Disclaimer: I don't own the Dukes of Hazzard, not making any money, just cheap thrills.

Warnings: Slash, angst, established couple, incest, violence

Rating: FRAO

Summary: Sequel to Fever Confessions; Luke's brother Jud comes for a visit a few months after the boys get together. Luke wants to tell him about the changes in his relationship with Bo, but his cousin is opposed to the idea. What will Luke choose?

Choices

"Bo! Would you please just talk to me? ...I'm sorry okay, I shouldn't have decided without talking to you first. So come on cousin, let's talk about it, okay?" Luke nearly begged, finally cornering Bo in their room. How had this gotten so out of hand, Luke wondered. All he wanted to do was tell his brother about them, just wanted to share his happiness with the rest of his family. Why couldn't Bo understand that? Not only didn't Bo understand, he was dead set against the idea, had been from the moment Luke had brought it up.

"Talk? Thought you'd already decided Luke? Jud said he'll be here next week and you plan to tell him about us as soon as you can. Isn't that right, cousin? I guess what I want ain't important, you think just cause you're older you get to make all of the decisions, that it Luke?" Bo practically snarled the question before heading towards the door.

"Oh no you don't," Luke said, grabbing Bo by the arm and pulling him back into the room. "You wanted to talk, so we'll talk. I already said I was wrong and I'm sorry what more do you want Bo?"

Hearing the pain in Luke's voice, Bo was suddenly ashamed of the way he'd been acting. "I don't know Luke, I just...I'm sorry okay, I shouldn't have run off like that. Forgive me?" He asked, turning puppy dog eyes on his cousin and lover.

"Of course I forgive you Bo, I love you, I just wish you were as proud of loving me as I am of loving you."

"Luke?" Bo managed to squeak out from a suddenly dry throat. Swallowing thickly he brought one hand up to carress Luke's cheek, afraid he had hurt Luke more than he would be able to get past. "I'm not ashamed of us love, please believe me. It's not that I swear," he protested when he saw the doubt in Luke's eyes. "I'm afraid Luke...I don't want you to tell Jud about us because I don't want you to have to choose between us. Don't you see love, if you choose me then sooner or later you'd hate me for costing you you're little brother. A little brother you never thought you'd see again, how can I ask you to risk that, how can you be willing to risk that?"

"I'm willing to take that risk, because I love you Bo and if Jud can't accept that. ...Well then that will be his choice, not mine. Don't ya see darlin, even if I lose Jud because of us, I won't hate you for it, because it'll be his choice, not mine. He'll be the only one to blame, I promise you Bo I would never, hell I could never hate you. Look, Jud won't be here for a few days, would you at least think about telling him?" Luke asked, taking Bo into his arms, running his hands along Bo's back in an attempt to soothe him.

"Yeah, I'll think about it. Heck I don't know Luke, maybe you're right, maybe Jud would be okay with us. But could you do something for me? While I'm thinking about going along with telling Jud, could we put my old bed back in our room?" Seeing the look on his lover's face, Bo rushed to assure him that he wasn't arguing with him. "Don't look at me like that Luke, I'm gonna think about it, but just in case. Besides even if we decide to tell Jud about us, he's still gonna need someplace to sleep, ain't he?"

"You got me there, I guess it would make sense for him to sleep in here, since we just started painting the guest room. Alright, we'll put your old bed back in here, but you better be thinking about telling Jud, deal?" Luke said, agreeing to Bo's request.

"You're what? No way Luke Duke, you can't be gay, you're my brother, you like girls, I know you do. It's his fault isn't it? He did this to you, somehow he got you to agree to this. It's sick Luke, all of this, please Luke I don't want to lose my brother, but I can't be brother to a faggot," Jud yelled at Luke, furious that his big brother would do this to him.

"Jud it's not like that, I've loved Bo for years, it's not his fault. Please brother don't make me choose, I love you, but I love Bo too. Please don't force me to make that choice?" Luke begged, tears in his eyes and pain in his voice, as he came face to face with the choice Bo had warned him about.

"You have to choose Luke, me or him." Jud demanded.

Bo watched from the corner of the room, paralyzed by the fear that Luke would choose Jud over him. Equally afraid that Luke would choose him over Jud, he knew that either choice would destroy what they had in the end. He ached for Luke as Jud spit in his face, making his disgust and disapproval obvious. Turning sharply Jud ran out the door, slamming it behind him. Bo wanted nothing more than to go to his lover and wrap his arms around him, offering him comfort, but he couldn't move. He could only watch as Luke stood there, tears streaming down his face as his little brother drove away, out of his life forever.

"I hate you Bo! This is all your fault, I lost my brother because of you. Why did you have to tell me how you felt? Why couldn't you be happy with the way things were? Not you, no, all you could think about was your wants, your desires," Luke snarled, bringing his fist into contact with Bo's stomach one more time. "I hope you're happy Bo, cause now you've got me, forever lover," he sneered in hatred at the man he had once loved.

"Bo, wake up. Come on Bo, you're having a bad dream," Luke called to his lover, gently shaking his arm in an attempt to wake him. Finally after several tries, Bo opened his eyes and looked at Luke with confusion and fear plain to see. "Bo it's okay darlin, you're safe now. It was just a bad dream, you're okay," Luke assured him, hating to see the fear in those beautiful blue eyes. "Want to tell me about it?", he gently asked.

Bo shook his head and snuggled closer to Luke, unable to voice his fears to his cousin, knowing Luke would just insist that he didn't need to be afraid. He wanted to believe Luke was right, wanted that more than anything, but he just couldn't shake the fear that telling Jud was a mistake. A mistake that would cost them everything when all was said and done.

Three nights later, three nightmares later Luke had reached his limits. Whatever was bothering Bo, he'd have to tell him tonight, he wasn't spending another night watching his lover whimper in fear. Not another night of seeing that fear still in his eyes when he finally woke up. "Bo? You can't go on like this, you have to tell me what's wrong, please," Luke begged. Though truthfully he had a pretty good idea about what was causing Bo's nightmares, but he needed to be sure. Twenty minutes later, and Luke was very nearly ready to get on his knees, when Bo finally began to talk.

"I'm sorry Luke, I know you've been worried and I didn't mean to worry you. I just didn't want to upset you...you probably already figured it out; I've been dreaming about Jud. Different things happen when you tell him about us, sometimes he spits in your face and then storms out. Sometimes he hits you or me before he leaves, but he always leaves and it always ends the same way." Looking at Luke, Bo wasn't sure if he should tell him the ending of the nightmares, he knew that Luke wasn't going to like it.

"Tell me, please," Luke encouraged, brushing a kiss into Bo's hair.

Sighing in resignation, Bo went on, "They all end the same way, it's a while after Jud leaves your life and ...you keep saying you hate me and hitting me. You tell me that I ruined your life by telling you how I felt and that you hate me for it. But you keep staying with me, like you're punishing me for making you choose me over Jud."

"Oh Bo, you're really that afraid of telling Jud? Never mind that was a dumb question, it's pretty obvious just how scared you are of it. Okay we won't tell him, for now, but Bo we will have to tell him sooner or later, you know that don't you?" Luke gently questioned, holding his lover in his arms, wishing he could convince Bo that he didn't need to be afraid. Feeling Bo nodding his agreement as he rested his head on Luke's chest, Luke smiled sadly. "Alright then, we're agreed, we won't tell him this visit, but we will eventually. Think you can sleep now?"

"Yeah, I think so. I'm sorry Luke, I know you're disappointed, but thank you for understanding, I love you." Looking at the clock, Bo saw it was nearly 3 a.m., "Guess we better get some more sleep if we're gonna get up on time." Snuggling closer to Luke, needing to feel his lover's arms around him, Bo drifted into a peaceful sleep.

TBC