Hey guys should be starting to pick up in this chapter so R and R please.

4 hours later - New York

Buffy sighed, flopping down onto her bed of the B n B Giles had recently booked for her, Dawn, him of course, Xander and Willow. The otehrs were staying at another one not so far from here. Buffy had regretted telling Giles that this B n B "couldn't be that bad." She'd seen loads of disgusting things beign a Slayer but this place was just urgh. Still, she was tired and needed lots of rest.

She couldn't sleep so she went to her bag and picked up her diary, the one she'd kept for years yet no one knew about and never would, until her death which she probably wouldn't have control over people reading it.

She sat thinking, wondering what actually had happened, it had all seemed such a blur, she didn't notice when she started to write:

So we closed the hellmouth today and ruined Sunnydale all happy right? No way! Spike's gone and the last thing he said to me was that he knew I didn't love him. Did I close off that much when Angel left? Was Riley and Xander right about the things they said before he was gone. I don't know but I know one thing and that's that Spike was wrong. I did love him. When Angel came back I rushed straight to kissing him but the thing is I've never felt more safer than with Spike. His arms are around me and somehow I know that everythings going to be OK. He's the one that gave me the strength to get through this when I was ready to give up. He -

There was a knock at the door and Buffy quickly hid the diary under her bed, noticing that it had been getting dark outside. Giles walked in and smiled, "How are you feeling?"

"It's all good, we saved the world, changed it, never better," Buffy smiled, no one was going to know how much losing Spike had hurt her. No one.

Giles nodded, "Right well I think we should go out, see how much supernatural activity goes on around here, see if we spot any potentials, get to know the city things like that."

Buffy looked down at what she was wearing, "Sure I'll just get changed first."
Giles nodded again and went back to his room, whilst Buffy removed the bloodstained T-shirt from where she'd been stabbed and put on another. She looked down at her wound, it had already started healing.

After getting changed, Buffy walked outside where she met Giles, Willow and Xander, "So anyone know where to go?"

"Well we asked around and people think we're like big freaks asking for graveyards but there's one this way," Willow rambled.

Buffy and the others followed Willow to the nearest graveyard.

"Looks like theirs a lot of supernatural going on and looks like some people at the same idea as us," Buffy said noticing Faith taking on a vamp.
"Yo B!" Faith shouted, dusting the vamp, "Kinda quiet around here, we've been here ever since checking in and one vamp."

Buffy shrugged, "Sounds good to me."

Faith raised an eyebrow, she had always loved being the Slayer whereas Buffy had seen it as a job.

Buffy looked over at Faith, "Well I've had my fair share of fighting this last day, you should go back to the B n B there's nothing left to do and we could do with tons more rest, we'll catch you tomorrow."

Buffy and Faith went seperate ways, their "gang" in tow.

Willow started talking about something or other on the way home but Buffy could hear: her eyes weren't adjusting properly, everything seemed wavy and not right, she fainted and the next time she opened her eyes, all she sad was the things to indicate she was where she hated most in this world: hospitals.