A/N: It's been a while since I decided to write a longer story, but I want to give it a try again. I plan to write small one-shots around each episode of Victorious in Jade and Beck's point of view. I hope you like it :)

Pilot: Jade

The moment Beck's lips touched Tori's Jade could feel a sharp pain running through her. It felt like someone had stabbed her in the heart with one of her beloved scissors. Sure, she hadn't been exactly nice to the new girl, but this was worse than what she had done. When she heard clapping from everyone her shocked expression vanished into a cold one. The last thing she wanted to do was give away how much the display on stage hurt her.

After Tori said that she loved this school and both actors sat down again, everyone waited for Jade to scream at them, but she wouldn't do them the favor. It was obvious that everyone was looking at her for a reaction, but she was not predictable and wouldn't do what was expected of her. Despite her outward appearances she couldn't deny that her heart hurt. She had never felt so betrayed by Beck before. He had willingly helped the new girl get her revenge on her and he knew how much she hated to see girls all over him.

For once it was a good thing that her and Beck sat apart, because right now she didn't want to be close to him. Jade was a great actress, so she managed to look mostly unaffected for the whole lesson. Her eyes were focused on the front were Sikowitz explained something about improvisation and she ignored Beck's eyes that were trying to search hers. However the minutes dragged on for her and she wished she could finally be free from the eyes watching her closely to see the moment she would snap.

Jade was never so relieved to hear the bell and gracefully stood up and left the room without looking back. Never before had she considered it a good thing that on Fridays she had only Sikowitz's class and lunch with Beck, but today she really appreciated it. Opening her locker she changed the books she had in her bag for the ones she needed for her next class. When she was about to closer her locker she felt his presence behind her. It was fascinating that they were so in tune with each other, but right now this fact hurt her even more.

"Jade I-"

"Don't talk to me." There was no way that she was letting him make up a lame excuse and hurt her even more with it. Her grip on the book that she was holding tightened and she refused to turn around and even do so much as look at him. "Leave. I don't want to see you right now." With that she shut her locker with a loud bang and without giving him a second glance went to her next class.

The next lessons were a blur to her and she couldn't wait to be alone for a moment. When it was finally time for lunch she went to the janitor's closet and shoved a big cupboard in front of the door, so no one would be able to enter. Sitting down on the floor with her favorite scissors she began cutting a trash can. For the first time since she had witnessed Beck and Tori kiss she felt like she could breath again. She tried to focus on her anger instead of the other heavy emotion in her heart, but she could still feel the pain of betrayal.

After she spent the whole lunch break cutting up the janitor's stuff her anger had lessened a little, but that didn't make the pain in her heart disappear. At least now she was sure that she could control her emotions for the rest of the school day. The only problem that she had now was that Beck had driven her to school like every morning, so her car was at home and she wouldn't willingly be anywhere near her boyfriend today. Normally she would have called her mom to pick her up, but her and her brother were out of town to visit their aunt and there was no way she would ask her father or his new girlfriend to come get her. Sighing she decided to take the bus, which she hated among so many other things.

When finally the bell signalize the end of school Jade rushed to the bus stop, the last thing she wanted was to see Beck and have him offer her a ride home. To her annoyance Sinjin was taking the bus as well and she felt too exhausted to scream at him to leave her alone.

Jade sighed relieved when she finally made it to her father's house. It had to be the first time that she was actually glad to be here instead of her home, because here she knew no one would care if she wanted to be alone. Her mom would have immediately seen if something was wrong with her while her father, if he was even at home, wouldn't care in the slightest. Normally when she had to spend her weekend at her father's house she was most of the time with Beck in his RV and even spent the nights there, but now that was out of the question.

Taking a deep breath she entered the huge house and to her relief she didn't see her father or his girlfriend. Just to be sure she didn't have to today she locked her door after she entered her room and turned her phone off, she didn't want to speak to anyone for the whole weekend. Since no one was around to watch her she finally let her emotions out the way she had done so often, she sat down and began to write on a new script. Most people might think that she would scream in rage and trash her whole room, but when she was really hurt she was quiet. For the rest of the day and deep into the night she wrote and after only three hours of sleep she continued on Saturday. It took into early Sunday morning until she was completely content with the outcome. She was a perfectionist when it came to her scripts, so she had rewritten it a few times before it was finally finished in her eyes.

With her mind at peace for now she fell asleep and woke up Sunday afternoon. However that was when what happened on Friday came crashing down on her with full force. It had been good to let her feelings out during writing, but that didn't change what Beck had done. Both of them were actors and of course had they talked about stage kisses at the beginning of their relationship. Despite being jealous whenever Beck was surround by girls Jade was okay with Beck kissing other girls on stage. They both loved acting and Jade would never be against Beck doing what they both loved to do, even if it involved him being close to another girl. What made the difference in this situation was that the kiss was not scripted. It was improvisation class, Beck could chose what to do. In other words the kiss wasn't necessary, he willingly chose to kiss her, knowing that the new girl only wanted to get revenge on her for pouring coffee over her the other day. That was why it hurt so much and why she felt betrayed by him.

It was only after that realization that she felt a tear slip down her face. At first she wanted to be angry at herself for crying over this, but then she realized with no one witnessing her being weak it was okay to be sad. Another tear made its way down her cheek and then another, until she couldn't keep them in any more. How did Beck want to fix this?

Pilot: Beck

The moment Beck pulled away from his kiss with Tori he felt guilty. A moment ago it had seemed like a good idea to kiss the new girl to show Jade that being mean would only backfire, but now he wasn't so sure. From the corner of his eyes he caught his girlfriend's reaction and the guilty intensified. To everyone else she might look only angry, but he saw the hurt in her eyes. When they sat back down her expression was a cold mask and she refused to look at him. That was when he realized that he had really hurt her. During the lesson he tried to make eye contact with her but she refused to even look in his direction.

When the bell rang he was ready to turn around and talk to her, but she was already gone. He finally caught up to her by her locker and opened his mouth to apologize, but after he got two words out she interrupted him. Her voice was calm and cold, which was an unmistakable sign for him that she was hurt. It was the same voice she had once told him in that her parents were getting a divorce and that her father hated creative people including her. Only him and Cat knew that when Jade was really hurt she wasn't her unusual expressive self, but quiet. She refused to show weakness and being the great actress she was, she put up a cold front. Never had he wanted that she needed to act this way around him. He had always told her that she could be herself around him and that he wouldn't judge her for showing weakness and he had meant every word he had said. That Jade was now closing up only showed him how much the stage kiss between him and Tori had pained her. He really needed to talk to her.

Today they didn't have any more lessons together, so his only chance was during lunch. He waited at their table with a coffee for her, but she never showed up. That worried him even more because his girlfriend would never willingly go without her coffee for lunch. He knew where she would be, because often enough they had spent their lunch break together in the janitor's closet just enjoying a little time alone, but she had made it clear that she didn't want to see him. Sighing he went over to the table where his friends already sat and hoped that after school she would at least let him drive her home.

He had no such luck, when he caught sight of her entering the bus. He knew how much she hated riding the bus, so for her to prefer it over him said a lot. Nervously he ran a hand through his hair and entered his own car. It wouldn't make any sense to drive to her father's house, he was sure she wouldn't open the door no matter how long he would ring the doorbell. When he was finally home he lay down on his couch thinking about everything that had happened. Today had turned out to be a really bad day, he had hurt the one he loved most, only to show her that revenge wasn't a solution by helping the new girl with her revenge. He was a hypocrite and he cursed himself for not thinking more about it before kissing Tori.

The whole weekend he tried to call her and he sent hundred texts but she must have turned her phone off. His mistake had cost him a weekend with his girlfriend, because normally when she had to stay at her father's house she spent most of her time with him here in his RV. It felt lonely without her and even though it were only two days he missed her and the guilty he felt slowly ate him. They were already together for almost two years and never had he done something to hurt her until this Friday and he cursed himself for it. He had to fix this.

Monday morning when he entered school he saw her stand by her locker. Nervously he approached her.

"Good morning."

"What do you want?" Her voice was harsh and demanding, but that was better than the cold tone she had used on Friday.

"I tried calling you."

"I turned my phone off because I worked on a new script."

That was another sign for Beck that she was hurt. He knew she always let her emotions out through her art, whether it was writing a script or a song. Beating around the bush wasn't what would help him with Jade, so he tried the direct approach.

"We need to talk. I'm sorry, it was only a stage kiss and it didn't mean anything-"

"I'm okay with stage kisses, you know that, but I'm not okay if you're kissing another girl willingly."

"It was only acting-" Once again she didn't let him finish and finally turned around and for the first time since Friday their eyes met.

"It was improve class Beck, it was up to you what to say or do. The kiss was not scripted, so you decided to kiss her, you decided to take part in her revenge and you decided to hurt me. It was all you."

The worst thing for Beck about her words was that everything she had said was true. It was him who had done all that to her and it was his fault. He could have denied Tori and prevented his girlfriend from getting hurt, but he hadn't.

"You're right. All I can say is that I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you and I never will again, I promise." Seeing that her defensive demeanor lessened a little he took a hold of her hands. "Please believe me."

"Prove it to me and then I believe you."

Beck knew he wasn't forgiven yet, but that she let him hold her hand during the whole day and let him drive her home was a good beginning.

A/N: Please let me know if you would like to read more of this. Review and tell me what you think :)