Title: Speak to me
Setting: Seventh Year, Hogwarts
Rating: R- Slash, violence?
Disclaimer: Don't own HP
Summary: Harry Potter had defeated Voldemort. But his victory had major consequences. One being the fact that Harry has totally shut himself away from any contact with anyone. No one can help. No one, that is, except a certain Slytherin enemy. (Slash HP/DM!)
Authors Notes: Oh wow. It's been a while hasn't it? I'm really sorry, I never meant to make you all wait so long. I know, I'm horrible, but sometimes I just don't find the inspiration I need. I'd rather have amazing chapters then dull, boring ones that only took an hour tops to write. Also, I had a little roadblock... So I hope you all don't hate me. :\ (More notes at the bottom)
Shadow
Chapter Fourteen: Remember our Love
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A soft light seeping through the slightly opened blinds In the Slytherin dorms reached Draco's eyelids and he slowly pulled himself out of bed. The sun was overly bright that day, and an overwhelming feeling of joy tightened his stomach, to the point he was almost smiling openly. Looking around, he found that most of his dorm-mates were already gone, their beds made neatly. However, he looked towards Blaise's and found the boy's bed slightly wrinkled and his trunk laying open at the foot of his bed. A school uniform, freshly washed, was sitting slanted on his pillow and Draco frowned, turning his head, looking for his fellow Slytherin.
Suddenly, the sound of running water reached the blonde's ears, trailing from the bathroom. Then, dressed in white robe, Blaise emerged from the doorway, drying his hair with a navy blue towel, his eyes finally finding Draco.
"You're up late." He stated simply, before resuming his walk towards his bed.
Draco's frown lifted and was replaced with one of worry. He grabbed his wrist watch from his night table and groaned when he found out breakfast was almost over. He didn't care about missing breakfast, no not one bit. He did care, however, that he was supposed to meet Harry earlier that morning.
"I- I've got to go." Draco said quickly, pulling on his shirt and a clean tie from the clothes that lay folded neatly on his dresser.
Blaise's eyes narrowed, watching as Draco worriedly disappeared behind the bathroom door. He set his towel on his bed before starting to get dressed for that days classes. Finally, his dorm-mate entered the room, looking fully cleansed.
"Where are you going?" Blaise said, his voice suspicious. "Breakfast just ended, we still have a few minutes before class. There's no point going to the Great Hall."
Draco's eyes flashed with brief annoyance before he spun around on his heel, his indifferent mask in place. "Oh yes I know, but I'm starving. I thought I might stop by the kitchens and grab something to eat before heading down to charms." He said coolly, though his insides clenched in fear of missing Harry before the Gryffindor went to class.
"Oh right then. Just one second, i'll come with you... I'm quite hungry myself." Blaise said slowly, clasping the clips of his robes together with sharps snaps.
"No- I mean..." Draco paused, his eyebrows lowering slightly. "I'm just going to get something quick, Blaise. Why don't you just go-"
"You're meeting him, aren't you!" Blaise said finally, his hand lowering from the silver clasps of his robe and landing swiftly at his side. "You're meeting Potter, again." His voice was accusing and Draco felt his teeth clench.
"Blaise, we've already gone through this discussion. I'm not going to see Potter, why would-"
"Don't play games with me, Draco." Blaise said, his voice rising considerably. "You think I don't notice? Do you really think I'm that stupid? I've seen how you treat Potter, and frankly, it's making me sick."
Fear gripped at Draco's insides. If Blaise knew, he would likely tell all the Slytherin's who would make Draco's life a living hell. "I don't treat Potter any special way."
The dark-haired boy snorted, staring at Draco. "I've watched you two in class. I know what's going on between you two."
"It's none of your business, Zabini!" Draco shouted, finally snapping. There was a startled silence and Blaise's eyes bore into Draco's once again.
"So you admit it." He said softly, his voice cold and unforgiving.
"So what if I am seing, Harry." Draco said crossly. His hand slowly reached into his pocket and he grabbed hold of his wand. "Do you have a problem with it?"
Blaise's eyes dropped down to Draco's pale hand that was almsot white with the force he gripped his wand with. Finally, the two former best friend's eyes locked. "You're abandoning your friends for him? You've known us for more then seven years, and him for a few weeks, and you're choosing him? A Gryffindor who put our families in azkaban, the Golden boy that was the cause of death to my father, among others!"
The blonde's eyes met Draco's steadily. "Our parent's killed hundreds more people then Harry ever did."
Blaise's eyes flashed, and his face flushed slightly. "I don't know what Potter's done to you, but you've changed. You're whole life, you've always said you hated Potter, always said that you'd do anything to be the one that gets to wipe that smile off his face." His voice lowered into a deathly whisper. "You've always blamed him for your father's death."
Draco's eyes widened, as he remembered fighting for the lightside to destroy Voldemort, but never once supporting Harry. The Golden Boy had been the one that trapped Lucius in Azkaban. The one that led Voldemort to believe Lucius was weak and the one that led to Lucius to his death.
But he knew now, that his father was the reason for hundreds of deaths. That his father was one of the reason's Voldemort's power grew to the point he was almost immortal. That his father would have done anything to be the one to destroy Harry forever.
And it had taken Draco almost forever to realize it... But if he needed anything, it was Harry. And if he had to choose...
He would much rather have Harry beside him, than Lucius Malfoy.
Turning towards Blaise, Draco lowered his wand, his voice calm. "My father's death was his own fault." He said slowly, his eyes studying the boy in front of him.
Blaise looked stunned as his eyes steadily became wider. Then he swiftly left the room, his robes sweeping out the door. Draco knew that Blaise Zabini was his best friend no more.
But it didn't matter. Nothing mattered anymore. All that mattered at that moment was...
Harry was waiting for him.
So Draco rushed down the stairs and ran towards the Great Hall.
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Harry sat on Professor Mcgonagall's classroom's windowsill, watching his former 12-year-old self chew softly on the end of his quill. His eyes were dull as he watched the scene before him, thinking about what he had seen so far and what he had learned about his life.
Ron and Hermione, were indeed his best friends, just as they claimed to be.
Dumbledore was still the overly cheery man who couldn't help but always look on the brightside.
Snape was still the greasy git that scared the hell out of Harry.
However, Hogwarts was fighting. Constantly. Slytherins against Gryffindors. He didn't look into it as much until he found out Draco had been a Slytherin himself... and a very nasty one at that.
With a soft sigh, and a dreading feeling in his chest, Harry watched himself a while longer in a bored silence as the innocent boy ran a hand through his messy hair.
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During Charms, Draco was incredibly put out. He had missed Harry that morning, and was stuck in a class with a midget professor and a bunch of Hufflepuffs. He groaned irritably, wondering how he ever thought that this day would be a good one.
When that class was finally over, the blonde perked up considerably, realizing his next class would be Potions and he would finally get to see Harry. He quickly made his way into the dungeons, that same smile threatening to grace his face and this time, he had troubles holding it back. When he reached inside, class hadn't started yet, so he sat down next to Pansy, constantly checking his watch.
"Draco, what's wrong?" She asked sweetly, her eyes following his as they landed on his wrist watch for the hundreth time that day.
"Hm? Oh, nothing." He said once again, frowning slightly.
It was that moment Blaise chose to enter the classroom. He ignored Draco completely, instead dragging Pansy away to a table with Theodore Nott. Draco felt his teeth clench, as he heard whispery voices and felt Pansy's eyes burning into his back.
A few minutes later, Granger and Weasley entered the classroom, both looking incredibly worried. Waiting for Harry to appear, trailing behind them, Draco waited.
And waited.
He waited until Snape stepped in front of the classroom.
He waited still, as students bustled around, starting their potions.
He waited. And waited.
He waited for Harry's soft face to appear in the doorway, shy yet confident at the same time.
But it never came.
Harry never came.
And Draco suddenly felt very alone.
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Wiping away tears, Harry watched his thirteen-year-old self talk to Sirius, almost feeling the same joy his younger version felt as Sirius invited him to live with him.
He knew why he was crying, of course. Memories flooded his mind, causing his breath to hitch. How amazing Sirius had been to him, how he helped with even, what Harry thought, were the silliest problems. How he would tell him stories of his and James' past... How he acted like the father he never had, but always longed for.
Then, like always, he remembered Sirius' death. How it was so sudden- So unexpected. He remembered how Sirius Black managed to look so graceful, even when dying- his back arching elegantly and his blue eyes twinkling with startled amusment.
With a soft sniff and a shuddering sigh, Harry watched as his life played out in front of him. There was a soft howl, and Harry's attention was brought to the werewolf that bared it's teeth, fangs flashing in the full moon's light.
He watched as Remus and Sirius fought.
And began to sob louder, as Remus' comforting smile and soft gaze clouded his vision. Remus, his mentor, his guide had died as well.
And Harry suddenly felt very alone.
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"Granger, Weasley!" Draco called throughout the deserted hallways, after hours of following the couple trying to get them alone.
Ron was the first one to turn around, his ginger hair flickering in the slight movement. His face was pale and weary as he clutched onto Hermione's hand, to the point his knuckles were a ghostly-white.
"Malfoy?" Hermione asked timidly, surprise evident in her voice.
There was a pause and silence enveloped the corridor, Draco trying to muster up the courage to ask what he had practiced for hours in his head.
Not being able to stand the silence any longer, and being the impatient person he always was, Ron narrowed his eyes, his hand reaching for his wand before pointing it at Draco square in the face. "If it's a duel you want, then find someone else. I'm not in the mood, don't provoke me, Malfoy."
For once in his life, Draco found the Gryffindor slightly intimidating. He quickly sucked in a breath before looking Ron dead in the eyes. "I'm not looking for a duel, Weasley." He said rather politely compared to his usual sneering self. "In fact, i'm looking for something entirely different." With a slight pause, Draco continued, his heartbeat quickening. "I'm looking for Harry."
Ron's eyes widened as he tightened his grip on his wand. "What for!" He practically yelled, his face becoming even paler. "I'm not going to let you hurt him, he's been through enough without you-" His voice suddenly wavered then died, as his eyes, if possible, became wider. "What did you call him?"
Hermione was looking at Draco strangely, as if seeing him for the first time, and the blonde shifted in her gaze. Finally, she sighed, her eyes glossy. Draco realized that they were always glossy, as if she was always silently crying without tears.
"Last time we saw him was when we dropped him off to Dumbledore's office earlier this morning." She said softly, feeling Ron's grip on her hand tighten. "We haven't heard from him all day, we were just off to see Dumbledore right now..." Her voice trailed off as she turned her head, studying Ron's furious face.
Draco let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. Harry was probably having one of his heartfelt talks with Dumbledore, and was probably in no danger at all. He felt like a heavy weight was lifted off his shoulder, but after watching Ron and Hermione in an uncomfortable silence, he knew he still had many problems to deal with.
"What do you care, anyway?" Ron said, slightly more calm.
Draco chose that moment to start walking away in the opposite direction, a muffled "I just do." being carried across the hallways.
The redhead looked startled as he turned his head towards Hermione.
Hermione on the other hand, felt a small smile grace her lips and she slowly tugged Ron's hand, walking towards the gargoyles guarding Dumbledore's office.
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Harry shivered in the coolnight, watching the his fifteen year old self sleep fitfully, mumbling abusrd things every now and then. His memories seemed to get steadily worse, from the unconcious Ginny in his second year, to the cold body of Cedric in his fourth.
Watching his former self interestedly, he felt his emotions well up inside him, travelling to his eyes once more. He furiously wiped his tears away, wondering why he couldnt ever control his feelings. He hugged his knees to his chest feeling himself shudder once more, thinking about his life and what it had become...
Then of course, he remembered Draco.
Or better known: Malfoy.
A hatred knotted in his stomach, and he started to sob once more, realizing how much pain Draco had caused him. How he had tormented him without caring the slightest.
He realized now, that Draco wasn't an angel sent to protect him, to care for him, like he always thought. He realized now, that he wasn't lucky for someone as wonderful as Draco to come into his life, making him feel elated and surprisingly joyous.
He realized now, that Draco was someone he thought would treat him right, but instead, he played games with Harry's mind. And Harry couldn't help but feel that Draco was playing games with his emotions and that the Slytherin didn't care for him like he claimed.
He began to feel that all the shy, clumsy moments they shared meant nothing. That all the soft, hesitant touches were all just a fragment of his imagination, and while his feelings for the blonde were real, Draco's feelings were not.
He couldn't help but sob furiously into his knees, his hands combing through his hair, and his heart slowly breaking.
He also couldn't help the fact that, as hard as he tried not to, he still cared deeply for the blonde.
Finally, with a sudden realization, he raised his head, staring at his fifteen-year-old self intently. Who ever knew that, that same boy would fall in love with Draco Malfoy.
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Draco stared that the canopy of his bed, a tiny smile on his face. He had lost all his friends, lost his reputation... his power. He had lost almost everything.
But he still had the one thing that was most important.
He still had Harry...
And Draco finally let himself smile that same smile that threatened to leak through his cold facade all day.
Losing friends like the ones Draco formerly had was a small price to pay for the feeling he now felt.
The incredible feeling of love.
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A/N: Once again, I'm really really sorry. I hope you guys are still devoted enough to the story to read it. I tried to make this one a bit longer to make up for the lack of updates and my horrible meaness of making you all wait, but I know it's not even really that long :\
I love all my reviewers AND readers. I'm very glad you all enjoy the story, and hope this chapter was one that kept you interested. I finally made them fall in love. Well I suppose they were always slightly in love, but I've finally gotten them to admit it:) This chapter was a hard one to get into, but once I did, I really put my soul into it, I hope it shows.
Love you all lots,
Thanks so much, and sorry for my horribleness in updating.
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