Thoughts of Anguish
By Oceanguardian
Chapter 4: Thoughts of Apology

Draco sat his room, he was trying to study but it wasn't going to good, all he could think about was Hermione. It 's been a week and a half since they had the fight, and she told him to stay away, all he wanted to do was tell her how sorry he was for hurting her, but every time he got close to her to try and apologize her expression filled with hurt and she walked away, away from him. 'What have I done?' He asked himself out loud.

"Hermione how long do you plan on staying mad at him?" Harry asked.

Ron and Harry could see how much this was hurting her. Every time they were in class and he wasn't looking Hermione would sneak a peek at him.

"How could I be friends with him, or even more then friends, his father already tried to kill me, if he knew we were friends again he would kill me and anybody else that gets in the way," Hermione explained.

"You heard him though, he didn't tell you for that reason,"

"But his reason almost got me killed Ron," Hermione answered.

"Wow forbidden love, who knew it would be like this," Said Ginny. Hermione looked at her.

"It's not love he's feeling Ginny, it's-" Hermione stopped trying to think what it might be.

"Love," Harry said.

"All right you know what, I'm going, I'm tired of listening to this," Hermione got up and walked out of the common room.

She walked down the halls and turned for the prefects resting room. It was a place that prefects could go and not worry about duties for a little bit, she wanted to get away from this non-sense. She leaned against a wall and looked at the night sky, the stars were out and about and the moon was round and shining. It looked so peaceful. She leaned against the wall and closed her eyes.

"Pretty isn't it?" A voice asked. Hermione opened her eyes and saw Draco. She went to turn around but he stopped her.

"Why are you in my thoughts?" Hermione asked

"I can't talk to you in person so I thought this way you might hear, and it's working, see try to move," Hermione did try to move she lifted her feet and yet she couldn't move.

"Alright you got my attention, but why can't I move?"

"Because you don't want to leave, you want to talk to me, you have been thinking about me and this here proves it," Draco said with a smile.

"Well then hurry up and talk cause I don't want to be here forever," Hermione said.

"I know what I did was wrong, I should have never have kept you from my family, but if I didn't you would have been killed years ago, and I probably would have had to watch it, and then who knows what he would do to me, I couldn't take that chance, watching you die is not something I want to see ever," Draco explained.

Hermione looked at him,

"Draco you got mad at me when you found out I was a muggleborn, you went two months without talking to me, why should I ever talk to you again, your dad was ready to kill me, at least my parents didn't try to kill you,"

"I know, and I'm sorry, I was young and stupid, but why do you think I became your friend again, it was getting to me, knowing every one else could see you, talk to you and I couldn't, that's when I found out how I really felt about you, and I've kept it to myself all these years, When I found out my dad knew about you I went straight to the hospital wing to get you, when I got there and you weren't there I panicked, I thought he killed you, then I followed his voice and knew I still had a chance to get to you and help you, he didn't do anything cause Harry and Ron were there and my father is afraid of Harry, believe it or not it's true, if Voldemort himself couldn't kill him the three times he went up against him what chance does my father have? Hermione please believe me, I already lost you for two months, two months I wished never happened, I don't want to loose you again,"

Hermione stared down at the floor, tears were starting to form in her eyes, there was no way she could turn him down to be his friend again, she cared for him so much but how could she put herself in this position again? Draco placed a hand on her chin and lifted her head up.

"But now what happens?" Hermione asked. "Your dad knows about me,"

"I don't care, I'd die for you Hermione, I care about you so much and this week and half is killing me knowing I can't talk to you because I hurt you, I didn't mean too and I hope this way you can understand," Draco leaned in and kissed her, Hermiones eyes were opened with shock and fear, she closed them for a quick second and when she opened then again,

Draco was gone and she was still leaning against the wall starring at the night sky.

"Was it all a Dream?" She asked herself bringing her fingers up to her lips and resting them there. They were tingling and wet.

Alie