The Ending Of My Story

Certain people come into your life and make a blaze in your heart so big and bright that you're lit up forever.

That's what Angel did for me.

Even though he's not here, I can still feel him when I stand in the sunshine or lay my head on his pillow that I can't sleep without. I can still see him in our son Connor, who's looking more and more like his father everyday. I can still hear him in the wind or in a beautiful love song. It's been six years since he left this world and me with it, but I know we won't be apart forever. Even though I'm happily married to one of my best friends and we're expecting our first child together in six months, my first love will always be my Angel.

Do I feel guilty about loving someone else and making a family with someone else?

No.

Because I know it's what Angel wants for me. I'm happy with Ville. He's been in my life a long time and I love him dearly. It's still a shock to both of us that we're making a family now after all these years of friendship, but he's helped me through so much in my life and he's been there through thick and thin. I feel it was only natural we finally fell in love. Everyone thought it would be Bam and I, but he's happy with Missy and their daughter, Elizabeth. We're all one big happy family.

They found a not Angel had written to me in his luggage. Somehow it survived the crash and I think it was meant to. The words have echoed in my life since the day I received them, so I end my book with these words in the hopes that you, the reader, will take them to heart as I did and find those bright blazes to light up your world.

You never know how things will turn out,

But you can't be scared of the unknown.

If I had been scared of the unknown,

I never would have met you.

My father once gave me some advice,

And by taking them to heart,

I believe they led me to you.

So just remember, love:

Listen to the people in your life.

Learn from everything you do.

Love with all of your heart and soul.

Live with every breath you take.

All my love and best wishes,

Buffy Anne O'Donnell-Valo

THE END