Disclaimer: Don't own any of these guys and don't make any money off this. It's just something to keep me from pulling my hair out from sheer boredom.

Chapter 10

Sanzo came to the door of his and Goku's room and reached for the doorknob. He hesitated for a few minutes while he thought of what he was going to say. How do I feel about this? Goku is so young but he seems to think he knows his mind. The problem is that I am not sure about myself. Do I want the strings that will become attached if we start something? Damn, I wish I knew what to do. Guess I better get this over with and just bite the bullet and go in. With that he opened the door and entered the room.

Goku was lying on the bed face down with his head on his arms. Sanzo took a deep breath and started. "Goku, we need to talk about this."

At that Goku sat up and said, "Yes, I think it is time because I've been having these feelings for so long, I can't stand it any longer, Sanzo, I love you even if you don't return my feelings, and I am not asking you to."

"Goku, you're so young and I don't want to take advantage of your innocents."

"You think I don't know my own mind?"

"How can you know what you're asking? It is a lot of work to have a relationship. There is a lot of responsibility to it, too. I don't know if I can live up to what you expect."

"I don't expect anything from you Sanzo but that you love me, plain and simple. It's that easy. Don't make it so hard. Love is easy, you just care about someone more than you do yourself."

"I am kind of a selfish person, Goku, I don't know if I can give that much."

"No shit. You think I don't know you? I, probably, know you better than you know yourself. That's why I know you can do this. You are not the selfish person you think you are. You are very giving, but you don't recognize it."

Sanzo couldn't take it any longer and closed the distance between him and Goku and pulled the youth into his arms and hugged him with all the love he had in him. "If you think I can do this, then I guess I can try it. I really do love you Goku, and I'm hoping that it will be enough." He pulled Goku away from him and looked into his eyes and smiled. Goku didn't know what to do now because this was the first smile he had seen on Sanzo's face in a long time.

"Sanzo, you are my sun. You are why I live. My existence means nothing without you."

"I am beginning to realize that now Goku, and I hope I will always be able to return that love." With that he bent down and kissed Goku on the lips in a very loving way. Soon the feelings changed and he felt the heat start to blossom in his body. Sanzo began to heat up the kiss and asked for entrance into Goku's mouth with his tongue. Goku gave into the kiss and the dance of love began.

Sanzo lay down on the bed, following with Goku still in his arms. He looked into Goku's eyes and saw all the love that was there and was shaken to his very core. He had never seen this much love in his whole life and it directed toward him, and it was very new to Sanzo. "Goku you are a remarkable person. We can't take this very far tonight, because I refuse to rush you. We will take our time so we don't make any mistakes. I don't want to end up with you hating me."

"I could never hate you Sanzo."

"That is what you think now; I know relationships are not as easy as you think they are. There are a lot of things to consider and I am not prepared to make love to you tonight."

Not being able to hide his disappointment Goku let the tears that were in his heart come to the surface and slip from his eyes. Sanzo raised his hand and brushed the tears away from Goku's cheeks very gently. "See you are in an emotional state and the only thing we have done is kiss."

"You think we could kiss some more? I really like the way your lips feel on mine, they are so soft and warm like a fresh meat bun."

Sanzo laughed and bent and gave Goku a little peck on the lips. "You are unbelievable, you silly monkey."

"I thought you wouldn't call me a monkey if we loved each other," Goku said deflated.

"You're always going to be my little monkey, baka, no matter how long we are together."

"I hope we are together forever Sanzo because I love you so much it feels like my heart is going to bust."

'What is wrong with me? I can't help but smile. I have smiled more in the last hour than I have all my life. Can I keep this up, or will it burn me to a crisp, or make me lose my mind? Goku's "Sun" may burn him, and I can't let that happen. I have taken the first steps into this, so guess I have to continue and see where we end up. But I don't want to lose my monkey, ever.'

Sanzo took his hand and ran it through the hair of his one time ward, and now future lover. Lover… He pondered the word and realized that this was what they were going to be...lovers.

"Goku, you are so beautiful and so trusting. I can't bare to think of hurting you."

"I'm not glass, Sanzo, I am flesh and blood just like you and I love you with all my heart."

"Good, because it is going to take all you have to get through this because I am not an easy man to love. I have a lot of baggage and I don't share easily."

"We can make it, I know we can. We all have things from our past that interferes with the present, but we can push past that. We will take it slow, and be sure we make each other happy," he reached up and took Sanzo's mouth in his and tasted the sake, the cigarettes, and Sanzo's own unique taste. It was a heady brew and he thought he might pass out from the sheer joy of it.

"I am not really believing what is happening here, Goku. But there is one other thing we have to discuss."

"What's that Sanzo?"

"Are we going to have dinner tonight?"

Goku looked shocked and straight into Sanzo's eyes, "I …I've…..forgotten to eat!"

Sanzo began to laugh as hard as he could. He laughed so hard he had tears in his eyes. "You, baka, I never thought you would ever find anything to take your mind off food."

"Now, you really know where you stand," replied Goku. "I'll race you to the table." He jumped over Sanzo and ran for the door then stopped dead still turned around and walk over to Sanzo and kissed him lightly on the mouth. "Let's go get dinner." Then he gave him a real big smile.

Sanzo smiled back and stood up and started for the door but was almost run down by the flying monkey express.

'What am I getting myself into?'

When he reached the bottom stair he saw Goku talking to the waitress and ordering what seemed to be one of each of everything on the menu. Gojyo and Hakkai were lounging at the table with Hakkai drinking his tea and Gojyo with a beer.

Gojyo looked up at Sanzo and asked, "Well, is everything okay?"

Sanzo replied, "It's getting there. Slowly but that is the way it should be."

Gojyo smiled his crooked lecherous smile and said, "Not so up tight now, monk?"

Thwack, thwack!

"Damn, Sanzo you are a real shit head with that fan. And here I was trying to help you guys out, and what do I get smacked on the head. Geez, you can't even help him unless he gets in a snit." Gojyo kept mumbling to himself for a while until Hakkai reached over and patted him on the shoulder. Gojyo then stopped his rant and looked at this friend and lover in the eyes. He took Hakkai's hand in his and gave it a little squeeze, "Thanks for bringing me back to earth, babe. I kind of got carried away there for a minute."

"Yes, you did but I'll always be here to bring you back, my love."

"Oh, gods, that sounds so good and makes me feel so wanted. Your voice is like heaven to me."

Hakkai smiled, not the usual smile but a real smile, one only meant for Gojyo.

Hakkai then looked at the others of the group and began talking," We can start back on our journey tomorrow if you wish after we have bought supplies. It stopped has raining, and the roads are open."

Sanzo replied, "Good, we need to make up some time."

"Did you get your problems solved Sanzo?" Gojyo asked.

"It's none of your damn business cockroach!"

"Sanzo, you are the meanest monk there is. Are you sure you are a monk?"

Sanzo took out his gun and pointed it at Gojyo, "You want to ask that again?"

"Nope, I'm good here boss man! What do you think about a friendly game of cards instead? My head has enough holes in it."

Hakkai stepped in at that moment with, "That sounds like a great idea."

"Loser has to carry the bags to the jeep in the morning and every morning for a week. How does that sound?"

Goku replied, "That sounds good just let me eat first."

Gojyo jumped up and grabbed Hakkai's hand and said. "Come help me get the cards Hakkai."

"Can't you get the cards by your….oh …." he looked at Gojyo and continued, "Yes…of course let me help you get the cards."

With that they ran up the stairs to 'get the cards'.

Sanzo said," Well, guess we won't see them for an hour or so."

Goku smiled and replied, "Yeah, nice isn't it?"

The waitress brought the food at that moment and Goku's attention changed to the chore of eating everything he could find.

Sanzo had a slight smile on his face that no one saw and he thought to himself 'Yeah, guess it is nice. It's funny how time changes your outlook on things'. Then he returned to try and get his share of the food before Goku ate it all.

A/N: Hope you liked this chapter. Let me know what you think of Sanzo and Goku.