Chapter 19-I'm sorry for the person I became

Me: It's chapter 19!

Elisa: This is quite an important chapter, but there's no hints to number 1 this time.

Me: Sorry, it's mad short too...

Elisa: It is time... FOR THE DISCLAIMER!

Me: KAI! Read the disclaimer

Kai: Ugh, fine... BXR owns nothing... deal with it

Me: On with le chapter!

Recap:"Go bandage your arms and get some sleep. You look like you haven't gotten any in a week." Johnny sighed,

I nodded and did just that.

Chapter Start

I woke up the next morning at 12:15. Elisa's bed was empty, which I figured. I sat up and saw Johnny sleeping curled up at the foot of my bed. "Johnny get up. It's 12:15."

"Huh, what?" He groaned.

I left him to wake up and I went in the kitchen. There was a note on the table.

"Dear Nicole,

Your loser team, Nick, and I needed to go to a secret place of extreme importance. However, we chose not to take you with us for your own safety. You'll thank me later, believe me. Just stay with Johnny and don't leave the hotel. I repeat, DO NOT LEAVE THE HOTEL.

I wuvs you bunches,

Elisa"

I shook my head and laughed at Elisa's need to use random words in her letter. She always does stuff like that. Before I could do much, Bryan called.

"Hello?"

"Hey kid, what's up?" He asked.

"Just waking, up. You?"

"Hn, laughing at Tala for getting screamed at by Kai. They just got into a sissy argument."

"Over what?"

"You. Apparently, Ian told Kai what he thought happened in Tala's room yesterday."

"We just made out, nothing special."

"I know, Tala told me everything. Apparently, Ian got the wrong side of it. He said you and Tala were half naked all over each other."

"Tala was shirtless and I was fully clothed. He was just about to talk off his pants when Ian walked in. What happened during the fight?"

"Well... Ian told Kai was supposedly happened and Kai confronted Tala about it. Tala said that he loved you and Kai couldn't change that. Kai said it didn't matter and that Tala needed to stay away from you. Tala said that Kai should keep quiet and that Kai only acted that way because he was jealous. Naturally, Kai said that Tala was delusional and not to come crying to us when you broke his heart. Then Kai left. That's basically it."

"Is Tala ok?"

"Yeah he's fine, just not in the mood to talk to anyone."

"Tell him I said hi."

"Ok, I gotta go. Boris is having a bitch fit because Kai left. Talk to you later Kid."

"Bye Angel." I hung up, got dressed and waited for everyone to come back

(Elisa's POV)

Kai made us come out and meet us on some frozen lake somewhere. He didn't specifically say that he didn't want Nicole here, but we left her at the hotel for her safety. And Kai's. When we got there, Kai was already waiting for us.

"You didn't bring Nicole?" He asked.

"No, she doesn't even know where we are," Nick answered.

"So what do you want Kai?" I demanded. I stood there glaring at Kai as he explained why he called us there. He wanted the team's bit beasts. He was talking about how they would lose in a battle if they faced him. I wasn't listening. I was only focusing on how I wanted something more than to kill him for what he did to my best friend. Being themselves, Tyson, Max, Ray, and Kenny all challenged him to a battle. They actually won and Tyson ranted some teamwork shit right before they won. Kai was still accepting defeat when Tyson begged, "Kai dude, please come back. You have no clue how much we need you."

"But I don't know if I can change. I don't know if I can make things right."

"You don't need to worry about making things right with them," I began, pointing to the guys. "You need to worry about making things right with Nicole. You owe her a big explanation and apology."

Kai looked at me blankly.

"Don't fucking look at me like that Kai! She fucking started again because of you! If it weren't for me and Johnny she would have died!"

All of the color drained from Kai's face. "She started again?"

"You're goddamn right she did. And it's all your fucking fault. Nicole's whole world fell apart when you left. I don't even think she knows which way is up! I hope you're happy Kai!"

He stood there for a moment, taking everything in. He finally said, "I'll come back." And with that, he got back in his helicopter and we got back on our bus for the hotel.

(Normal POV)

Johnny and I were sitting on my bed talking when we heard the door open. I looked up and there stood Kai, bags in hand. Before I could say anything, Johnny spoke.

"Kai, what the fuck are you doing here? Haven't you caused enough damage?"

Kai put his bags on what was formally his bed and walked over to us. "Johnny, can you give us a minute? I need to talk to Nicole, alone."

Johnny looked at me and I nodded. He got up and left the room, closing the door behind him.

"Nicole I-" Kai began but I cut him off.

"You can save your explanations and your apologies because I don't need them! I hope you're proud of yourself Kai, really fucking proud!" I held out my arms. "Take a look at your handy work."

Kai grabbed my arms and lightly touched the scars. He stopped and read the word that was cut into the back of my wrist. Whore. His hands started trembling and he wrapped his arms around me. "Nicole, I am so sorry, for everything. Elisa told me you started again but I had no idea that it was this bad. I had no idea that you fell apart like this. I didn't mean a word I said to you these past few days. I'll change, I promise. Just please forgive me. I love you more than anyone can understand."

I could've sworn I saw a single tear fall down his cheek.

"If you love me so much, then why did you leave?" I asked, my voice breaking.

"I made a mistake. I put my craving for power and perfection before you. You know I would take it back if I could. Please, all I ask is one more chance."

Part of me wanted to slap him and call him a dirty liar. But then, the stupid voice in the back of my head got into this...

'Give him another chance...'

'Oh great, you just had to get into this, didn't you Jimmy?'

'You love him JOS, don't deny it. And it's obvious he's genuinely sorry. He deserves another chance."

'How do you know he's sorry?'

'Because he's almost crying. Kai has never shed a tear in his life. Why would he breakdown over something he didn't mean? Just give him another chance.'

'Dammit Jimmy, why do I always listen to you?'

Stupid voice... I always listen to him... (A.N. JOS and Jimmy is an inside joke with me and my friends. You'll understand it a bit better if you are familiar with Green Day, their American Idiot CD, The Jesus of Suburbia, and St. Jimmy.) I wrapped my arms around Kai. "I missed you so much..."

"I missed you too."

"Don't ever leave me."

"I won't, I promise. I love you Nicole."

"I love you too..." The two of us just sat there in each other's arms, saying nothing.

Elisa: Awwww... they got back together!

Me: Yup, now I feel better I don't have to write their fight scenes anymore. I almost ran out of insults!

Kai: Wow... just wow...

Elisa:Read and review lovelys! The next chapter will be up... whe BXR writes it...

Me: Yup, dunno how long that takes. I write fast though so don't worry.

Max:YOU GOT A BOOGER ON YOUR BUTT!