YAWN Has anyone watched Final Fantasy Advent Children? I just did a few days ago! I'm in love Kadaj... He reminds me of Yami Bakura! He's so childish but really intelligent and sinsiter... I therefore add Kadaj to my Closet of Bishounen.
Pharaoh-man is here! trumpets blare XD XD I though that Yami got really hot during the last few episodes of Yuugiou...anyone else notice that? He was all cocky and smirking...he was HOT. Every character has his own prime. Ryou looked best in Duelist Kingdom. Bakura is BC. Kaiba in DOMA and Yami in Egyot Arc.
Thank you, anyone who reviewed last time! I looked in my inbox adn was surprised! Eight reviews! That makes me sounds pathetic...doesn't it? Well, I still loved getting those reviews. Thanks so much for reviewing, everyone who did! Means a lot ot see those...
Anyway...on with the story!
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Ryou
Yugi was coming.
Yugi who never bothered to sit with me at lunch anymore was coming. Yugi who had so many friends and was oh-so-popular and had a yami who was so kind to him.
I had nor had a friend over since the MonsterWorld incident.
Tea brewed in my kitchen (not British tea like I like but the Japanese tea I knew Yugi would be used to) and I took the time to vacuum and dust my house.
After all, Yugi was coming.
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Bakura
The Pharaoh was coming.
His little brat was coming over and the king was coming to protect him. From what? Why me, of course.
And Ryou? Who was he going ot blame all of Ryou's troubles on? Me. Again.
But I was going to put up with it. I was going to put up with the Pharaoh and his bitch simply because I knew Ryou wanted me to. I knew he had not had a friend over since I tried to kill them all when he first transferred here in a game of MonsterWorld.
The last thing I wanted to do was ruin this for him.
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Yami
I tried to suppress my unenthusiasm as I followed Yugi down the familiar corridors. Last time I had set foot here was when Bakura had decided to try and kill us all with his RPG Game of Doom. Not exactly a place of pleasant memories.
After passing what seemed to be hundreds of identical dark mocha hallways, Yugi stopped at one marked "801." Yugi lifted one hand and knocked a few resounding times. I counted to two in my head and the door was opened to reveal and scowling Yami Bakura.
"Oho…the king has arrived." He smirked and performed a mock bow before stepping to the side and holding his arms out as if presenting the inside of Ryou's apartment to me. "My humble abode awaits you, Oh Great Pharaoh."
I gave him a long and hard glare but stepped in behind Yugi despite all the mockery.
"Hi, Bakura-kun!" Yugi's voice, despite it's forced cheerfulness, seemed surprised and even worried. One glance at Ryou told me why. The boy looked like he was bordering on insanity, with his eyes giving a blank look to their owner's face and his clothes hanging off of his much-too-thin body.
My accusing glare went and landed an Bakura. What had he done to his light? Hate flickered in his eyes when the other yami met my eye , which evaporated instantly when he shifted his gaze to Ryou.
"Aren't you going to say hello, Ryou?" Bakura's tone was icy and his gaze was hard a he stared at Ryou. "Well…?"
"Ano, hello, Yugi-kun." Ryou mumbled, looking at the ground. I frowned. Ryou had always been so polite… "I made…tea." He said helplessly.
"Oh, that's great!" Yugi seemed uncomfortable to his friend's altered personality but he covered all insecurity with a mask of cheeriness. My hikari looked back at me as he began to follow Ryou into the kitchen, face full of shock and uncertainty. I gave Yugi an encouraging nod before I turned to Bakura, about to demand just what the hell had happened to Ryou.
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Yugi
Ryou said nothing as he made his way to the stove where a kettle was whistling shrilly and shooting fumes of white smoke. My friend turned off the stove and I watched him get out two glasses. I was fighting an urge to reach out and help him as his hands quivered.
"Oh careful." I said, trying to sound cheerful. My voice ended up sounding as shrill as the kettle and overcome with worry. "Ano…do you need help?" Ryou answered with a shake of his head and clenched his hands until his knuckles showed white. Was he trying to steady them?
"How have you been, Bakura-kun?" I mentally smacked myself. Stupid question.
"Don't call me that." Ryou's reply, though soft, shocked me with it's unintended rudeness. "My yami is Bakura. Not me." Ryou's voice bordered in whispering and I got a message that he did not want to talk.
"Um…okay then…Ryou-kun." I tried to fill up the silence, not used to Ryou's first name. It felt awkward; Ryou and I had never been close enough to call each other by our first names. In fact, now that I thought about it, Ryou had never been close enough to anyone to call them by their first names. With a twinge of guilt, I remembered my own loneliness in my freshmen year.
I knew what loneliness felt like. But that was before Yami entered my life. Now, I had friends that cared about me and I was happy. But what about Ryou?
Ryou had a yami too…Bakura, though Bakura was never like what a yami should be. I suddenly hated myself very much. I knew what Ryou feels…yet I was so selfish I had never bothered to think about anything besides how great a yami was.
Well, Ryou's yami was not great.
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Yami
Bakura and I, after watching our hikaris leave were alone.
"Bakura." I said abruptly when the former tomb robber turned to leave.
"What?" He snapped, all mock respect put aside. "If you're thinking that I did something to Ryou, you're wrong." His piercing, brown eyes fell on me. I met his gaze with equal intensity.
"I don't believe you." Why else would Ryou be this…depressed? Bakura must have done something to him. It was in his nature to do so.
"Deeply sorry, you're majesty, but I personally don't give a damn about what you think." A snarl came alive in Bakura's voice, along with traces of mock respect.
"Bakura, I want to know what happened to Ryou." I kept my voice form, not giving in to him.
"That's too bad for you, then, isn't it?" There was a silence in which Bakura and I stood, glaring at each other. Then, uttering a low chuckle devoid of any joy, Bakura continued. "Don't we all want to know what happened to Ryou."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, I have no fucking idea why Ryou is acting the way he is." The snarl was back in Bakura's voice and face. "If I had screwed him up, I would be damn proud of it, Pharaoh."
"That's sick."
"That's how I am."
Bakura was right. He was a twisted, sick psycho. Arguing with him would get me absolutely nowhere. I took a deep breath.
"Well, how has Ryou been lately?" This earned a scoff from Bakura.
"What?"
"I'm concerned about my friend, Bakura." I met his gaze evenly. "I want to know how he's been."
"Friend? Friend?" Bakura was scowling viciously now. "You think you've been a fucking friend to Ryou? Tell me, Pharaoh. When was the last time you've paid you're little friend and visit?" I said nothing but continued to meet his gaze.
"Alright. Fine." Now, no emotion showed itself in Bakura's voice. "You want to know how you're friend is doing? I'll tell you how he's doing." Voice dangerously low and hatred aimed at me, Bakura began. "He's ceased to eat, sleep, smile, or act within the definition of normal. He spends his days holed up in his closet muttering about death. When he does sleep, he wakes up in the middle of the night screaming. He refuses to let me leave his side." Soft, venom-filled words filtered out of Bakura's mouth with the nature of a dessert cobra ready to attack. "Now, Pharaoh…doesn't Yugi do that? Is this enough to satisfy you're perverted side?" Bakura's words and gaze filled me with numb horror.
"Don't you suggest that I'm enjoying this." I snapped at him. Inside, I knew that Bakura had betrayed himself by telling me all this. By telling me about Ryou, he had admitted to himself that eh was worried. That he cared enough for someone to observe their daily habits. His last line was only a futile attempt to seem…the way he usually was.
Before Bakura could make some sarcastic remark in reply, a crash shattered in Ryou's kitchen.
"Damn." Bakura muttered under his breath as he began to head toward the kitchen. Fearing for Yugi's safety, I followed him.
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Bakura
"Ryou…I'll go get a broom." I heard Yugi's annoyingly cheerful voice expressed his worry as I entered the kitchen. "It's okay! You shouldn't clean that up with your hands!"
Ryou seemed to have dropped a water colored glass. Shards were scattered across the floor with my hikari amidst it all, looking lost and crying. Yugi squatted down next to Ryou, trying desperately to get him to stop trying to sweep it up with his clumsy, bandaged hands.
The Pharaoh sucked in his breath from behind me and rushed to Yugi's side. Yugi, seeing his yami, looked relieved and gestured at Ryou.
"Mou Hitori no Boku…Bakura-kun's going to hurt himself." Yami made no reply to this piece of news, just turned and set his crimson eyes upon me.
"Helping Ryou is his own yami's job, Aibou." Yami's gaze never left me. "That is…if pride would allow him to help his own hikari." I shot him a glare, which he returned evenly, but said nothing. The Pharaoh let his gaze linger on me for one…two…three seconds before focusing his attention on Yugi.
"My job, on the other hand, is to protect you, Aibou." The Pharaoh said to his hikari.
It took a moment for the Pharaoh's little midget to fully understand what he was saying and when he did, surprise shined in his eyes.
"Mou Hitori no Boku! We can't just leave Bakura-kun!" I smirked at Yugi's little outburst. So…the little runt was finally protesting against his beloved "Mou Hitori no Boku?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Ryou watch the Pharaoh and Yugi and a thick lump swelled in my throat. The jealousy in those leaking eyes was evident- so much that I had to look away.
When my gaze shifted back to the Pharaoh, he and Yugi were already on their feet and at the door. The Pharaoh grasped Yugi's forearm firmly and began to pull him to the front door.
"Take care, Ryou-kun!" Yugi called as the front door slammed. Ryou lifted his hand up in a small, broken sort of wave and I was sure I heard "I'm sorry" whisper from his lips.
"Ryou." Ryou's gaze and attention fell on me at the mention of his name. "Get out of that before you hurt yourself again." Ryou obeyed instantly, coming over to where I stood and allowing me to check for any fresh wounds. Seeing that none of the glass pieces had gone through the thick bandaging I had installed upon Ryou's limbs, I smiled in satisfaction and patted Ryou on the head.
"You're okay." I assured him.
"Okay…" He repeated. "Yugi left." He mumbled, looking quite lost. "Why?"
"Because the Pharaoh was being the absurd, overprotective maniac he is." I grabbed a broom from a corner of the kitchen and a dustpan.
"I made a mistake…and he left." Ryou's hollow voice drifted to my ears. "…and he doesn't like being around me."
"Before I could tell him just how absurd that last statement was, Ryou sank to his knees and began to cry like a lost child, Several shattered sobs wrenched themselves out of his throat, shaking his shoulders and making him bite his lip, before I had the common sense to go and comfort him.
"It's not your fault, Ryou." I heard my own voice say, awkward. Why was comforting my own hikari so hard?
I tried to tell myself that he would be fine as I finished sweeping up the glass and as I left him in that kitchen, sobbing and huddling into himself. I even tried telling myself that when Ryou's sobs sang in the air all night.
Who knows? Maybe I even believed myself.
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Yugi
"Mou Hitori no Boku…why did you make us leave?" I could not understand my own yami. It was so unlike him to leave a friend helpless.
"Yami Bakura is…a very proud person." My other half seemed to choose his words carefully, speaking calmly and softly. I stared at him, waiting for him to continue. "He would have taken care of Ryou, Yugi. You can trust me on that. But he would not have done a thing with us standing there. His pride just wouldn't have allowed it." With numb understanding, I let my other half's words sink in.
"But you think that he will take care of Bakura-kun?" I trusted my yami's judgment. He looked at me seeming a little surprised before responding.
"Hai." He nodded and I smiled. It was okay then. Everything was okay as long as Mou Hitori no Boku was okay with it.
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Ryou
Yugi was gone now.
Yugi was gone because of me. Because of a mistake I had made. That was okay though because, now, I was warned.
I was warned that when I made mistakes, people left. Yugi's leaving had shown me that. If I wanted people to stay, all I had to do was not make any more mistakes. If I wanted Bakura to stay, all I needed to do was not make any more mistakes.
That meant no more dropping things or getting people worried. No getting people mad or forgetting to do something. And most of all, no crying.
Smile, Ryou…I silently ordered myself. There was no one around at the moment but I had to be prepared in case Bakura came in.
After all, I wouldn't want him leaving.
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I finished typing the rest of the fic and I completely changed the ending... Not sure if ti was good. I had an another scene in there but I though that it didn't...fit. oo I mean, I had the idea for it at the last second and tried to force it in and smooth the fic out but it just took away from the climax and it stuck out like a sore thumb. I hope that it doesn't feel like there a hole in there now though... >.
Ahh! No updates for more than two weeks. I know...sad. But I'M FUCKING GOING TO EUROPE. WOO! Yes...I'm excited. - Germany, to be exact, and Ceck Republic (sp?)as well as Austria. And, yes, it's true. NO PARENTS. Yeah...school trip but still... LOL, I'll try to maybe get an another update in before I go? -
Has anyone read Boys Next Door by Kaori Yuki? It's only one volume but I've completely fallen in love with the plot adn the charcters. You can onyl get it on scanlations at the http dump for Sakura Crisis... I HEART LAWRENCE. I've fallen in love with him... He's only been with me for a few week but he's already up there with Ryou and Bakura! Email me if you've read this...I would love to rant about it with an another fan. And I'm hoping that FFnet with put it up as a new catagory...hinthint
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