3rd chapter is out! Yay! Okay, I hope everyone likes it. This chapter is okay, not my best. Just the bridge between action and suspense. Some light fluff, angsty shit.

Disclaimer: Disney… Well. Fuck you. I love you.

:All Roxas POV as you know:

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Sugar Coated Syringe

Ohh Kiss

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I looked over the rising sun.

Its orange glow illuminating the dark night sky.

I was alone.

After the afternoon spent with my friends

I stayed behind at the beach.

Sora and Kairi had gone back to our house.

I wish I would have been the one to take her.

But… No.

It was my fucking brother.

Kairi… Damn your so naïve sometimes.

I wish I could just scream at you.

Tell you how much I cared…

And how little Sora did…

While he's fucking with you he's thinking about Namine and how he would be with her tomorrow night.

Just leaving you alone.

All alone…

And now I was all alone.

Sitting by myself with the company of the rising sun.

But… What if you were my sun Kairi?

What would you say if I told you?

Would you tell me you've always felt the same?

Would you hate me?

Would you leave me?

I guess you can't leave someone

Who never had you…

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I had dragged myself back home after thinking way too much as always.

I was tired.

Drowned of insomnia.

Damn dreams don't even let me sleep anymore.

So, I found my room and closed the door

Crashing down on my un-made bed.

Thank god Sora's room was down the hall.

I couldn't hear anything that happened from within those four walls.

Even though I knew exactly what they were doing.

He was touching her.

She was touching him.

And I wasn't touching her.

And she wasn't touching me…

Soon I fell asleep, hoping, pleading with my mind and heart to just let me have one night of peace…

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"Namine! What are you… How could you?"

"Roxas!"

I watched her bare body shuffle beneath the sheets to conceal herself.

Sora sat beneath her.

Hands resting behind his head.

"Sora… How could you fucking do this to me…?"

"Sorry Roxas, you got a fine piece of ass… I just couldn't resist."

He shrugged.

Just shrugged at me like this didn't hurt.

Like I really couldn't feel any of it.

Namine's eyes were downcast as she curled closer to my brothers body.

Nothing in the world hurt more than knowing that neither of them fucking meant they were sorry…

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Fuck.

No sleep.

Still no sleep.

At least none that was peaceful.

None at all.

I never got any sleep anymore.

Not one bit.

Nothing…

That nightmare…again.

Namine… That bitch had to just rip my heart out.

Or…

I guess my prosthetic heart.

Since I was never born with one…

I need to really stop thinking about her.

I need to stop thinking about both those girls.

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I walked down the stairs, rubbing my eyes and desperately trying to get both their faces out of my head.

Well, that was going to be a little difficult noting that she was sitting on my kitchen counter.

She had a coffee cup in her hand, sipping at it lazily.

Cherry hair fell over her shoulder, lightly hitting her elbow.

A white tank top.

Striped gym shorts.

Fuzzy slippers.

God she was so fucking beautiful.

"Oh! Hey Roxas!"

She looked at me with a smile.

Bright blue eyes piercing straight through me.

"Hey…"

I gave her a quick, small smile before, of course, everything had to be ruined.

He had to show up.

"Mornin' Roxy!"

Sora.

I hope she rips your heart out some day.

"Morning…"

My voice was let out in a murmur.

Almost a husky whisper.

"How did you sleep?"

Kairi's voice piped, watching me with that dainty smile of hers.

What sleep?

"Fine…"

I got no sleep.

It was horrible…

I felt it all over again, that overwhelming feeling of defeat that wells inside of you.

And you can do nothing more than cry…

Damn, it was too early for this shit and this was torture.

Friday. Friday. Friday.

Thank fucking god for Friday.

Yes, I would attend school today…

I would be in trouble by my non-existent parents if they found out I ditched as much as I did.

They were always gone, though.

On business trips, leaving the two seventeen year olds by themselves.

It wasn't a very smart idea…

But they trusted Sora more than they trusted me.

They didn't even know their own son…

So, to school was where I was headed.

Destiny High.

Isn't that peachy…

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The first bell rang.

The second bell rang.

About fifteen minutes went by and I decided it was time to accompany my 'peers.'

People watched as the door swung open and they rolled their eyes seeing it was only me.

No one important.

Everyone was used to my being late to class by now, and even the teachers didn't give a shit about my absence or my being present anymore.

"It's nice to see you decided to show up, Mr. Hikari."

The smooth voice of my history, Mr. Leonheart, mused in a bored tone.

"Yeah…"

That was my response.

That was my usual response.

Almost to every question I'm asked.

Through all the rest of school the hours passed.

It seemed to make the time go by quicker when I thought of her.

"Kairi…"

I breathed out, shaking my head as I walked down the hall.

"Yeah?"

I froze.

Her voice.

Oh…fuck.

Had she really been behind me the whole time?

"O-Oh yeah… Uhm, Sora's birthday is coming up in like a week… I was wondering what you got for him?"

A lie.

Of course, his birthday was in a week, but I didn't give a shit about him.

Maybe I'll get lucky and he'll get hit by a car.

She grinned lightly and rolled her eyes.

"He… I don't know."

She said softly.

School was out. Finally.

She tugged on my shirt and I followed after her to the grass outside the stairs to the large building of the school. She sat me down and eyed me carefully.

"All he wants is to take me shopping."

She said with a slight frown.

I quirked a brow.

What?

That wasn't like my brother.

He always took.

Never gave…

"Huh?"

"He… Wanted to take me into Victoria's Secrets… To like… Buy stuff for me, for him."

Oh.

That's more like it.

There's the brother I knew.

All he wanted for his birthday was her naked.

He just wanted another good fuck out of her.

The small blush that tinted her cheeks and the fact that the small frown adorned her lips made my heart leap.

I hated seeing her like this…

"Look… Just get him something else… Get him a friendship necklace or something…"

I said with a small smile, trying to cheer the sullen girl up.

She glanced at me and sighed.

"But Roxas… He's not like you… You actually care."

She murmured with a heave of a breath.

More than you know…

Her blue eyes suddenly brightened and she gasped, tilting her head to the side.

"Roxas! Oh my god! It's your birthday too!"

I nodded.

Yep.

Two minutes after that son of a bitch was born I popped out.

The younger.

I smiled sheepishly and she bounced up at down.

"Aw! C'mon, what do you want?"

You…

"Anything."

I smiled and she smiled back.

I swear… That feeling in my chest just wouldn't go away…

That ache.

Those strikes just kept coming.

Those chains were tightened.

Fuck… I love her…

I love you Kairi…

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Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know…

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Yay! There you guys go! I hope you liked it, the lyrics are from Vertical Horizon! Keep reviewing, and reading. Love to all my reviewers! You guys mean more to me than you now:3