When mom got home i rushed down the stairs with my bass guitar. Marissa with her electric guitar followed behind me. mom smiled at me a lifeless and forced smile.

" mom can you give us a ride to the bar we're playing tonight" i said in a very soft voice. Mom nodded slowly turning around and opening the truck for our guitars. i was shocked at the fact that i had white powder in my guitar case. was i stupid? why would i even consider this?

the ride there was beggining to become really akward. i think mom sensed this and she looked at me and smiled and then put her hand on my lap and i kept stareing into the distance. i couldnt face her not with all the problems i was creating. we came to a stop and i kissed her cheek before running out to the stage marissa and i jumped on stage and hunter grabbed his drum sticks and i smiled at him as he went to his drums.

Marissa set up her mic and swung her guitar back so she could check the mic.

"check...check...check. WHATS UP TONIGHT!" Marissa yelled over the screaming crowd i took this as a que to start playing a random tune on my guitar which got everyones attention then hunter picked up the beat with the drums. this was a orrignal tune just created on spur of the momment. i stoped and hunter ended with a amazing drum roll. a smiled back at him and he winked at me.

Marissa started the song with her guitar intro and i followed her with my bass and hunter starting ponding on drums. Marissa's voice pounding threw the bar. i glanced down at the crowd and i saw him. Jake was sitting in the front row. i screwed up the frets but immediatly regained my self and he chuckled slightly at my mistake. my mother was standing at the bar danceing slightly to the beat while still pouring the drinks. Dad had snuck away from the door to watch me play.

i felt like i was letting them down by considering drugs. i had to start concintrating on the music if i was going to finish this gig with out embarrissing me or my band. after our show we jumped down to hang out with some of the people. Jake was the first one infront of me.

" so how are things at home?" he asked giveing me a look that said he already knew. i smiled at looked past him to Marissa. no body knew about my sexuality. i loved her. but i couldnt i loved Hunter. i was caught in the middle of this love triangle. but i couldnt get either they were just my friends. i walked past jake attempting to get to britany or Marissa. i looked to the bar and saw mom and dad. Dad was glareing down mom and mom was pouring a drink with a angry look on her face

i grabbed jakes hand and led him to the back and pulled out the cocaine. Jake smiled and pulled out two cut straws and a credit card

"always come prepared. here i'll teach you how" he said pouring out the cocain on the little coffee table. i kneeled back and put my hair in a pony tail.jake put the straw between my index fingure and my thumb and then makeing fat lines with the powder.he deminstrated on the first line then watched me do the same on the next line. i leaned back laughing at the feeling. i felt a warm sensation comeing from her nose i touched it gentally pulling my hand away i looked at the red liquid

" oh my fucking god! im dieing! your fucking killing me!" i fell back wipeing my nose fiercly and seeing the blood left on the floor from my nose. i screamed and jake put a hand over my mouth

"shhhh you want to get us busted" jake said taking his hand from my mouth and i tryed to drag myself away leaveing a trail of blood dripping from my nose

" oh my god... OH MY GOD!. im going to die..." I said begining to sobb. i placed my hands under my nose and catching the blood. i leaned my head back and the blood was on the floor and in my mouth and over my face. i put my hands on the wall and then slid down leaveing a stain of blood. i cryed until i pasted out...