel anything

Dream:

I woke up in my bead and Darien was beside me. He was fast asleep and he had his arm wrapped around me. It was so bright out and the birds where chripping . I felt so happy and warm, and just then I heard...

" I love you Serena." Darien said with a calm voice.
" I love you too Darien and last night was great." I answered back.

"We can do it again you know Serena." Darien said with a smile on his face

With a huge smile on my face I answered with a "yes."

Just then Darien turned me over and got on top of me.

And then it was over.

" It was a dream" I thought to myself.

I could feel the sadness and pain come back.

" I loved the dream but I wish I never had it because now that I have I'm even more sad. It would have been better to have been real." I thought to myself. I climbed out of bed and I stood in front of the mirror and looked at my face and thought " I'm not doing this again. This time its going to be different. I'm not going to get all sad and depressed over a guy. I can be sad on the inside but I'm not going to show it." I thought to myself as I walked in to my bathroom. I slowly turned on the water and as I was filling up the tub I put bubble bath in. The I slowly slid my night gown off and I looked in the mirror and thought to my self "why would Darien leave me what did I do? No Serena your doing it again" I said to my self as I got into the water. I could feel the warmth of the water the bubbled covered my breast and my legs. I closed my eyes and started to relax and try and forget everything. I sat there for a long time then I decided to get out. as I stood up the soap was still all over my breasts and my legs and my arms. So I took a wash cloth and wiped myself down. I got out and dressed in a white shirt and sweat pants. I tied my hair up in a pony tail. as I walked out into the living room Mina greeted me with a carton of chocolate ice cream. I walked to the couch and sat down. Turned on the TV to some soap that was on and I started to watch it and just then the phone rang. I reached over and picked up the phone.
"Hello" I said.

" Hi Serena."

" Darien!" I screamed!
" Serena I have something I have to tell you." He said in a sad/ worried voice.

" Yes" I answered in a worried voice.

" I..."

A/N: Hey sorry to leave you at that spot and I'm sorry that this chapter isn't very exciting. But I thought that one chapter should be about her being all sad. Well let me know what you think and I'll have chapter 6 up soon and it will be more exciting