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Sorry it took so long but now I am back and I will make a good fic! Ok here I go.
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Sesshomaru
I sent out Jaken a letter would go to Inuyasha's Human friends, telling them of how he is, but not when he would come back. Hopefully Jaken wont fail me in this and lead them to my home, but I doubted they would come. I was sitting in my outside garden, and I could hear my brother walking behind me "Inuyasha... what are you doing in here?" he stopped walking, being very quiet then he spoke "Sesshomaru, why did you get me? Why didn't you leave me there, I didn't ask for your help, you should have left me there to die!" He said all these words very quickly as if he wanted to say them and get it done with. I stood up and turned at him "Inuyasha, if you will not except that I have helped you, then go out there and take your life, I don't care. That is and will be the only time I ever save you, understand?" I could look into his eyes, they were so not like mine, they were a bit darker, yes, and also they showed all his emotions. How could he let himself have such a weakness? And as I looked into his eyes, I could see all of his pain, had I caused some of his pain? Was I the reason he acted the way he did? No, wait, why am I asking myself these questions? I shouldn't care about him, he was just a half demon, no better then humans. But wait, Rin is a human and I don't hate her, but no, she is a special girl. Why am I doubting myself now, I have to stop these questions and the sooner Inuyasha was gone the sooner I could forget these thoughts. "Inuyasha, why are you staring at me?" "I'm not...were are my friends? Do they know where I am?" "No they don't" he looked relived "I sent Jaken out to tell them of what you have done, and that you are here, with me, and that you are fine." his eyes flashed a bit of anger and then sorrow "Why didn't you just tell them I died? I wouldn't have to endanger them anymore, and Kagome could go home, and live with her mom, and her grandfather and her brother, and be 'normal' like she wants..." he hit my chest, but he was still weak, it was like when I was younger and trying to hurt my father, and how I was much weaker then him, this is what his hit reminded me of. "Why couldn't you have lied to them? Why Sesshomaru!" He fell to the ground and started to weep, and I stood there and watched him. But why didn't I lie, then I could keep him to myself...no, no, I had to stop these thoughts. He is a half demon, my brother, I couldn't be thinking like this at least not about him. But how weak he looked there, as the tears flowed down his face, like it had when he found that his mother was dead, when he was sad that he was hated by both humans and demons, when he learned that no one but his mother would have loved him. I knelt down next to him and I sat there, I wouldn't comfort him, hold him, tell him it was okay, no none of that, I would just let him cry. He moved away from me, as if he thought I would strike him. "Inuyasha, get up stop your crying, there is no reason for it, now stop." He looked up at me, his face was red and wet, it was puffy as well. "You, you, you think that I have no re-reason to cry?" he was getting louder " You wont even lie to my friends so I wont have to face them! And then when they know what I meant to do you know they will never trust me again! They wont listen to me, they will eventually leave me!" the tears started to run down his face faster "Sesshomaru, I hate you!" he tried to make an attack at me, but I caught his hands, and he started to thrash in my grip, he keep yelling at me, to let him go, that I was a horrible creature, he wanted me to die, and finally he stopped he became quiet and all that came from him was a whimper, a small noise coming from him. And soon he became quiet and he sat there and looked at the ground. I should have comforted him, I should have said kind words to him, I should have...no! I must stop pitying him!
Inuyasha
I had to think, but I couldn't, I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder, but I knew he would push me away, that he would rather shove his hand through my stomach1 before he did any thing that might make me feel better. But that just how he is, and I hate him, I hate him I hate him I do! Then why is my mind saying "stop lying" ? I'm not lying I am telling him the truth I know I am! Right? I bit my lip, he just yelled and me and then I yelled back, then I went and got upset, and now he is mad at me. I don't want him to be mad with me, I don't. I want to cry though, I never get to cry so I should be allowed to now right? I started to whimper, I didn't mean to but that was the only thing coming out of me, and even though I tried to stop it, it wouldn't stop. He sighed in annoyance and I looked up at him, how could he stay so emotionless, if I was like that I guess that would make me stronger, but Kagome had said something about people like Sesshomaru, who never smile, or show emotion, but I don't remember, and it don't matter I will never go back to them...I felt a little jar in my pocket, and I reached in there to get it. The sacred jewels, I still had them, maybe I could get Sesshomaru to give them back to them or Jaken could take them for me, I don't want to face my friends I can't face them. He saw the shards I knew, and I shoved them back into my pocket "Inuyasha why do you have them? I thought that girl you traveled with carried them." I looked up at him "Yea... I took them." "And why did you do that?" "I don't know" I was trying to make this conversation end and I had to do something, I didn't want to talk about my friends, I really didn't want to even think about them, "Sesshomaru, can we not talk about them, please, I don't want to talk about my friends I just want to..." What did I want to do? I don't even know, why was he looking at me? I think he wants me to finish what I was going to say, well I wont I will leave him guessing and that would be that I wont talk, cause whatever I say he uses against me...he hasn't really yet but I know he will, and soon when I don't feel like complete shit, he will act like he always did and I could leave, and try to remain in his part of Japan, away from my friends, from Naraku, and Kikyo for a while, maybe a few years, and I can get stronger, and I can beat them...or I could just stop, like I wanted to. Why don't I, why don't I just take Sesshomaru's sword and let him kill me why didn't he kill me? Why didn't he...wait...that's right! Sesshomaru would have killed me, what stopped him? I looked up at him and I tried to stand, it took me a while but I finally did and I tried to stand over him, so I could look taller, so that I would have an upper hand. "Why didn't you kill me? Tell me, why didn't you when you could have? Tell me, now I demand it!" the world felt like it was moving to fast, it felt like the blood was leaving my head, I was feeling sick, I had to sit, but no! I cant, I have to look strong, I have to. "Tell me, now Sesshomaru!" I couldn't keep my balance, I think im swaying... I feel dizzy like when you drink to much wine or Sake... I felt myself fall words him and my chest landed on him legs, it hurt, when I hit into him, but the world stopped spinning and that was a relief to me.
Sesshomaru
He was standing up and he said "Why didn't you kill me? Tell me, why didn't you when you could have? Tell me, now I demand it!" the words he said weren't to much of a shock, I just had to think of how to answer it, his face was red, he looked sick, almost like the child he used to be. His body started to sway back and forth in a dangerous manner I thought he would fall, and I was bracing myself to catch him, "Tell me, now Sesshomaru!" he demanded that I tell him why he looked like it was one of the most important things for him, and then he feel but not to the side, but words me, and he landed on my legs, which were crossed. He didn't make a sound and I stayed quiet for him, and I started to pat his hair, I don't know what lead me into thinking of this but I started to and he said nothing he just laid there, I moved my hand to his head and he was warm, he had a fever, he did to much today just by leaving his room, and now he got worked up over something stupid, as in why I didn't kill him. "Little brother, " I said as I patted his head gently, he made no move to say he didn't want me to continue and I didn't mind to much either "I don't know why I didn't kill you, don't ask me such questions, I have no answer for them." He didn't move or make any sounds. I moved my hand to look into his eyes, and they were shut, his breathing was deep, and full...he had fallen asleep. I moved him gently so that I could lift him, and when he was in my arms, I carried him words his room, so that he could get some needed rest.
End of chapter 4
1 he already had put a hand in his stomach, member that episode?
(Looks shocked) Oh My God! I wrote almost 4 pages! I didn't know how to end it I was like "Must go on!" Well thanks for hanging in there and please RR thanks! Also I just want to say that I am very please with my work so far, and I don't know how long this fic will go on for, but I hope that I can get many more chapters in this story. Thanks to all my reviewers I love you guys without you I wouldn't still be writing this! Well I want to thank you all!
Short note: I listened to Yellow Card for this whole fic chapter and it really helps! I will do that more often.