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The Narrative Stylings of Zack Martin
In the famous words of Peter Pan "I won't grow up!" I mean being a kid isn't always fun and games so why even look forward to being older? Things will only get harder! I'm just not prepared; I don't think I'll ever be! It's just too scary! Too much to handle!
Cody may be scared of a lot of things but growing up is definitely not one of them. I can see it on him. You can throw him into the world of adulthood tomorrow and he'll be a millionaire by next week! I mean come on, he's like a super genius. That's the thing about being a twin; you can never just be you, you'll always be compared to your sibling. You're expected to be just like them. I'll I've ever been hearing is "if Cody can do it, if he can achieve, you cant you?"
After a while it just started to get annoying. I hated being measured. I just gave up trying, you know. It sucks coming in second best. So one day I just woke up and said, "Forget it! Just screw school altogether!" I'll just make a living playing the guitar; I mean it works for my dad. But now that I think about it, I won't be able to live with myself when Cody becomes successful and I end up living out of the back of a pick-up truck.
But for now there's not much I can do. I'll just be Zack, the laidback slacker. It's not always that fun you know. You don't know what it feels like to know you're always disappointing your mom; every time she looks at your report card or sees your side of the room. You'll never be able to just look her in the eyes and see that sparkle of excitement. She'll say she loves you but you know deep inside that she's thinking, "…But life would be a whole lot better if he would just be like his brother Cody". But I guess you can't really blame him. He's only trying to succeed in this dog-eat-dog world. And I guess I'll have to accept that, even if it leaves me all empty inside.
On days like that, when I feel I'm empty and worthless I just lock myself in my room. I'll blast the music and play video games till my fingers go numb. I'll do anything to make me forget. But I won't cry! That's the one thing I can promise you; I'll never cry! Cause when I was little, before I managed to become the family failure, mom held me close to her, so close I could hear her heart beat and she said, "Big boys don't cry". There will never be a time when I will feel as safe and secure as I did at that very moment. And I may never feel that warmth again but I know Cody will and as much as it makes me angry, I will never deprive him of that because one day it will be gone and he will want nothing more than to feel it again. Trust me, I know from experience.
Don't get me wrong, my life isn't all that bad. See there's one woman I know that can make every second in your life feel special. Her name is Madeline Fitzpatrick and I will do anything for her. She is just the smartest, kindest and most beautiful girl I have ever met. When I'm around her I feel all tingly, like I'm worth something. I do go out with girls my own age; I don't want to show her she hurt me that bad the last time she said no, but she will always have a place in my heart and I wont let her go that easily. There's only one reason I'll agree to growing up… so they day will finally come when I walk up to Maddie and say, "Do you want to go out with me tonight?" and she will accept.
We cannot deny how we feel inside. We cannot deny!
--ZACK MARTIN
A/N: Wow this one was a toughie. But now what's even tougher is deciding whether to keep going or not since the 4 main characters already confessed. Even though I had few cute ideas for Carey, Esteban and Moseby, I'm considering ending things here. I'm not sure yet. If I do decide to keep going, up next is…
The Narrative Stylings of Esteban Julio Ricardo Montoya Del Rosa Ramirez
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