Idiots Log: Hi it's me again and this is 13, the unlucky number---"Help---Mommy----I'm scared."
Disclaimer: I, the aforementioned idiot, do not and forevermore own any of these characters, but the aforementioned idiot loves to put them in weird situations and see what they say and do. (Really… they do it… not me---signed, the aforementioned idiot.)
Chapter 13
The whole group struggled up to their rooms; each one looked at his key and went to the assigned numbered door. They were opening the doors when Hakkai took the opportunity to tell them, "We should go down to eat in about 30 minutes. It should give each of us time to wash up." Then he entered his room.
Hakkai had gone into the bath room when he heard a noise in his room and came out to greet his visitor. "So, you have something you want to say to me?" He asked in a tight voice.
"What do you think?" Gojyo opened just as harsh.
"Look, it is not my fault that Sanzo is in a shitty mood and has broken Goku's poor heart. Oh, gods, I though I would die when I got in Jeep and there was that empty seat in the back," Hakkai said with depression dripping form every word.
In the same mood Gojyo said, "Yeah, me too. I didn't know if I was going to get in Jeep, or jump out and try to find the monkey. Gee whiz, I sure do love that little guy." He immediately amended the sentence by saying with great conviction and resonance," You didn't hear me say that!"
"I know I love him, too. And that is why I don't know what to do. Do I leave it as is or talk to Sanzo?"
"Well, you know it ain't gonna be easy to talk to the 'almighty monk'." Using finger quote marks in the air to make his point.
"Yes, I'm afraid you're right, but that is, what I'm going to do."
"Gee, Hakkai, I don't know. He might kill you or do something terrible to you, and I would have to avenge you," said Gojyo.
"Now, you're just making fun of me!" he said looking at Gojyo with distain.
Gojyo replied with a laugh and a wicked sexy smile," No, just trying to lighten the mood, so maybe you will have better luck with Sanzo."
Hakkai looked at Gojyo and moved closer and touched his cheek with his hand and said, "Now you know why I love you." And he took Gojyo's face to his. First he licked Gojyo's lips and asked for entrance to the warm cavern of his mouth. Gojyo open it and covered Hakkai's mouth with great amorousness and the war of love was on. Which one of the companions would be the winner. Of course, as always both were winners and were left on the battlefield panting from passion.
When Hakkai had gained his composer, he looked at Gojyo and smiled a real smile and Gojyo knew Sanzo had a tussle on his hands now. Hakkai left the room walking with determination down the hall to invade the dragon's den and fight for what he knew was right.
He reached Sanzo's room and knocked on the door. There was some movement in the room and a noncommittal answer, "Come in."
Hakkai entered the room and saw that Sanzo had stationed himself at the small table sitting in one of the two chairs in the room. He was smoking a cigarette and had the paper folded in front of him.
"So, I see you are the elected sacrifice," was Sanzo's opening strike.
"No, there was no election, it was my decision to come and see you."
"You think you are going to change my mind about the monkey." He said with an acrid voice.
"No, I'm not going to try and change your decision, but I am going to ask that you consider the rest of us. We care very much for Goku and don't like seeing him hurt."
Sanzo looked at Hakkai with fire in his eyes, 'And you think I do?"
"No I am sure you don't like it either but is there not something that you can do?"
"You tell me? What would you do?" Then Sanzo turned nasty, "Oh, I forgot, you and the cockroach just do what you want without giving anyone else any kind of inkling that there is a change!"
"Damn it Sanzo this is not about me and Gojyo. It is about you and Goku."
"Ch…you think. I know it is about us, but this is also, all about the four of us and this journey we are on. Don't you know everything we do effects this mission."
"Sure, Sanzo, but how can loving a person ruin the mission?"
Sanzo let his anger totally take over then with, "You can't see it can you? The very moment you need to be looking one way and killing a demon, you might see you lover in a bad situation and so you turn to help him, and you get killed. You lose your edge. There that is the truth of it. What do you think?"
Hakkai hung his head and started out of the room but with a last ditch effort, "I would rather die loved… than live without it." He retorted with great conviction and with that he was gone.
Sanzo didn't know what to do. He sat in his chair put his glasses on and opened his newspaper. It didn't matter that it was a week old. It didn't matter that he sat alone. It didn't matter that his heart was breaking. He was Sanzo and a Sanzo was stronger than emptiness.
Hakkai on the other hand went back to his room and found his lover sitting in one of the two chairs in the room and holding out the other for him to sit in.
Gojyo spoke first," Did you have any luck?'
Hakkai replied dejectedly, 'I think I would have had better luck talking to one of the trees outside."
"So, now what are we going to do?"
"I guess I am going to talk to Goku and see what I can do there," Hakkai gave as answer.
"Sounds like a plan," replied Gojyo. "Want me to take over on that one since you took the hard ass?"
"No, I want to do it," said Hakkai.
"Okay, you are good with the little fella. You know I'm with you on this one don't you?"
"Yeah." He smiled a sad smile and said," well better get it over with." And Hakkai stood up and left the safety of his lover once more to try to mend the deep wound in the little group.
He again stood at a door with great trepidation and knocked.
"Come in," was the answer, but it was just such a small sad voice.
Hakkai entered the room and Goku was lying on his bed with a cheerless look on his face.
'Hey, Kai." Goku tossed easily at his friend.
Hakkai sat down on the side of the bed and put his hand on the boy's leg in friendship. "How are you doing, Goku?" he asked softly.
"I am not doing so good Kai, Sanzo has his reasons I know, but so do I. And mine are better than his."
Hakkai could not argue with that, "Yes, I agree with you on that one Goku. But what are you going to do now."
Goku looked Hakkai dead in the eye and said." I am going to fight for what I want no matter what Sanzo says. What I feel is as important as what he feels."
Hakkai patted Goku on his leg and got up and said," Looks like you have a plan Goku, and it sounds like you are ready for the fight that you are going to have. So, just know that Gojyo and I are on your side."
"Thanks Kai, that means a lot to me that you guys think I am an adult and can make my own decisions."
"Well, see you at dinner. It is almost time of it."
Goku jumped up and ran to the door , beating Hakkai there, and holding the door open for him. Goku said, "Great I think I could eat a bite."
"Understatement, Goku, it's called an understatement." Hakkai said as he walked through the door shaking his head from side to side, gaining a smile as he went."
That night at the dinner table the group sat and ate in silence. Each person was in their own world of thought or pain. It seemed as if it were going to go on forever when Gojyo said. 'You guys want to play cards tonight?"
Sanzo said a short, "No."
Goku looked at Sanzo and lowered his head and said, "I don't think so tonight Gojyo. I'm gonna to bed early."
Hakkai said, 'That sounds good, we are all tired."
Gojyo looked at Hakkai and saw that he really meant it. He replied as he got up and stuck his hands in his pockets, "Well, guess I will hit the bar and see if I can relieve the locals of some of their money." He turned and walked off in that direction.
Hakkai had a troubled felling in his stomach and wished he would have had the warmth of another body to cling to, but he knew his love was coping in his own way. He sat and sipped tea for a while and then went upstairs to bed.
Goku got up without looking at Sanzo and went up the stairs to go to his room and the awaiting restless night.
That left Sanzo…alone….again. 'Ch…I don't have to have any of them,' he thought. He went up the stairs and opened his door and went in his room closing the door behind himself. He sat on the bed and looked around, 'Damn, it looks so empty. What am I doing? I know I am right. I have to be.' He proceeded to get ready for bed and got in under the covers. 'Oh, gods, I have known emptiness all my life and it was fine. Why am I having trouble with it all now? What has changed?' This is what ran through his mind as he hoped for sleep to take him.
The Goddess looked down on this and thought, 'Sanzo, you are such an ass… and sooooooooooo stupid….at least you aren't boring.' Then she smiled a wicked smile and went over to her chair and sat down with her head very busy in thought. Then she laughed and very maniacal laugh. "Now, lets see if we can't have some more fun."
A/N: Yep things are not going to settle down are they? Don't you just love it? Oh, great Goddess can you give us a peek as to what is going to happen?
Goddess: I don't talk to mortals. Be gone with you.
Author again: Ok (as she backs way and runs for her life).
Another A/N: (yeah I know there are too many of these and you wish I would shut up but could you please review so I know what to write) Love to all my readers: I love you sooooooo much, you will never know.