Okay! This chapter is ten pages long, and I expect you all to read every inch of it. Hahahaha. Yeah, it took me a really long time and I put a lot of heart in this chapter. This is based off one of my best friends, and I hope, if he's reading this right now, that I did this alright. Thanks again for reading everyone, this story is very close to my heart and it means more than you know.

Disclaimer: -sigh-

:All Roxas' POV:

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Sugar Coated Syringe

Ohh Kiss

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Wasteful.

Wasteful.

Wasteful.

To not even try is waste of a good start.

To lust is a waste of heart.

To be blind of lust is a waste of flesh

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It had been a week.

A whole week.

The last stretch.

I lived through it by watching her.

I got no sleep as usual and I came to the conclusion that love is my enemy.

Love.

What a strange word.

What a strange feeling.

I fucking hate it.

But it seems to adore me.

Cling to me.

Blind me from all perception…

Or maybe that's just her.

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Today would be just amazing…

It was the bane of my existence's birthday.

Now isn't that just wonderful?

I get to sit back and watch him kiss and hug her.

Play with her.

Tease her.

Deny her the love she deserves and then expect her to fuck him.

Fucking ass hole.

I couldn't do anything about it.

Nothing.

The party was after school today.

For both of us.

And sadly the bell to end my English class had just rung.

"Bye class! Oh, and Happy Birthday Roxas!" she piped.

My English teacher was pretty much the best teacher I had ever met.

Not because she was hot.

As all the other students would assume.

But because she liked my poetry.

My writing.

How quiet I was.

She reminded me of Kairi…

"Thanks Miss Ravenscroft."

The bleach blonde teacher nodded, strands of hair falling in front of green eyes.

"Tell your brother I say so as well."

She had to add that last little bit didn't she?

Well… I couldn't blame her, she was only being nice.

I nodded and sighed, walking out the door to begin my journey back home.

Back to hell.

And my parents weren't even going to be there.

Wow, what a fucking surprise.

Well, at least the walk home would be peaceful, except for the fact that when I got there it would just be me, Kairi, Sora, Namine, and Riku.

Just the handful of us.

Me being the only one without someone…

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Everyone was already there when I got home.

Great…

There were fits of giggling and laughing, and a few loud crashes as he walked in.

Kairi sat on the couch.

Namine sat on Riku's lap.

Sora had been the one to, of course, knock over the table and fall on his ass.

Maybe I'll get something really special for my birthday and we find out he broke his neck.

Nope.

Damn.

He stood up, grinning wickedly at me.

"Roxy!"

Dammit, stop fucking calling me that.

I sighed and plastered on a smile.

"Hey guys."

This was immensely difficult…

Namine sat, placing her lips gingerly on Riku's neck.

Teasing…

She used to do that to me…

A small shiver ran down my spine and I finally looked away as I heard Kairi's voice splinter my heart.

"Presents! Presents then cake!"

She squeaked, standing and scurrying over to two bags, handing one to me and the other to my brother.

Sora took it and ripped through it, revealing a small chain.

A dainty silver heart hung from its chain, the words 'Always yours' carved elegantly in its surface.

He grinned and nodded.

"Aw, thank you Kairi!"

What a fucking fake.

He wouldn't wear it a day in his life.

He placed it back in its box and set it next to him.

"I'm glad you like it!"

Her voice was happy, pure, grateful… So much different than his.

Her smile faded as he put it away, but she gave him a small kiss on the cheek.

She was hoping he would have put it on…

Namine and Riku nodded as well before the eyes turned to face me.

I carefully took the paper out of the small bag and opened another small black box.

I took out a necklace similar to Sora's but dangling from its chain was something very different from his own…

My lips seemed to curve involuntarily into a smile as I placed it in my palm and examined it.

"It's the shell… You gave it to me when you found it on the beach."

She paused and took out a necklace hidden by her shirt to show me.

The small pink and blue ripples of the heart shaped shell reflected off her eyes and I was lost for a moment.

"See? I have one just like it… I made them."

I smiled, nodding as I studied her own.

She had taken the time to break the shell and carve them both to perfection in the shape of a small heart.

Two hearts…

It meant more to me than any silver necklace ever could.

"T-thank you Kairi… It's beautiful."

My voice was soft, as always, but she could tell I was happy with it.

I was more than happy with it.

It was perfect…

"Aw… Roxy thinks it's beautiful!"

Sora.

His voice held a high mocking tone and he scoffed.

"Hey! That's because it is beautiful! I'm glad at least one of you appreciates your present!"

Kairi hissed defensively at my own brother.

Her own boyfriend.

For me…

I grinned lightly and placed the necklace around my neck.

"Shut up ass hole. Just because you have the IQ of a piece of dirt doesn't mean I still can't use big words in front of you."

He wrinkled his nose and growled

"Hey! You know what, fuck you, I'm hungry!"

Kairi rolled her eyes and stood up, followed by the rest of us.

Tonight hadn't been so bad… Not so far at least.

The brunette cut himself a large slice of the cake and walked off to sit in the living room once again.

I had a piece as well, only because Kairi asked me to.

I couldn't deny her.

Soon enough everyone was eating and watching some fucking dumb ass horror movie Sora had put on.

I hate scary movies.

Yeah.

Hate them.

Can't stand them.

But I would live with it; simply look down if there was anything gross or disturbing on the screen.

I would glance at Kairi, huddled against Sora's chest.

Her hand resting on his.

Trying to get him to react.

To lace his fingers with hers.

Fucking idiot didn't even get it…

I would watch her shift positions

Look down as I did when something frightening flashed across the screen.

Namine was grinning up at Riku, whispered little flitters of lies in his ear.

That used to be me…

With my arms around her.

Holding her.

Protecting her.

Not anymore… No, and not ever again.

The silver headed boy sighed after the movie ended and stood along with Namine.

She attempted to give me a hug, but I shied away and got a small helpless frown from Kairi.

She knew it still hurt…

She knew it was still an open wound that stung when touched.

Yet she still forgave him…

Forgave Sora for cheating on her…

For hurting her…

Riku watched as she hugged Sora and the two smiled.

"Well, were gonna get going, see you guys tomorrow!"

Riku grinned and placed his arm around Namine as they walked out.

I simply nodded, waving at them as they walked out the door.

Sora and Kairi were sitting on the couch and she sighed.

"Well, I'm tired too… I think I'm going to go lay down too."

She said with a small nod and a yawn.

I was the first to see Sora's eyes dart down to her with a sheepish grin.

Thank god I slept down the hall.

Thank fucking god.

He grasped her hand and she was tugged off, a small confused look on her face.

"Uhm… Well, goodnight Roxas!"

She yelled from the stairs.

I simply nodded to myself with a heaved sigh.

I hated this.

I hated him for doing this.

I hated him so fucking bad…

But there was nothing I could do…

I fiddled aimlessly with the shell around my neck before finally walking up stairs and collapsing on my bed.

Another night of no sleep…

And I don't even care anymore.

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"Sora? Hey… c'mon… I'm really tired."

Kairi's voice split the darkness of the room.

Sora's room.

She shifted on the bed as he looked down at her with a whimper.

"Aw, come now… It's my birthday…"

He whined down at her.

She squirmed and sighed, eyes narrowing as his hands gripped her wrists.

"Let me go, c'mon… I just want to get some sleep, not tonight, okay?"

She said with a small smile, hoping her boyfriend would understand.

He growled defensively, his grip tightening, "Just relax… It's okay… C'mon…"

Kairi's eyes widened and she squirmed, but his hands clenched around her wrists.

"Sora… Let me go… Sora, get off-mmph!"

She was cut off by the rough press of his lips against hers.

She returned it slightly before squirming again and breaking away.

"Sora! Let go of me!"

"No…"

His voice was husky against her ear as he pressed her wrists hard against the bed beneath them.

She whimpered, "Sora you're hurting me! Let me go! Stop!"

Finally her knee found its way to his stomach and she was able to get loose.

Her eyes now flooded with tears widened and she hurried out of the room.

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I was sitting up in my bed.

Listening to music as always.

Trying to drown out the thoughts of her…

The door?

What would they be doing up so late?

Fuck.

I already know what there doing…

I got up, scratching the back of my head lazily as I opened the door and walked out into the hall.

Kairi…

What the hell was she doing up?

Or… What was she doing not in bed with my brother?

Her arms were crossed over her chest, head down, the small shorts and the t-shirt she wore wrinkled slightly.

"Kai-"

She fell against me.

I felt wetness against my bare chest…

She was crying.

Her knees gave out and she pressed her weight against me.

I felt my heart constrict and I kneeled down slightly as she let out a small sob against my neck.

What was going on?

I breathed in lightly and looked down at her.

"Kairi… What's wrong? What happened?"

I tried to keep my voice soft, she was…

I don't know how to explain it…

She was so scared.

Her body was curled against mine, a trembling mass of emotions.

She lifted her gaze to mine and saw the placid blue of her eyes drowned with tears as the salty drips of water made streaks down her porcelain cheeks.

Her lips were shaking and she shook her head, eyes closing again.

Words seemed to escape her.

I felt her hand touch mine and I looked down.

Her hand…

I gently took it in mine, examining it.

A large black and blue mark rounded her wrist.

Fingerprints.

She glanced at me again, eyes half-lidded as she tried to catch her breath.

"Kairi… What did he do to you…"

I knew.

In that quick moment.

That this was my brothers doing.

I felt my heart constrict again

The strikes becoming heated

The chains tightening to a new level.

I felt my body pulse with a new emotion.

One far surpassed by love.

And one far more dangerous.

I felt anger burning inside me.

The girl in my arms stifled a sob and she leaned back against me, arms clumsily wrapping around my shoulders and neck, simply dying to be held.

To be protected.

Unblinking I starred at my brother's door.

And unblinking I knew…

That I was going to end up doing something I would regret…

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. This is the longest chapter I think I have ever written. It took me a while to get through the hallway seen with Roxas and Kairi. I hope I got the feelings right and the imagery. Ack. I don't know, I had it right in my head. I hope everyone liked it.