I know that I have been busy with the holidays and with my personal life. I just hope that you like this one. I am sorry for the long waiting.
Toad1: I know that is how it would be just you must remember, Sesshomaru is taking him under his wing. Treating him more like he would as his son and not his brother-in-law.
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Kagome was at the dinner table in the great hall when the boys came in. Sango, and Kikyou were getting the trays of food while Aiayme was trying not to eat the food. Sheila and Akoro were already sitting down at the table discussing some things about their families blood lines and Sota and Rin were discussing other things that Sesshomaru could not hear. Nor did he really care at this time because of the look on Kagome's face was just utterly disheartening to him. Sesshomaru went to her side and put her into his lap and stroked her hair while she placed her head on his chest.
"Kagome, are you ok?" Sesshomaru asked.
"Yeah, I just miss her." She said softly.
"We will have another child you know that right?"
"I just could not believe that we were expecting and I could not sense it!"
"Kagome you have been through a lot lately. I am sure that the stress is another thing that is pressing on you."
"Yeah I guess so. Now I guess the only thing that we have to finish is the curtains and the wedding plans."
"Just take it easy."
"Sesshomaru?"
"Yes Kagome."
"Do you hate me for this? For all that I have done?"
"I could never hate you. Now, it is time that you change your materials. The blood is starting to cease but it is still fresh blood and you don't want infection."
Kagome turns and looks at him. He smiles and rubs his nose against hers. She gets up and leaves the room quickly and when she returns she finds her mother and Akoro laughing up a storm. She sits down and just watches them. Kagome could not remember the last time she saw her mother so animated since father died. Kagome nudged Sango who was sitting next to her and pointed at mother. Sango laughed and then she was caught.
"Sango dear, what are you laughing at?" Sheila asked.
"I was just noticing that the both of you are getting along rather well." Sango said.
Sheila's face blushed as she looked around the table and everyone was staring at them except for Sota and Rin.
"I guess that we have been a little loud, my apologies Sesshomaru." Sheila said.
Sesshomaru waved an elegant hand at her, "Do not worry. This palace has not had such wonderful banter and excitement in some time. I find it welcoming."
Akoro got up and started walking towards the door.
"Where are you going Akoro?" InuYasha asked.
"I thought that I would take the meal with the servants since that is what I am."
"Keh! You are not."
Akoro looked at Sesshomaru and Sesshomaru moved his hand in front of the seat that he was before. Akoro nodded and sat back down next to Sheila. Sheila smiled and they continued to talk of Kagome and Sota. Sota looked up when he heard his name said and looked at his mother.
"Ah mom! What are you telling him now about me?" Sota whined.
"Will you stop whining!" InuYasha said.
"It sounds like you but a deeper voice InuYasha." Miroku said.
"Shut up monk!"
"Yeah that sounds like dog boy alright." Kouga said.
"Kouga you are so lucky that you are expecting a pup or I would kill you!" InuYasha said.
Kikyou rolled her eyes and then slapped her hand over his mouth. "I do apologize for his ignorance." Kikyou said to everyone. InuYasha tried to say something and she placed her other hand behind his head and made him shut up. Sheila watched and laughed as it looked like something that Kagome would do.
"Sota I was just telling him about the first time that you started talking and walking. The things that little children do when they are first learning." Sheila said to him.
"Whew! I thought that it was going to be something embarrassing." Sota said relaxing.
"No, that was earlier." She said laughing behind her hand.
"Mother!" Sota said loudly.
Kagome laughed and was happy that her family could be here to help her and that her mother was here during the toughest time of her life right now. Kagome looked out the window towards the gardens.
My baby. My little girl. I miss you already and yet you are only gone from me but a day now. I know that you are being faired well with Lord Tachido and the women but I still miss you.
"Kagome, it is time for bed." Sesshomaru said to her.
She sighed and looked at him. "Alright Sesshomaru. Let's go to bed." She looked around and saw that they were the only ones in the dining hall. "Where did everyone go?" She asked.
"They left about 20 minutes ago. You were thinking so much that we all decided that if we wanted to get things done correctly, that we better get an early start."
She looked at him, "I guess that I did not think that I was that deep in thought for that long of a time."
"Kagome, you even ate without saying a thing. It was kind of odd."
"Wow. Ha ha. I guess that it has been a very long day for me."
"Kagome, it has been a long day for all of us. Now come, let's go get some rest." Sesshomaru said taking her hand and helping her up. They walked out of the dining hall and into their room where Sesshomaru helped her undress and then go to the bed. Kagome looked at the bed and started crying. Sesshomaru looked at her and then the bed and embraced her tightly.
"Kagome I am sorry. I had the bed changed totally. I knew that it was going to be hard on you considering that is where you gave birth and where I brought you back."
Kagome held him tighter around the waist, "Sesshomaru, I just cannot believe that you are still here with me after all of this."
"Kagome, heaven and hell could not get me to leave you." Sesshomaru said bringing her head up and kissing her lightly on the lips. He held her tightly with his tail while he got undressed and then redressed in his night pants. When he was finished he took her into his arms and carried her to the bed and laid her down, gently putting the covers over her. He went around the bed and got in and then cuddled up next to her. He rubbed his nose on her cheek and then gave her a soft kiss. She looked at him and smiled and then kissed him back. She closed her eyes as she tried to cuddle closer to him, hiding her face in his chest and let him wrap himself around her to shield her from anything that might happen next.
They slept that way for the rest of the night and Kagome did not dream of anything. Her mind was a total blanket of blackness with no light shining through. Kagome woke up feeling the coldness hitting her skin and she looked around. The whole room was nothing but ice. She turned to her side and she found that Sesshomaru as well was covered in ice.
"What the hell is going on here?" Kagome asked herself. She got out of bed and tried getting out of the door but it would not budge at all. She turned back to the bed and she saw nothing but a large red mark in the middle of the bed. Her eyes got big and she started crying.
"NOOOOOOOO!" She screamed as she tried running to the bed thinking that her baby was still in the blood but she knew that she was not there anymore. She knew that she was in the tomb in the gardens with Sesshomaru and InuYasha's family.
Sesshomaru watched her as she moved about the room without waking. He did not move to her when she started to scream either, he did not know what to do at all but he did know what she was dreaming about. The baby was still ever so fresh in her mind that he had to find some way to wake her peacefully. He got out of the bed and went to her and wrapped his arms and tail around her tightly. She struggled against him telling him that she had to get her baby. She had to save her baby from dying. Sesshomaru broke down then, he knew that he was holding all of his feelings inside and now he just had to let them out. He openly wept against her, his tears falling against her hair and the shutters of his sobs bumping into her body. He did not notice that from these actions she woke up to his sobbing. She wrapped her arms and tail around him and they wept together standing next to the door.
She stroked his back and he pulled away from her and looked down at her tear stained face. A single tear fell on her cheek and he brushed it away.
"Sesshomaru, I am sorry that this happened." Kagome said to him.
"Kagome, how many times do I have to tell you that it is not your fault. That there was something wrong with her and now she feels no pain just love."
"Why are we standing next to the door? And why are you crying?" Kagome asked him.
"You were sleep walking and I came to wake you slowly. But hearing you and seeing your pain and remembering all that has happened with the baby, I kinda broke down finally. The emotions of the event have overwhelmed me to the point of breaking."
Kagome put her hand on the side of his face and stroked his cheek with one of her fingers. "I had not known that you felt so strongly on what had happened."
"Kagome there are still some things that you don't know about me that you are going to learn during the time that we are together. No matter the outward strength of a demon, the loss of that demon's own kit is one thing that no one can bear and still show a strong side all the time."
"I guess that you are right on that one. Come let's get some more sleep. The sun has not risen yet and I don't think that it will for some time."
"Are you sure that you can rest easy?"
"I will try. Just don't leave me. I don't want to be alone."
Sesshomaru hugged her tighter this time. "I will never leave you. I love you."
Kagome led Sesshomaru to their bed and then she fell asleep again. Sesshomaru laid there and watched her sleep. He was happy that she was able to drop off again without hesitation and that she was not scared when she found him crying against her.
She must truly love me a lot to be able to stay with me through all of this. The strength in this woman is truly amazing.
Sesshomaru closed his eyes as he wrapped his arms tighter around her and fell asleep once again. The next thing that he knew, there was a shouting match going on just outside his door between InuYasha, Miroku and Kouga. Sesshomaru looked to his side, and Kagome was still sleeping. He got up slowly, put on his robe and quickly opened and closed his door. All 3 of them stopped shouting when they saw him. His hair was mussed up and his robe was not closed yet.
"Well, you look like shit Sesshomaru." InuYasha blurted out.
Sesshomaru looked at him and opened his fist that was at his side and slammed it against InuYasha's forehead. InuYasha fell down to the floor. Kouga started laughing hysterically and Miroku put his hand over his mouth to stifle the laughter.
Sesshomaru looked at Kouga and did the same thing to him. Knocking him to the floor. Miroku was the only smart one of the three and walked away slightly out of his reach.
"Do you realize that Kagome is still not very happy of the current situations and she IS TRYING TO SLEEP!" Sesshomaru said to them.
"Well you didn't have to fucking hit me Sesshomaru!" Kouga shouted.
Sesshomaru put his foot in his mouth and growled.
"Listen to me and listen to me good. All of you. You disturb her in any way today and I will personally make sure that the torture chambers are opened once again." Sesshomaru warned as he took his foot out of Kouga's mouth. He turned around and went into his room once again and found Kagome sitting up in bed crying.
"You left me and I could not find you. Then I heard shouting." Kagome said in between small sobs.
Sesshomaru went to her and held her close to him. He brushed her hair out of her face and tried calming her the best that he knew how.
"I am sorry but you know my brother, Kouga and Miroku can get. They were making much more noise than I cared to have in front of our door." Sesshomaru said.
"Is everything ok?" Kagome asked.
"Yes, everything is fine now. Would you like to bathe now?"
"Yes, I think that soaking in the hot spring is a good idea." Kagome said smiling.
She got up and started to get her things together as Sesshomaru watched her.
An honest smile. Something that I have not seen in some time. I think that she might be starting to heal. Sesshomaru thought as he started to get his things together as well.
Kagome went into the bathroom and then went through the door to the hot spring that was connected to their rooms. She undressed slowly and looked at herself in the mirror.
I love him and I love the person that I am now. There is nothing that can change that. Nothing at all. I will live through this and make my life what I want it to be.
She thought this as she stood there. She smiled in the mirror at herself and then got into the hot spring. The warm water stinging her legs at first and then sitting down in the water, letting it relax her. The stress melting off of her body and letting it run through the water. She bent backwards and wet her hair as Sesshomaru came in. He watched her and then smiled.
She is not going to let this beat her. She is going to move on.
Sesshomaru got into the water and wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his chin on her shoulder. She put her hand on his head and leaned her head on his.
"Sesshomaru, we are going to get through this. I know that we are. I have this powerful feeling that things are going to be getting better."
"I know Kagome. You are healing well from your ordeal and your pain is lessening. I noticed that just moments ago when you smiled at me. Your eyes had returned that sparkle that was in them just days ago."
Kagome turned around to him and looked into his golden eyes. They were softer now that he had shown his true feelings to her. They weren't as cold and rigid as they were before when she first met him with InuYasha all those years ago. She kissed his lips softly, moving her mouth to his cheek and down his neck.
"Sesshomaru I don't want to wait for another baby. I want one now."
Sesshomaru looked down at her, into her eyes, he could see that she was telling the truth to him and that she loved him no matter what. Her brown eyes could not hide anything right now. It was like her eyes were the window to her soul and she was showing it all to him at this very moment.
"Kagome, I would do anything for you."
"I will be healed in 3 days time. We wed next week. I will be at the beginning of my cycle. It will be the right time then."
"Kagome, I love you."
"I love you too Sesshomaru."
Sesshomaru took her into his arms and hugged her tightly. Closing his eyes and burying his face into her beautiful white hair. He noticed that since the death of their child, there was a pink stripe running down her hair from her temple. The stress of the birth and then losing the baby must have caused it.
He grabbed the lock of hair that was all pink, "Kagome, did you notice this?"
"I created it with my powers after the funeral. In honor of her."
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For not forgetting her."
"I could never forget our first child Sesshomaru. Even though she is with your parents and InuYasha's mother right now, she is ours and always will be."
"Shall we finish up here and start our day?"
"Yes, I guess that we should. I know that Sango is worried and I have the suspicion that I was not the only one pregnant."
"Who do you think?"
"Sango."
"Her scent has changed to a light rose tinge now. I could see that."
"Well you know that now that Miroku has her all the time, that he can not get enough of her."
"Well, she does still slap him a lot though."
"She only does that because he has learned to love it."
"Oh."
Kagome chuckled and splashed him with water. He raised an eyebrow at her, which made her laugh some more. They played in the water for a little more and then started to wash. About an hour later they came out of the bedchambers and went to the sewing room. Kagome could hear al the chatter about her wondering if she is ok.
She turned to Sesshomaru, "I will be ok."
"Are you sure?"
"Sesshomaru, I can handle these women."
"Alright. I will be in my study working on things if you need me."
"Alright."
She kissed his nose and then opened the door and went through. Sesshomaru stayed by the door and all he could hear was women going nuts about her coming out of the bedchambers so early. Sesshomaru smiled and then went to his study. When he got there he noticed that Sota was sitting on the pillow in front of his desk writing some things down.
"Good morning Sota."
Sota got up quickly and bowed to Sesshomaru.
Sesshomaru waved his hand at him, "What are you doing? I think that we are passed that."
"Sesshomaru I am sorry for using your study for my own purposes."
"That is ok. I have no problems with it. How are the works on you and your mothers house going?"
"They are going well. I would like to extend a thanks of gratitude for that by the way. You really did not have to do that."
"You know that you are going to be part of the Tachido family now Sota. Through the joining of you and Rin later on, will seal the fate of the two families."
"You know that we are changing the future from which my family comes from."
"There is not much that we are changing Sota. We are just changing the demon part that comes from your mother. Your father still will become your father later on in life. But you are going to be part of your own family. As will I and Kagome."
"Mother has been talking of getting to know Akoro more."
"And what do you think about that Sota?"
"I like Akoro. He is very nice and very animated."
Sesshomaru went and poured himself and Sota a cup of tea and handed it to him. He sat down behind his desk and took a sip.
"Sota, have you formally asked Rin as of yet?"
"No. I have read a lot about the feudal era when I was back in my time on the computer and there is to be formal gathering with you and Kagome after the wedding and my mother is to be present to offer her opinion of the joining."
"That is correct. Although Sota, things are going to be different than you may seem to think."
"What do you mean?"
"I am not including Rin in the blood ceremony anymore. I cannot put her or you in the risk when she loses control of her new found powers."
"So you are going to let me make her into a hanyou when I wed her?"
"Yes, it is for the best. My poison has affected Kagome so much that I hate to put that burden upon Rin."
"What do you mean affected Kagome?"
"She has gone through so much training just to get her miko powers under control and will have to endure more to get her poison under control as well."
"Are you telling me that right now, if Kagome lost control, she could kill all of us?"
"Yes."
Sota looked down at the papers that lie before him on the floor. Sesshomaru watched as Sota went deep into thought. He finally looked up at Sesshomaru and smiled.
"As you wish Sesshomaru."
Back in the sewing room, all the ladies were going nuts at how radiant Kagome looked.
After some time of talking they all got back to work on the curtains. They had all the ones done for the workers houses and now were working on the ones for Sota and mother's house.
"So Sango, when were you going to tell us that you are pregnant?" Kagome blurted out.
Sango's face went red as she looked at Kagome. "How did you know?"
"Sango, your scent has changed. Have you forgotten that we are all demons except for Rin?" Kikyou asked.
"I guess that I had forgotten that part." Sango said smiling.
"How long have you known Sango?" Sheila asked.
"I have known for about 2 days now." Sango replied.
"Well, all I have to say is, it is about time!" Rin said not looking up from the sewing machine.
Kagome laughed and nodded her head. "Yes I have to agree with Rin on that one."
"Kikyou, when do you think that you and InuYasha are going to be expecting?" Sheila asked.
"Mother!"
"Well, you know that I am basically all of your mothers and I would like some more grandchildren! One is just not enough for me." Sheila said.
"I am hoping that it will be soon. I know that InuYasha is kind of freaked on what happened with Kagome but after talking it over with Sota, he is much better about it." Kikyou said.
Kagome looked at Kikyou. "Are you serious? He was still worried about me?"
"Didn't Sesshomaru tell you this morning? That is what him, Miroku and Kouga were arguing about in front of your bedchambers. He wanted to check up on you and Miroku and Kouga told him that it was not a good idea since we all knew that Sesshomaru was not going to leave your side."
Kagome looked down at the material that was in her hands. "I am sorry Kikyou that he still holds such feelings for me."
Kikyou got up and walked over to Kagome and embraced her. "Kagome, I told him to go and check up on you. I was the one more worried than he was."
"I had Miroku grab Kouga in case there was something that was going to happen when Sesshomaru was there." Sango said.
Kagome looked around the room at everyone and started crying. "I had no idea that you guys were that worried about me."
Sheila went over and embraced her daughter tightly. "Losing a child is hard to bear alone but at least you had Sesshomaru with you. Kagome, I was more worried than anyone when you were dead and then he brought you back with his sword. Kagome, I could not bear to lose you. The love for your child hit you hard and with losing her in the same moment as giving birth to her, is something that no one should have to endure. You are healing well and quickly which is something that I expect out of you. Kagome, you have no idea how strong you really are."
"Thanks mom."
"Ok. Now this is what I have for you." Aiayme said as she walked through the door.
Kagome looked up and saw that Aiayme has finally started to show. Her little round belly was apparent in her new kimono that she was wearing.
"What do you have for me Aiayme?" Kagome asked.
"This." Aiayme took a white kimono out from behind her back. But it was not like a kimono in the least. It was a white wedding dress with the top of the dress like a kimono.
Kagome went and looked at it with tears showing in her eyes. The white silk of the dress was embroidered with sakura flowers in white silk thread all over it. The top of the dress was wrap around style with a pink sash that matched her hair color. The back of the dress has small buttons going down from the neck to the middle of the back.
"I still have to fit it to you but your mother told me and showed me dresses from your time and I adapted our traditional kimono's to that. And this is what I came up with." Aiayme said proudly.
"And this is what we made." Sango said as Kikyou came out with a white cloak with a fur lining all around the edges. The same white silk with the white silk sakura flowers all over it.
"And this is what we made." Sheila said as Rin came out with a beautiful white purse to match.
"Oh my god you guys. I cannot believe this! It is so beautiful that I cannot express it in words!" Kagome said.
Sango came up to her with Kikyou by her side holding the cloak.
"I had this made just for you." Kikyou said as she pointed to the clasp on the cloak. It was a pink sakura flower clasp made of the finest metal.
"Oh Kikyou, this is so beautiful." Kagome said rubbing her fingers across the clasp.
"Kagome, you helped me become human and then gave up your first love to me. That is something that I will always be in debt for you."
"Kikyou, it was for the best and I knew that you two would be much happier together."
"Kagome, you truly are a nice person."
Kagome went and hugged Kikyou. "Thank you Kikyou."
Miroku peeked his head in the room.
"Ladies, I was just letting you know that lunch is ready and if I could borrow Sango for a time during lunch?"
Kagome looked at Miroku and smiled, "Yes you can borrow her for the lunch and some time afterwards if you like. We are done with the curtains. I was just going to have them hanged and then we are done with that."
Miroku looks at Sango and smiles, "Ok. You ready Sango?"
Sango looks at him and raises one of her raven eyebrows at him. "What are you up to?"
Miroku stands up tall. "I am not up to anything. I would just like to have a nice and quiet lunch with you."
Sango smiles and starts to walk towards him. "Alright. Let's go hon."