Drift's P.O.V.
The past five days have been mostly the same. Crosshairs and I got Jamie to want to watch T.V. in the lounge room with Lily and the terror twins twice. Even with that, her mental state is still scrap. I can't decide if I'm happy that she doesn't mind if I see her nude in the tub or not. I have found baths help her relax, but it's not good that I am taking care of her in that regard. Crosshairs brings up putting in a G-tube as I sit on the bed, holding Jamie as she sleeps, but Jamie would likely pull it out. It's hard to get her to eat enough. We're lucky she has lost no weight. Crosshairs doesn't know that my mediation turns into visualizing Jamie dead. I'm terrified I'll start having that nightmare again and more frequently. I don't think Jamie could ever argue with me, but I wonder if she's angry at me. I don't think Rung can help me. For now, we hope Jamie will want to go to the beach with our friends tomorrow.

Then there's how Jamie still doesn't want to bother with our friends. Knockout has come by with Optimus though he was told Jamie would be asleep.
"What happened?" He asks us.
I'm amazed he waited this long.
"You know the scrap she deals with," Crosshairs tells him, "it's been scrap."
Knockout looks at Jamie, and sighs, "fine. I hope she'll do better soon."
He leaves the room, closing the door behind him.
"I'm not telling him," I explain to Optimus.
"That is wise," Optimus says as he takes Jamie from me and sits on the bed. It's been his routine for the past few days. He'd stay for a few minutes before leaving. I worry he's thinking we can't help Jamie and we could lose her any day now. I hate making excuses, but I need to leave for a while.

Optimus Prime's P.O.V.
Drift leaving is a little strange, considering how worried he is about Jamie. Crosshairs' worried expression makes this concerning.
He takes Jamie from me, and we leave the room.

"Scrap," Crosshairs worries.
We stepped out into the hallway before seeing Drift on the floor.
He was silently panicking, but why? Even though he's been worrying about Jamie, this feels sudden.
Knockout rushes over to help me.

We carry Drift into our room and onto his bed. Knockout checks to make sure Drift shouldn't be taken to the medbay.
"Let me take her," I hear Lightning.
"Stay here, Lightning," I instruct.
"He's ok... well I mean no injuries," Knockout sighs, "and I suspect that the reason he passed out is a secret. I'll leave now."
I'm sorry, Knockout, please don't think we're not telling you anything because you're a former Decepticon.
Crosshairs and Lightning sit on Crosshairs' bed. We do need to track how long Drift takes to wake up.
"Jamie," Drift weakly says before opening his eyes.
"She's ok. Are you ok?" I ask.
"She's not ok. She's depressed and wants to be dead. She's angry at me."
"No Drift, she's more frustrated," Crosshairs argues, "that she can't have what she wants."
Lightning lays Jamie close to Drift. He hugs her with tears rolling down his face, trying not to wake Jamie up.
I cover Drift and Jamie with a blanket and have Crosshairs and Lightning leave the room with me.

"It's strange seeing him like that," Lightning sighs.
"I don't think we'll ever get used to that. I still can't get used to how much he worries about Jamie," Crosshairs adds.
"We've never seen him love anybot before," I remind them.
It's possible Rangeblade was his only love, but he might have thought she was killed in the war before I found him and had Ratchet repair him. I believe it's different since Jamie is human and has mental health issues.
I let the two decide when to check on their friends, but I need to tell Rung what happened.

"I'm not sure if I can help him," Rung sighs, "he will not be ok until Jamie is doing better, which from what you're telling me; it'll be a challenge to get her to be happy," Rung tells me, "even if we're trying to get her to be happy like she was before she went home in February rather than no longer dealing with depression. Would be great if she's not dealing with depression, but that's complicated."
I knew this would be his answer. We can only hope that Drift will choose to talk to Rung, and Crosshairs will also choose to talk to Rung. He needs to stop hiding how he's feeling. I think I'll have a better chance of getting Lightning to talk to Rung. Even Rung agrees it is wise for the three to talk to him even if he's not much help. I should have known this would turn into Rung having me talk to him. I feel a little better even though it's a one-sided conversation.

Drift's P.O.V.
I feel tired but can't sleep. I have Jamie's head on my chest. I don't know what I'm going to do. I thought I lost Rangeblade, now I'm terrified I'll lose Jamie.
Drift: I... I'm sorry.
Rangeblade: I don't know why you're apologizing now, but it's ok. We were separated for centuries. I'm just glad we didn't cross paths, and you didn't have to fight me. I can't be mad seeing you happy with Jamie.
Because I wasn't thinking we needed to talk until now, four years later. So much happened that I didn't think about this sooner. The two femmes have spent little time together because of the scrap dealt with over the past four years even if it wasn't Decepticons.
Rangeblade: I know Jamie is complicated. Lightning has told me how you and Crosshairs haven't let her go with you two to Jamie's dimension and Jamie's mental health. Jamie needs you. I can't be mad you moved on when you thought I was dead and I can't break you and Jamie apart. I only hope to build a friendship with her when she's doing better. I know you and Crosshairs have a lot to work on.

Drift: thank you.
Rangeblade: :)
If only all the things Crosshairs and I need to work on with Jamie would be this easy to deal with. Without the fear of losing the one I love.