Author's Apology:
I have been so busy that I lost time for this fic. I've wanted to finish it for so long, but I can't find the time. So I feel completely guilty… 3-4 months is definitely much too long of a gap between chapters. And I know I have lost many readers because of my incapability to update frequently. I'm really, very sorry. I know this chapter is hardly long enough or even written well enough for an apology, but it's the best I can do for now. I really do love you all, and I hope you enjoy the story from this point on.
Author's Note:
Finally, another chapter! There is still more, so please don't think this is the last one. Thanks to all my reviewers! You guys are great! I'll promise I'll try harder to update from now on
This chapter is dedicated to THE T0BEY-MEiSTER. I shall never forget your review again, and I'm sorry that I did the last time!
Chapter Eighteen: Surrender
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Harry continued to run, helplessly, across the frozen ground beneath him. Above him, the stars twinkled brightly, reflecting in the white snow. Sparkling beautifully, the snow, the constant reminder, crushed beneath Harry's feet. Clouds once again covered the sympathetic moonlight, shadowing the castle grounds, darkening the white snow and lining the Gryffindor's weary face.
I hate you, Harry
The boy felt his knees hit the snow hard, the moist coldness seeping through his trousers and hitting his skin. However, his hands held his head desperately, clenching onto the black unruly hair and scraping across the tender, frozen flesh of his confused face.
"I hate you, too. Hate you... so... much."
Feeling his eyes tingle, Harry clenched his teeth. Very slowly, he took a deep breath; his eyes shut tightly, and let his hands fall to his side. Then, shivering in the cold winter air as the chill winds licked at his raw flesh, the Gryffindor burried his face in his hands and let out a desperate sob.
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Draco felt himself shiver as he sat himself down in one of the old chairs in the library. Quietly opening his ink well, he sighed, his gaze resting on the blank parchment in front of him. Letting his eyes wander over to the window, Draco felt a yearning burn up in his chest. Images of snow, flowers, and butterflies washed over him, as well as soft, hushed voices. He could still feel the cold winds travel over his tender flesh, and the warmth of Harry's body beside him. Closing his eyes gently, the Slytherin felt a soft breeze flutter across his skin and smiled.
"Draco."
The Slytherin's eyes opened in surprise as the soft, masculine voice reached his ears. With a frown, he turned towards Blaise who was studying him closely, an unreadable look on his face.
"What is it, Zabini?" Draco asked coldly, his smile leaving his face, replaced with a look of hatred.
Blaise had quickly taken Draco's status as the Prince of Slytherin, and it was more of a surprise to Draco than anyone else. In fact, the old life Draco used to lead seemed almost as if it were a dream; something long forgotten and forever lost.
Though, Draco could hardly complain. It was almost as if he had traded his old life, one filled with malice, spite and anger, for another.
One filled with Harry, one filled with love
The dark-haired Slytherin sat across the formerly respected boy and watched as Draco's teeth clenched, almost unnoticeably. Though, Blaise noticed everything about the blonde. It was for that exact reason he was sitting in a deserted corner of the library across someone he had lost all admiration for.
"I didn't give you permission to sit there, Zabini!" The blonde whispered harshly, his eyes wandering over to Madam Pince.
The ends of Blaise's lips quirked into a slightly amused smile, and he stared at Draco square in the eyes. "I'm here for a chat, Draco."
Narrowing his eyes, Draco watched Blaise's eyes flash just slightly, and sat against the back of his chair. "About…"
"Potter. And the obsession you have with him."
Draco picked up his quill, snarling in Blaise's direction. "I believe that this topic is none of your concern, Blaise."
Blaise clenched his teeth, beginning to get fed up with the deliberate slow talking; the skillful avoidance of a topic Draco most definitely did not want to be involved in. Leaning forward in his chair, Blaise smirked with a sinister twinkle in his eye. "Taking advantage of someone when they're basically insane is a very Slytherin thing to do, Draco…"
The blonde's eyes flashed with anger, melting into a fire of silver mist. His chest constricted painfully, but his mind clouded with a rage even he didn't know he possessed. However, he kept his voice eerily calm, the array of emotions in his eyes showing his fury. "You don't know what you're talking about, Blaise."
Blaise smiled slightly, folding his hands neatly on the desk. "I was wondering how you were ever put into Slytherin after I learned of your feelings towards that Gryffindor." He said, looking straight ahead at the blonde, his eyes challenging.
Draco's hand gently let go of his quill and he leaned forward in his chair, his eyes narrowing. "And now I know exactly why you were."
Ignoring Draco's comment, Blaise let his eyes wander to Madam Pince before letting out a small laugh. "But then, then I realized it all when Potter had somehow, miraculously had his memory returned to him. He had no feelings towards you, Draco. In fact, he seemed to be getting on just fine while you withered away."
An overwhelming feeling of hurt tingled through Draco's limbs, but he managed pull his façade over his lost expression. Though he felt his mask was beginning to fade away… just like his soul…
"…And then I understood— Potter never had feelings for you! He was just the victim to a Slytherin's cunning manipulation."
Blaise paused, taking in Draco's expression. Storm grey eyes were glistening slightly and the Dark-haired Slytherin noticed with grim satisfaction that the blonde's pale face looked confused, miserable and almost in agreement.
"Which is why, Draco, I am offering an opportunity that you may never once again be offered. I am offering Slytherin back—I am offering you a chance to go back."
Draco looked alarmed, and Blaise smiled at him, extending a hand. "You can have Slytherin back, Draco. Potter will never be yours, it's best to live with it."
The blonde stared at his former best friend bewildered, and with a sigh, Blaise locked eyes with the boy in front of him. "Because we're friends, Draco, and you've always been there for me. That's why." With a dry laugh, Blaise's eyes misted over and he smiled. "Maybe I'm not fit to be in Slytherin either, hey Draco."
Draco just stared at the hand outstretched to him.
Normal.
His life at the beginning of the year had been normal. Blaise was offering him a chance back to the normal life he once had.
"You're right. Nothing's normal. Normal doesn't exist, not in our world."
'But can it?' Draco thought to himself, his eyes staring at Blaise's arm.
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Harry stared outside his window, the memory of last night still fresh in his mind. A soft breeze tousled his hair and he let out a deep breath, his eyelids fluttering closed and his head gently leaning against the frozen window pane.
The raven-haired boy listened to the comforting silence of one of the neglected Hogwart's towers. In the calm, relaxed state he was in, he could pay attention to the things that he had been avoiding, like the steady beat of his heart and the rush of emotions that seemed to have settled in the pit of his stomach.
The first emotion, which he had always felt, still burned as strong as ever. Malfoy had always spurred the sudden flames of anger, had always been the only one to slither beneath his skin, and bring out unleashed rage.
But as his heart continued to beat, Harry could feel the hatred disappear behind a veil of depression. The war was over, hopefully forever, and yet Harry hadn't laughed freely, nor had he celebrated with his closest friends, drinking to the new, safe future that awaited them.
Because most of his closest friends were no longer living.
The depression, however, seemed to be consumed by a feeling of utter confusion. The war was over, so wasn't his life supposed to go completely back to normal? Wasn't he supposed to continue his life, marry and have children? Why was he still lingering on the past, and most of all, what was this new feeling of care that he had formed for Malfoy.
There was also the fact that last night was the most alive he had felt since he had returned. It was as if he had nothing to live for, but Draco brought feelings of such need- such longing- to him… And that, that was the most frustrating thought. Though, when the moon had struck and Harry had truly examined the white as snow hair, soft as silk skin and hopeful eyes, he had felt a jolt of something unexplainable travel through his chest and the loud pounding of his heart echo in his ears.
Harry opened his eyes suddenly, and saw the sun shining the most brightly it had all winter. Sudden fear gripped him as he watched the miniature flakes of snow begin to melt, turning into a clear pool of liquid then slowly running down the side of the tower, dripping down into the beautiful frosted grass.
Feeling as if losing the snow was like losing a close companion, Harry reached out the window and closed his hand around a small portion. The warmth of his skin quickly began to tingle as the cool snowflakes began to bite at his flesh, making it numb. Then, almost as if he were holding onto something that was bound to leave him, the snow began to melt.
Letting the purest of all water run down his hands, Harry looked outside once more, the white grounds all melting as one. Feeling resigned, Harry watched as the memories of tender touches, lingering kisses and comforting words began to disappear.
The water trickling down his fingers brought Harry back to reality and he shuddered as the raw, bitter winds fluttered over his numbed flesh.
As the frozen grounds continued to signal that spring was near, Harry felt lost.
Lost and as if he had lost something.
Something that was dearly important to him.
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Draco took the extended hand, feeling regret build up in his chest, but knowing the love of his life would never be his. Blaise nodded as they shook their hands, a sullen, but approving look on his face.
But as the sensation to break down and let his true emotions fall became too overwhelming to bear, the sudden warmth of sunlight washed over him, brightening up the library. Looking outside, Draco noticed the sun was shining as bright as ever and somehow his spirits began to soar.
For he felt that he was making the right decision and the world was once more, somehow, returning to normal.
And with a smile, Draco began to work on his homework assignment. Feeling his heart clench at never being able to be with Harry again, but his spirits rising as he realized that he could go back to their old relationship.
And he could admire his love from afar.
The snow began to melt, and Draco felt that just like the snow, this phase in his life was disappearing.
Although he felt he needed Harry more than anything, he knew Harry would never feel the same way. This way, instead of feeling his life was going to waste, he could one day end their rivalry and maybe even become a friend…
Feeling his eyes shine with tears of letting go, Draco kept the smile on his face. Without him there, Harry could have a normal life.
Letting go of Blaise's hand was like letting go of Harry. And Draco knew as much as he didn't want to, the Gryffindor would be better off this way.
Let me love you.
Let me love you, and you don't have to love me back…
Let me love you,
Let me love you, and we'll both be okay.
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Harry pushed the doors to the Great Hall open and his ears instantly filled with snippets of chatter and gossip as he walked down the isle towards the Gryffindor table. As soon as he sat down, however, he could tell something was different.
His eyes widened slightly when they reached the Slytherin table. No longer was Draco isolated in a corner. Instead, he was propped next to Parkinson who looked ecstatic that he was back.
Feeling his pulse quicken, Harry went back to his food, staring at the chicken with absolutely no hunger. It shouldn't have mattered to him that Draco was chatting cheerily with his friends, but it did. Something had definitely changed, and Harry felt he had lost the secretive, confusing relationship with the other boy.
And he was almost surprised to feel that it hurt.
Feeling a gaze directed at him, Harry raised his head. Instantly, his distant emerald eyes softened and melted into a flickering hot fire. Staring back at Draco, he blinked as a frown touched his tired face. With a soft sigh, he dropped his fork and stood up, knowing that everything was back to normal.
And he was almost surprised to feel that he didn't want anything to be normal. In fact, the loss that was slowly starting to consume him was unexpected, but it suddenly shifted his world. All of a sudden normal wasn't what he craved.
But Draco looked at him oddly, as if he wanted to say something but was restrained by some force he could not overcome. After a few seconds of useless staring, Harry sent a glare the Slytherin's way.
And he got one in return.
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Author's Second Ramble: I hope you aren't too confused. There's more to be explained in further chapters! Don't you worry! One more thanks to all my reviewers. I will always reply to each and every one of you
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Nightscanr3: You live in New York! That must be exciting. And party harder, haha, of course. And yes! There are very, very few times when I will just abandon a story. When I feel too frustrated to continue, I usually write a few one shots in order to get my writing back on track. And you've been with me that long! I'm sorry for the frequent writer's block… Sometimes, even for a writer, it's hard to find words. And I'm very delighted you understand. It gets me worried that sometimes I lose readers to my lack of updating, and I know how it is to read a story and forget about it, no matter how enjoyable it was, because of the huge gaps in updating. So for that, I am very grateful! Haha, and no. The world is never normal, and that's exactly what I'm trying to build. Draco and Harry's ideas of normal are so warped up that they're forgetting to keep what's important to them close to their hearts because normal is what they want to feel. (If you can even understand that the least bit, heh.) I hope some of your questions were answered in this chapter. They are part wishful thinking and a bit of Harry letting go and letting his feelings envelope him. I hope you enjoyed the chapter, and I also hope the wait wasn't too long! Thanks so much for the review
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