Dear Prongs

Depression Hits

SuperGirl

James was depressed, hell he was miserable. Not only was Lily gone his Doe pen pal wasn't writing back to him. He was making himself sick thinking about the whole situation with Lily. What could he do? He was also upset his Doe friend missed there next meeting as well. Was he that horrible that no one wanted to be near him?

Lily however was in shock still. She was gone a week and a half now. Her school year was not going well at the beginning so far. She missed too much school, she knew it. She also couldn't bare anymore hurt. She shut down. She had been sitting on a bench for hours now sitting one hundred feet away from a fresh grave which was covered up days ago.

She was an orphan something she never think would happen. Living with her grandparents who didn't understand her like her parents. Her grandmother suggest her going to public school no more traveling claiming it did her no good. She belonged no where. She didn't belong in this world and the magical world didn't seem to want her either. She hated herself this was the worst she ever came to.

Her bag slung over her shoulders with homework assignments from weeks prior that Potter gave her before she left again, unfinished untouched. Her hands clung a letter from Prongs the seventh one written to Doe in desperation for advice. Tears dried leaving marks on her face from the flooding from her eyes they came. No more came out, her eyes red, dark circles formed and sleepless nights. Thoughts of should have and what she could have haunted her.

'Never let go.' whispered in the wind. She shivered remembering the last night she stayed home before her father died. His advice, but how could she find love with someone. She doubted her feelings for James. She had nothing to lose now. How could she never let go if she never had anything to grasp?

A barn owl flew in front of her with a rolled up letter eyeing her strangely. She noticed it after it pecked her feet. She didn't have the strength to write to Prongs. Her heart was in so much pain she was physically hurt. She opened it expecting a letter from prongs, but it wasn't.

"Dear Lily,

There are so many things one could wish for in life. If I could change anything I would never let anything hurt you ever again. I would care for you with all of my love and keep you safe. I been a fool and a stupid one at that. I am in vain when I say I miss you. I have missed a lot of things when it comes to you.

There was a girl whom cared about me, but I didn't think a thought about her. Just being friends with this girl made me feel like I was betraying you even if we were friends. My heart has claimed you not as a prize, but as it's mate. You will think I am foolish and corny.

You also might think I am a fool for ever say it, but I do love you Lily Evans everything about you." unsigned.

Lily didn't finish the letter that night she fell into a burst of teas she couldn't control. After it became dark out side she got up and walked for an hour to her grandparents home. She walked in and sat on the sofa across from her grandfather who smoked his pipe.

"More letters came and gifts by those bloody birds." said her grandmother put out. Lily nodded not wanting to look at them. "I thought Owls were nocturnal." said her grandfather puffing his pipe. "They are dear." replied his wife. He tilted his head some. "What do you think about Catholic school?" he asked Lily. She shock her head and started to cry more. "I think you should give up that freak school. It do us all some good."

"Petunia went to catholic school as did you father." said her grandmother. "No." cried out Lily standing up walking away. "Are you going to eat my dear?" asked her grandmother. Lily broke out loudly and ran to her room crying new found tears. She slammed the door and fell to the floor and gasped out a breath she was holding. She fell asleep there on the floor with no energy left.

James was depressed he didn't even want to bother with Snape even when he was trying to provoke James. He moped around and stared off into space two weeks went by. No Evans no Doe. The girls at the school steered away from him like he had a disease of some kind. Sirius even tried to cheer him up pranking the Slytherins.

It was the third day of the third week Lily was gone when James was called into Dumbledore's office.

"Snickers." he said walking past the gargoyles.

"Ah Mr. Potter come, sit down, Skittle?" he asked James who frown at the candy.

"Your grades have went down the last few weeks." he said looking at the Potter heir. James shrugged some.

"I do have some new that might help." he said lightly at the boy.

"Miss Evans will be coming back to school, but she is currently in St. Mongo's Hospital."

"Is she okay?" James asked.

"She is being taken away from her grandparents and placed in my custody. There are things I can not tell you, but she has been taken away from the Muggle world for her safety."

"What did they do to her?"

"Now, Mr. Potter I my self only been told so much. She will be under my care after she is healed at the hospital. I am going that afternoon, you can join me if you like."

ROOM 435

An aurora stood taking notes while speaking to a nurse in the room. James watched as Dumbledore talked to a healer. The aurora held a broken white willow wand in one hand. James could barley see in the room. "You can't go in only family can go in at this time." a healer said to James. He looked up and realized he was heading into the room without knowing it.

"I'll be a few minuets Mr. Potter." Dumbledore spoke patting him on the head.

"Your Jameson 's kid aren't you?" James looked up at the Aurora who spoke to him. "I am." he said looking into the room. "Is the Muggle-born witch in there your girlfriend?" he asked James. He looked at the man surprised. "it's just your father mentioned you fancied a red haired witch is all." James looked in and nodded though he knew it was only a wish in his mind. "No one will let me know what happened." he said trying to glance in.

"Come with me Junior and I'll tell you a little, just let us keep it hush, hush." they walked a little bit then sat at the cafeteria in the hospital. "What happened?" James chocked out more chocked then he hoped. "There was a bad fight between them, her sister destroyed her books, some robes she took with her. Her sister broke her wand and it was all over to change her." the aurora said sipping some coffee.

"They enlisted her in St. Andrews school. She also been hooked to an ivy, she tried to kill herself after the fight with her sister." the aurora said softly. When we went to the house there was piles of letters and gift untouched and some ashes of some burnt up with wax seals melted in the fireplace. We thought it best to get the ministry involved and Dumbledore took her in as his own." he paused. "Albus took you with him?" James nodded some.

"How could anyone destroy those things of hers?" he asked.

"I have some questions as her boyfriend maybe you could answer them for me?" said the man taking out a note pad. James nodded looking around the cafeteria.

"Why was she with her grandparents?"

"Her mother died from cancer, her father passed away three and a half weeks ago." replied James.

"Has Lily ever had any prior suicidal attempts?"

"No."

"Can you explain a few things, we found these love letters of some kind." James swallowed some wondering what they were.

"Who is Prongs?" the man asked handing James the letter he wrote to Doe.

James read the letter several times his eyes widening.

"I am Prongs." he froze some. "I sent this to Doe." he said softly.

"Who is Doe?" the man asked. "Lily." he said softly.

"We found this on her person when we found her, the ministry was alarmed when her wand was broken. There was a huge serge of magic used and well we found her with a broken shaver blade on the ground in her room earlier today."

James felt violently ill all of a sudden. "I am sorry I wish I had better news." the man said. "I wanted you to know since your father worked with me for over twenty years I thought you should know." James nodded trying to control his emotions.

"Do you want me to continue?" the man asked. James nodded some.

"There was bruises also left on her sister. It appears they had an all out fight. Her sister was pretty shaken up when we arrived. She believe Lily caused there parent's death."

"She should go to jail then." said James gripping his letters in his hand.

"We can not do anything to her. If we could trust me we would. They need to work this out, all siblings argue and this one was about her being Muggle and becoming a Muggle. Her sister disapproves of her education, blames her. It happens it is jealousy the one thing that tears up a family. She is- She will be upset after this. Something must have caused her to want to die to do what she did to herself. Form what I know from Dumbledore she was the best model student. "

James hands fell into his face cradling it he felt tears weld up.

"James?" a voice came he looked up and seen Dumbledore. "We have to get back to the school, but I will sneak you in for a minuet she is still out cold. James nodded and wiped his face off and fallowed the man up to the third floor. They stopped Dumbledore turned to James. "I do have one question for you as well." said Dumbledore. James looked up at him from the door he was staring at. "Can you promise never to let anyone know what occurred here today and what you know of this even Miss Evans?" James nodded looking up at his professor.

James walked over and touched Lily's hand softly. He thought he knew everything about her, he never thought he see this side of her. Her face was swollen lip was busted. James touched her face and she flinched some then returned to her state. "How can anything so beautiful be so broken?" he whispered. He leaned over and caressed her face lightly feeling some heat some off of it from the bruise. He leaned down and left a light kiss on her forehead and left with Dumbledore.

James missed the rest of his lessons sitting in the dorm reading his letters. Some the ink was smeared some were folded up several time. One was ripped up and taped up. He felt a small smile on his face. His Doe was his Lily. He then frown again thinking about what Dumbledore told him. That was the happiest he had been for weeks finding out Doe was Lily. He knew he couldn't just jump up and tell her he knew.

"Hey Prongs!" cried Sirius jumping on him with a manly hug. "Can I tell you something?" James said in a serious tone. Sirius nodded. James raised his wand and placed a silencing charm on the door. "Lily is Doe." he said softly. Sirius looked at James. "What? How?" he asked.

"I went with Dumbledore today she was in Mongos and an Aurora asked me some questions and she had these." said James pulling out the letters from his back pocket. "She had them on her when they found her." Sirius looked at James, "We kind of knew." he said looking up at James. "What?" he asked if he hadn't heard. "We figured it out. We seen Lily on the map tat night and her name turned into 'Doe'."

"Why didn't you say anything?" James asked.

"Surprise!" said Sirius, "We thought she should of told you."

"I don't want her to know I know." James paused remembering what happened that day. "I want to send to her a new wand." said James.

"Why a new wand?" asked Sirius.

"Her sister broke hers and ruined her school books and some clothes." he said sighing heavily.

"Well, let's pull a Doe." said Sirius.

"What do you mean?" Sirius replied with a grin.

Room 435

Lily opened her eyes to a package on her bed. She sat up some and took off her note attached.

"Dear Lily,

You have stolen my heart. I didn't want you to have it, but you do. What can a noble beast as my self give a flower to show there affection. I willing give you my heart as you have already have it. I came up with this idea from a friend.

With love your admire, Marauder' fearless leader."

Lily eyed it strangely and laughed a bit picking up a gift certificate to be used in Diagon alley. In the corner it read. "I would have sent you something, but I have no idea what to get a girl." She smiled some and looked at the gift certificate in her fingers. She bit her lip in deep thought. She wasn't sure what to think about this, but knew she could use a new wand.

"What is that?" came a gentle voice.

"I got a letter from an admire." she said softly. "I know who it is, but they don't know that I know who they are." she said softly. She held up the gift certificate up.

"It beats flowers doesn't it?" he said chuckling. For the first time in weeks Lily smiled a true smile. "I will take you to get a new wand tomorrow, is that what you want to do with this?" he asked. She nodded re-reading her note from her admire.

"Dear Marauder' fearless leader,

If that is your real name.

I Lily Evans can not be bought by gift, however I will thank you for not sending Lilies to me.

So tell me about yourself fearless leader, what is it that intrigued you about me? Maybe one day we shall meet. Write back to me I am curious about this marauder thing.

Lily Evans."

A/N: please read and review.