Thoughts of Anguish
By OceanGuardian
Chapter 5: Forbidden Love

Hermione sat up in her bed, today was the hardest day to go by, when she saw Draco in the hallway she wanted to go talk to him but found that she couldn't, not after last night, she tried her hardest to avoid him but every time she did it was like he was right behind the corner every time. Harry and Ron still talked with him and everyday at dinner it was the same thing,

"Why don't you talk to him?" Asked Harry.

"I'm afraid," Hermione whispered.

"Hermione no matter what happens you know me and Harry will be here, but Draco wants to be there too, so let him," Ron cooed.

"Ron how can I even think about being his friend again, his father almost killed me, he wont touch Harry but I'm not Harry, I can loose my life if I'm seen with him, he'll have to watch and who knows what will happen to him after I'm gone, do you think I can hang out with him with that on my shoulders? I care for him a lot I really do, but if not being his friend is the only way he's safe, then so be it, I couldn't live knowing something awful awaits him at home because of me," Hermione finished her speech, tears were streaming down his face and she got up and ran out of the Great Hall. She needed to get away.

Now she was in her room still wanting to get away and hide her face. She thought she had every right not hanging out with him, sure it killed her too, but knowing that in the end it might not be worth it for both could die, she'd rather just wait, only problem is she didn't know how long she could wait. If she could avoid him for the remainder of the year it might help him to get over her, there was only three weeks left and it would be time to go back home, away from here, away from him. It was going to hurt both of them but what choice did she have? To save each other it was the only thing she could do, Ginny was right, what they had was forbidden love, love they knew they had for each other but couldn't act upon it.

So she had no choice she had to do what's right, only she didn't know how tell him, either face to face or in a letter. If she wrote a letter she didn't have to see the pain on his face while he read it or listen to what he had to say. She stood up and went to her desk; she took out a parchment and quail and started to write.

Draco was in his room reading a book but he wasn't getting to far, he missed Hermione and wished she would talk to him again, he missed her laugh, her smile, he just missed….her. He wanted to study with her to be with her.

Entering her mind the night before he wouldn't forget it, he had kissed her, something he's wanted to do for so long, yet even then she still ignores him.

"Why must you be tormenting me Hermione," He said out loud holding his head "Why can't you just talk to me, give me some hope," He stood up from his bed and started to pace back and forth, all of a sudden a tapping came from his window. He walked over and an owl flew in, it landed on him and he automatically knew it was from his father. Not wanting to open it he did anyways so he wouldn't hear bickering later.

Draco,
How is the Mudblood doing? You know you interrupting my work that one time was not a good thing you will be punished as soon as you get home, you know I can't tolerate that kind of behavior, as for her you best get rid of her or I will, I'll see you in three weeks.

L.M

Draco threw down the letter, how he hated his father, for everything he did always making his life miserable. For once all he wanted to be was happy.

Another tapping came from the window. He got up and saw another owl.

"Now what?" He questioned walking over and letting him in. The owl flew to the desk dropped the letter and flew back out.
"Ok this one didn't want a response," Draco said, watching the owl fly out and away. He walked over and picked up the letter.

Dear Draco,
Sorry for writing so late but I felt that I had too. Draco I'm really sorry you know I like you and I care about a whole lot and that's why I decided that what we have going on is Forbidden. I don't want to see you get hurt from your father or from me any longer, so I'm sorry to say that we can no longer hang out or be friends, if it's the only way to save me and keep you out of trouble or possibly danger then you'll understand that I'm doing this because I care about you and I couldn't stand if anything had happened to you, please forgive me and please forget me.
Don't write back, this is hard enough for me.

Hermione M Granger.

Draco placed down the letter, tears forming in his eyes, and he could tell by the teardrops on the letter that she too was crying while writing the letter. But she had a point, he couldn't save her from his father he can't even save himself from his father so what good would it do.

"I promise Hermione one day it won't be forbidden I'll have you in my arms, and I'm willing to wait, I won't give up and I hope you don't either," Draco said, crumpling the letter from his father and throwing it into the father. "And if that means getting rid of the reason we can't be together then so be it,"

Alie... You know I can't wait for the last Chapter, I bet everyone will be pissed at howI ended it. this Story only has about 14 Chapters, so the more reviews the quicker you get the rest of the chapter to see what happens next.