Why?

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Sesshomaru

Only a few weeks have passed since Inuyasha and I have last talked. Things have gotten…tense…around both of us. I found out, that he loves me, and I love him

back…but as much as I want to tell my self its wrong, and that I shouldn't love him, the more right it seems, it feels like the best thing that could have happened to me,

and it feels right, very, very right. The thought of being away from Inuyasha is almost unthinkable, the thought of him not being a part of my life is hard to think about,

and the thought of him leaving here…it hurts me to even think about it. Then again, I am the one running away from Inuyasha, every time I see him in the halls I dogged

out of the way, or I pretend he isn't there, or I go into another room….and in the end, I am just afraid to confront him, to look at him…Inuyasha with his tan skin, and

dark gold eyes, and…and…No stop, I can't think of him like this, not now, because even though I want him so badly, and even though I love him so completely and

totally….I can't be with him…because even if I could get to be with him, we never would truly be together. He never tries to open up, and as much as I try I can't

open up either. So in the end it hurts, it makes me feel horrible, like the bad guy in this, because I know, that no matter how hard I try, I can't open up to him, I can't

open up at all…

Inuyasha

Again, I'm being ignored, but this time its okay, because Sesshomaru is doing it…but even in my head it sounds masochistic, I'm kinda happy that he isn't talking to

me, because now, more then ever before, I am afraid to talk to him, afraid to look at him. Every time I gain enough courage though, he runs away, disappears, or just

splits and I can't find him the rest of the day…it's annoying and hard, and it's not fair anymore. It never really was fair…to be honest, but I would just like it if he

would stop and talk to me, just calmly, in the quiet and unattached voice of his… but he wont even talk to me like that, if we do happen to be in the same room, I

can't talk to him, my voice won't come out. I love him so much, I realized I love him, more then anything in the world, and I can't take the fact that he won't listen to

me that he is ignoring me, and it hurts it really, really hurts…

(A couple weeks ago, when Inuyasha confessed his feelings member this is in his mind)

"'I-I love you!'" when I had said that I thought he would have killed me, or kicked me out of the house, but instead, he had grabbed my arm, and he pulled me in,

slowly towards himself. His head had lowered to face mine, and he said slowly, softly into my ear "I love you Inuyasha." And this time, when he kissed me, I felt…I

felt so happy, and so…wonderful, like nothing could ever happen again, like nothing had ever happen before this. I forgot how mean he had been to me when we

were children, and all I wanted was for that moment to stay there forever. But like always the things I want to happen don't happen, and they change so quickly, faster

then the blink of an eye, and he pulled away from me, he pushed me to the side…he left the room…and hasn't talked to me since.

(Back in the present)

The door knocked to my room, which is where I have been in all day, lying in bed. "Go away!" I barked. I put my head under the sheets and looked up at the clean

whiteness of the sheets, almost as white as snow, almost as white as his hair… "Inuyasha?" My brother's voice entered the room, "Get up, I have to talk to you." His

voice sounded distant again, but at the same time there was still a hint that he really was there to hear me and listen to me. I moved the sheets down a bit so that my

eyes could look at him, but not the rest of me, not my face, my hands, nothing. He sat down on the bed and looked at me, his eyes not saying anything, and right now

I can't even read his eyes. "I am sorry for avoiding you these past weeks." I sat up in bed and looked at him "Tell me why then! Why were you avoiding me, what

you said, were you lying, or do you really love me, tell me right now!" he moved his head, not looking at me, I grabbed his head and forced him to look at me, but

now his eyes were deceiving him, and telling me the truth, telling me what he couldn't say, and him wanting me to understand. "Inuyasha," his voice was low "my

Inuyasha" he moved my hands from his face, and put his around me, and held me into a hug, "My dear, dear Inuyasha, my lovely beautiful Inuyasha." His face nuzzled

into my hair, and I shut my eyes. "I love you, Inuyasha. My Inuyasha." He held me close, and I didn't push him away, I didn't move, I didn't really want to breath, it

was that moment again, even though it was different then the last time I still didn't want it to end I wanted him to hold me like this forever, and for a long, long time. He

moved his face from my hair and kissed my lips, at first it was just small soft kisses, and then slowly it grew into one passionate kiss, one long passionate kiss. I pulled

him closer to myself, and deepened the kiss. He pulled away slowly, and looked into my eyes, my eyes that were filled with the same passionate love, and need. "I

love you, I love you so much Sesshomaru…" I whispered, as I laid my head onto his shoulder, "Thank you, I love you so much." He held me to his body "I love you

too Inuyasha," he smiled, "more then you know."

Chapter End

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Hey look at that, I couldn't think of a better ending for the chapter then this…so here it is, I learned double space so now it looks more spaced, at least that's what it

looks like on my computer, I don't know about when it comes up on the Also my computer is fixed so I have internet, and I can update quicker now! It rocks! So

until next time (which I promise will be soon) I will continue to write this story for you, and thank you to my new readers, and to my reviewers, you all are really

patient with me! Thanks so much!