a/n- The title comes from a song by CKY, by the same name.
I could hear the breathing of my friends; they were deep in sleep, in a place I could no longer reach.
The wind sighed, the little bugs cried, and the tress brushed together in a silent dance of life.
I could feel the bones in my hand as I clasped them together. I could feel every little strand of cloth that kept my clothes together. I could feel the beads of sweat that ran down my face, that weren't sweat at all.
I prayed, lifting myface to the night sky.
In this moment, in this second, I was alone. Alone. My Father did not pray with me, my friends did not watch with me.
I kneeled in a dirty patch of dirt and listened to my heart beat and cried to keep from screaming.
The world pushed down on me. I could hear the cries of every soul on the earth, could hear them pleading and yelling for salvation and redemption. They called out, to me, to God, for relief from the sins they drowned on.
How could I help the? I was going to die, I couldn't even save myself.
The bones in my hand ground together, and I could hear them cracking. The blood touched my lips and darkened the ground beneath me into little wet clumps. And my second of silence passed away, and I was no longer alone.
I opened my eyes and my Father's hand was reaching for me. I let my hand lie in His, and He lifted me to my feet and kissed my cheek.
I could still hear the souls around me, and I was still trembling with the knowledge that in minutes, I would be led to my death.
But my Father had blessed me, and I knew, this is what I had been born to do. In this way, I could soothe the cries around me.
I would suffer, but I would be lifted up. I would die, but I would be reborn. I would be forsaken, but I would rise, and I would walk in Paradise with my Father.