Author's Note: This is my first Teen Titans fanfiction (or songfic, whatever you prefer). Anyway, I was bored one day and decided to listen to my music while reading some fictions online. Next thing I know, the song "Key to my Heart" by Craig David started playing and I was thinking about the whole Beast Boy/Raven pairing. Well, a light bulb appeared above my head and I just started writing. So, without further ado, I present to you (the reader's)… Key To My Heart! Enjoy! (R&R if you wish, but please don't flame.)
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans or the rights to the song, "Key to my Heart" by Craig David. I just own the story.
Key To My Heart
By: BBVixen
The bright orange sun rose high over the horizon. White clouds scattered across the light blue sky. The ocean waves, shimmering in the morning sunlight, crashed silently against the island's rocky shore. On this island, stood one of Jump City's most respected structures: Titans Tower. Home to the ever famous Teen Titans. Jump City's defenders against injustice and wrongdoers. The giant 'T' shaped building stood with pride as the morning light enveloped it and seeped through the windows, gently touching one boy's face. Opening his eyes and quickly glancing out his window, the team's fearless leader felt a smile tug at his lips. He got out of bed and dressed, ready for the adventures of another new day. In other room, a tiny alarm from a clock had just gone off, waking a strange girl with red hair and green eyes. She seemed excited as she got up and made her bed. The day was just like any other. There was no special reason to be happy today, but to the alien girl, every day was a good day as long as she was with her friends. Not too far from the red head was another room. Filled with technology as far as the eye can see, a cybernetic teen lay on a slanted table. A smell swept in and found its way to his nostrils. Taking in a deep whiff of the pleasant aroma, his right robotic eye activated as his left human eye opened. He knew the smell better than anyone else and he dashed out of the room, passing a door. Inside was another girl, throwing a blue cloak over her shoulders and fastening it at the collar. She turned and headed for the door. The last, and youngest, member was busy in the kitchen. He had been unable to sleep and decided to make an enormous breakfast feast for his teammates. Being a vegetarian, he was barely able to withstand the terrible scent of meat his friends so strongly desired. Once it had finished cooking, he placed the still sizzling bacon on a plate. He had just set the plate of meat on the round table when the other four members entered the room.
"Whoa, Beast Boy!" The leader, Robin, addressed the green chef. "What's the occasion?"
"Yeah, man. You usually don't cook, and you ESPECIALLY never cook meat for us. Usually it's that tofu junk you always eat." responded the mechanical teen, Cyborg.
The green boy smiled softly, feeling a bit queasy remembering the greasy bacon sizzling. "Well, I couldn't really sleep last night and thought I'd do something nice for everyone." He smirked. "Alright, everyone sit down before it gets cold."
They happily obliged and began eating the wonderful spread the young shape shifter had prepared. Cyborg filled his plate with three varieties of meat, at least four scoops of scrambled eggs, two waffles, and toast. Robin's diet was smaller, consisting of only four bacon strips and eggs, while the alien, Starfire, only ate a waffle. Raven took a piece of toast and began to munch on it. She was about to get up from her seat at the table to fetch her morning herbal tea when Beast Boy approached and gave everyone, except her, a glass of orange juice. He left for a split second and returned with a cup, steam emitting from the contents inside. The changeling carefully placed the porcelain cup in front of Raven and smiled.
"Here you go, Rae. I hope you like it." the green boy replied as sat next to her at the table.
He seems nervous about something. The dark girl thought. He's never made tea for me before. This is probably one of his stupid jokes. It has to be. Why else would he be acting so nice to us? But…his smile. It seems…loving and gentle. Maybe he's abandoned his childish ways and started maturing. Maybe…
She took a sip of the tea and her eyes lit up. It was, it was…
"Beast Boy… this isn't my tea." Beast Boy was starting to grow worried and scratched the back of his head.
"It isn't your tea…but it is tea, nonetheless. It's actually an old recipe I learned a long time ago."
"It's delicious. Where did you learn it?"
"I learned the recipe a long time ago when I went to Africa with my parents." He turned away from Raven as his expression saddened.
It must still be hard on him to think about his mother and father. She thought. "Beast Boy, are you alright?"
Realizing that he had tears in his eyes, he excused himself from the others and ran out of the room, leaving the four members with worried and confused looks on their faces.
♪ "Lonely hours lonely days
Never meant to drive you away from me yeah
I should have listened to you lady
And what you had to say if only yeah" ♪
Beast Boy was in his room, tears silently flowing down at the mere thought of his wonderful parents who risked everything to protect and save him. He was lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, as he thought.
Why does it still hurt? I thought time heals all wounds. Why couldn't the pain and tears just come out at night, when the others can't see me? I don't want them to know about my past. How could they understand what I've been through? None of them could ever understand me, except…
His eyes widened as he suddenly remembered a past experience he had with Raven. He remembered having a nightmare a few days back about the day his parents had died. He woke up with a fright only to find the Goth girl staring at him with worry. As he sat up, sweat poured down his green face as he attempted to regulate his breathing. She was sitting on his bed, next to him, and asked what his dream was about. Reluctant at first, he eventually opened up and told her about his past. He felt a little better afterwards but Raven insisted on staying with him in his room until he was able to fall asleep again. It didn't take long for him to doze off, but when he awoke in the morning, he found that the dark girl was sleeping next to him. Ever since that night, he'd been feeling a bit different towards Raven. He had thought about her every day and blushed when he saw her. On their last mission, the bad guy they were fighting had hit Raven and sent her flying right into his arms. He could feel his face glow red as he looked into her beautiful dark eyes. Holding her for just that one second was one of the greatest and scariest feelings he had ever experienced. He didn't completely understand why he was starting to undergo this sensation but he wished it would never go away. He hadn't felt this way in a long time. At least, not since he went out with Terra… it suddenly hit him.
"I'M IN LOVE WITH RAVEN!" he screamed as his eyes grew wide. Upon realizing this, everything started to make sense. His strange behavior around her, wanting to be next to her, and mostly why he continued to think about her. He didn't try to deny it. His heart wanted to belong to her. He wanted someone to love him and maybe, just maybe, she was that person. There was just one question on his mind though…
"How the hell am I going to tell her?" He got up and walked to the door. Maybe I can go to the rooftop and clear my head. He thought. As he opened the door, he saw the girl of his dreams standing right in front of him.
♪ "I never knew how much you feel for somebody
After you've let them go let them go
And you find out that it's too late to let your feelings show feelings show
And even though I've done you so wrong
Don't you know like I know ooh baby?" ♪
Crap! He thought as his cheeks were already starting to blush. No time like the present, I guess. But what if she rejects me? Oh man, what do I do?
"Hi Beast Boy. I just wanted to see if you were alright. You left the table in a hurry and we got worried." Raven said. Her voice sounded sweet, almost loving, not like her usual monotone voice. He stood there quietly for a minute or two, feeling the beads of sweat already forming on his forehead. His heart started working its way up his chest, as he glanced into her stunning violet eyes. He finally snapped out of his trance and noticed Raven's worried face.
"Oh! Yeah, I'm fine Rae." He started. He could feel his body temperature raising. It's now or never, he feared. "Uhh… Raven?"
"Yes, Beast Boy."
"I, uhh… I…I…" he mumbled the rest.
"Could you repeat that? I didn't get it all."
"I…" he gulped hard, his heart found a place in his throat, "love you." Two light fixtures above their heads exploded, as well as everything in Beast Boy's room. He hung his head down but still kept his gaze on Raven, afraid of what she would do to him next. To say that she was expecting that would be a flat out lie. Unsure what to think, she backed away from the young teen, tears in her eyes. The green changeling saw this and tears of embarrassment were already starting to appear in his own forest green eyes. Shutting his eyes tightly, he ran away, leaving Raven there to soak in what had just happened. She stood for a while until her knees finally gave out causing her to drop to the ground. She wasn't angry, or sad, or even embarrassed because of her sudden power outburst. On the contrary, she was relieved. He beat me to it.
Beast Boy had made his way to the rooftop, hot painful tears staining his young face. It seemed that his life would always be filled with pain and nothing else. He had confessed his love to a girl who was probably now devising a plan to murder him. He could feel his heart breaking, ripping itself in half and sending the shreds to the ground waiting for someone to step on them.
She hates me even more now. I know she does. I saw that look in her eyes right when my room exploded. I knew I should have waited! He kicked himself mentally. What do I do now? I can't see her after that. He looked out at the ocean. The day had ended and the sun was setting. The bright orb sank into the horizon as the sky changed to a sickening orange and clouds changed to a variety of colors. A breeze caught hold of the boy's green hair and gently brushed through it, caressing his innocent face as well, giving him a sense of comfort. It worked.
Maybe… I should leave. He thought, his heart breaking even more at the thought of leaving his only home. I can't stay here. I wouldn't be able to look at her ever again. His mind was made up. With that, he morphed into a dark green colored crow and took to the skies. He turned back to look at Titans Tower and a tear rolled down from his black crow eyes.
I'm sorry guys. I hope you can understand someday. Raven, my love, I'll never forget you. I hope you can someday find it in your heart to love me. I'll miss you. And with that, he flew off.
♪ "You see you've got the key to my heart girl
Unlock me and take all my feelings apart
Cause when you said you had to leave
Had to go away you closed the door on me yeah
You threw away the key." ♪
A year had passed since Beast Boy stepped foot in Jump City. He had been traveling the world, seeing the sights, and drinking in the moments his young life had to offer. From the shrines in Japan to Big Ben in London, he had seen it all. Being away from his home gave him time to be free and think about his life. He enjoyed everything but missed the girl he loved so much. He regret not telling her or the others of his sudden disappearance. That was why he came back. He promised himself he would return to see them and, hopefully, they would forgive his rash decision to leave them. He walked through Jump City, wondering the entire time what to tell his friends when he saw them. He came to the piers and saw the structure that was once his home. The day was done and the sun was setting. It was exactly the same time as when he had left the Titans. It looked the same as well. His heart was lodged in his throat as he looked out at the island and one of the most respected buildings in the world: Titans Tower.
I can't believe it's been a year. He thought. What am I going to say to them? How are they going to react? What will Raven say to me? She'll probably slap me for leaving. Do I really want to take that chance then? His eyes glistened as he thought about the gothic girl he loved so much and still did. All the time they had spent together, the jokes he told her that never made her laugh, and the night she slept next to him because of his nightmare. Was he really willing to see her after leaving her and everyone else without a word as to where he was going? Was he willing to be hurt again just to see her?
Of course I am. He morphed into a green hawk and gracefully glided over to the tower… and his young love.
♪ "Starting over I'm feeling down
Still can't believe that you're not around
I should have been there for you baby
But now I'm crying on this melody tonight yeah" ♪
The Teen Titans had managed to get by with only four members, but their spirit was far from being repaired. Cyborg had lost all interest in video games and spent most of his time working on his car. Starfire, after a few months of depression, was finally able to use her powers again. However, when she woke up in the morning, she knew she would not see her green friend's smiling face. Robin had spent all his time training and less time with his friends. As for Raven, she spent every day either in her room or on the roof, thinking about the young changeling and his adventures. She was now standing on the roof, thinking about him.
It's all my fault that he left. He told me he loved me and I… I said nothing. Why didn't I tell him how I felt about him? She thought as she fell to the ground, feeling the tears flow down her face and splash on the cement roof. She missed him dearly and would have done anything to get him back.
"Raven?" Starfire placed a hand on her friend's shoulder and asked in a sweet voice, "Forgive my interruption, but Robin and Cyborg had asked me to come and tell you that we are ready to begin. Please, you wish to partake in the ceremony?"
"Yeah, I'll be right down Starfire." Raven replied, getting up from the ground and wiping her eyes. Since the disappearance of Beast Boy, she had learned a spell that would allow her to show her emotions and keep her powers under control. She was grateful to finally express herself to her friends without fear of blowing something up or hurting them. She walked down to the room that belonged to the former green titan. Robin, Cyborg, and Starfire each held something that reminded them of their friend. Cyborg held a small plate of tofu, Starfire held a picture of him and her making childish faces when they went to a circus a few years ago, and Robin held a small toy moped. As Raven approached them an alarm went off, signaling someone at the front door. After exchanging a few glances to each other, the Titans made their way to the 'T' shaped door and opened it, surprised to see the figure standing there before them.
"Hi, guys." Beast Boy said, calmly.
♪ "I didn't realize that there's no other remedy to numb this pain numb this pain
But if you come back in my life
Then maybe I can start to live again live again
And even though you're being so strong
Don't you know like I know ooh baby?" ♪
The four just stood there, looking over the green teenager that had left them a year ago. He had grown at least three inches since last they saw him, making him eye level with Robin, and his hair was a little longer but still in his usual spiky style. He had gained a bit more muscle on his arms and legs. He still wore his Titan uniform, though it was a bit tight on him due to his growth spurt. He looked at his friends with his emerald eyes and smiled at them, pleased to see their faces once more.
"Friend! You have returned!" Starfire exclaimed as she ran to Beast Boy and hugged him. Even though he couldn't really breathe, he didn't care. He was just happy that they missed him as much as he missed them.
"Hey Star. Mind if I come in?" Beast Boy said when Starfire let go. His voice had deepened a little. It sounded more mature to the others. Robin smiled at the changeling and nodded. They eventually made their way to the operations center and sat down on the couch, except for Cyborg who was getting Beast Boy a glass of water.
"So, tell us B," Cyborg started, as he gave the teen the glass, "What have you been up to?"
As he drank the water, feeling the cool liquid gently slide down his throat, he smiled at his cybernetic friend. "I've been seeing the world."
"You saw the world? Everything?" Robin questioned in amazement. He remembered the day that Beast Boy had bugged him for a moped, complaining that his arms got tired whenever he flew.
"Yeah! It was awesome. I went everywhere and saw everything. Castles in Scotland, temples in China, went surfing in Australia, spent time with an African tribe, swung on vines in the Amazon… everything."
After an hour or two of telling his friends of his adventures, he asked the group what had happened since he left. There was a silent moment before Cyborg explained to Beast Boy that they had been miserable without him and that the tower's atmosphere seemed dull. Upon hearing this, the odd colored teenager's face saddened. He had caused his friends a great deal of pain without even knowing it.
"Guys, I'm…" he started, "I'm really sorry for leaving like that. It's just I… I had to. I'm so sorry I didn't say anything though. It was dumb of me to do that." He felt a hand place itself on his shoulder. He looked up into Robin's mask.
"It's alright. We're just glad that you're home again." He responded with a warm smile.
"You mean…" the young changeling started, hopeful that he was welcomed back.
Robin nodded, "You're still a member of the Titans… and this is still your home." He handed Beast Boy his communicator and, taking it, he smiled. He was wanted again.
"Wondrous! In honor of Beast Boy's return, I purpose we do the ordering of pizza. As well as do the 'hanging out.'" Starfire suggested happily. Everyone agreed. Just as Cyborg had dialed the number for the pizza place, the alien announced that she was going to sing to Beast Boy a Tamaranean folk song to express her happiness. Robin was quick to stop her though. Beast Boy excused himself, wanting to change into something that wasn't too restricting on his body. After getting to his old room, he took one look and realized how much he had really grown during his little 'vacation.' Seeing piles of clothes on the ground, destroyed furniture (thanks to Raven's outburst that night one year ago), discarded pizza boxes, and various things scattered all over the floor, made him wonder how he was able to live in the mess.
First things first, I guess. He thought and started to clean his room. It didn't take long. He merely threw everything that was considered trash in one corner of the room, promising himself he'd tend to it later, and his clothes in another corner. During this, he found a white shirt and pair of black pants that were surprisingly clean.
Remember now B.B., NO MORPHING! You know what'll happen. He mentally noted as he toke off his uniform, and slipped into the pants. He grabbed the shirt he found and put it on. He was amazed that the clothes fit him perfectly but then remembered that a year ago he was into the whole 'baggy clothes' style. He removed his gloves, a bit nervous about his exposed hands. The Titans had never seen them before and there was a reason why that was. He was ashamed of them. Though his hands were soft, there were a few scars that reminded him of all the painful moments in his life. He made his way to the door, still looking at his hands, and opened it. Glancing up, he saw the girl he had abandoned but still longed for.
"Raven…" he said softly.
♪ "You see you've got the key to my heart girl
Unlock me and take all my feelings apart
Cause when you said you had to leave
Had to go away you closed the door on me yeah
You threw away the key." ♪
Raven had become more beautiful since he last saw her that dreadful night. Her violet hair had grown longer and her figure was more… womanly. Beast Boy gulped loudly as his eyes traced up and down her slender body, following every detail and curve. His heart rate increased as he looked into her dazzling, deep violet eyes. He brought his exposed right hand up to her face, gently touching her soft grayish skin. It felt like silk to him. He could see the tears starting to well up in her eyes.
She must have really missed me after I left. He thought. "Raven, I…I'm sorr-" he was cut off by Raven as she pulled him into a kiss. It only lasted about nine seconds but to the two teenagers, it seemed like an hour had gone by. Much to his dismay though, she pushed away.
"Why did you leave, Gar?" She suddenly asked, tears lightly leaking from her violet orbs.
She's never called me by my first name before. He thought, feeling a bit shocked from her action. His face was lined was sadness. She didn't understand, his one fearful thought.
"Rae, I left because…" he paused, closing his eyes, remembering the embarrassing night. "I left because I was… embarrassed. You didn't say anything after I told you. So, I assumed you- you hated me." He struggled to find those last three words. He looked up into Raven's eyes, feeling the tears himself form. "You meant everything to me… and you still do. You're all I can think about. Raven…" he took her hands in his, "I love you." His voice was soft and gentle. A smile crept on Raven's lips and she threw herself into the arms of the young man.
"Gar…" she whispered in his ear, "I love you too."
He hugged her tightly as she said those words. She had finally confessed her love to him. He pulled her away and smiled, his emerald orbs shining into Raven's. He closed his eyes and gently kissed the lips of his dark love. A soft moan escaped her as she felt his hands on her waist pull her towards him, closing the gap between the two. Hearing this, he lightly purred in pleasure.
Pizza can wait. He thought.
♪ "And every day and night I'm thinking 'bout you constantly
Now I know for sure how much you really mean to me yeah
Sometimes I get a rush
And I see how we were meant to be lady."♪
The sun rose, illuminating Jump City. Children were busy getting ready for a new day of school, while the adults prepared for another exhausting day at work. Shops and stores opened, eagerly waiting for their customers and the very thing that kept their business running. Jump City was definitely in a hurry this morning. The sunlight reflected off the water giving it an eerie but beautiful appearance. A breeze had blown in and caught the blue ocean, making small waves that gently splashed against the island that housed the ever famous, Teen Titans. The morning light poured through the window in one specific room and felt upon the bed, gently touching the green skin of Beast Boy. His sleeping eyes shut tightly as daylight washed over him. Slowly, he opened them and noticed something different about the room he was in.
I'm in Raven's room! His eyes widened as he looked around. The room was still decorated as if it were Halloween. He tried to recall what happened the previous night. After Raven had confessed, they kissed and she led him to her bedroom. They had been up talking all night and, occasionally, making out. But that was it. He remembered one topic they had talked about. It happened to be about the time he had his nightmare and she stayed with him. Raven explained that she had woken up from a nightmare that very night and went to the kitchen to make herself some tea to help calm her down. On her way back to her room, she heard Beast Boy groaning and decided to check up on him. Hearing about his past put them on a new level of trust and made her realize just how dark his life had been. When she watched him sleep, she admitted that the look on his innocent face was heavenly. That was when she fell in love with him. He looked so peaceful sleeping that soon she too became tired and lied down next to him. He admit that ever since that night he too had felt differently toward her. Finally, it all made sense to him. He mentally kicked himself for not asking her about her dream that night. She had been seeking comfort from him and he talked about himself. He didn't even think as to why Raven was in his room caring for him.
"Beast Boy?" Shocked, he looked to his right to see the sleepy, but awake Raven starting at him. "Morning." She smiled and gently kissed his moist, silky lips.
"Morning. Guess we both got a little tired last night, huh?" He smiled lovingly.
"You fell asleep and I didn't want to wake you." She said in a sweet voice.
She must have used her powers to move me then. We were sitting on the foot of the bed. Who cares! I got to sleep next to the girl I love. He thought. What could be better than this?
"Raven…" She looked into his emerald eyes and noticed a child like innocence in them that made her long for him even more.
"Yes, Beast Boy." She answered.
He reached into his pant pocket and brought out a silver chain necklace with a small, silver key dangling down. She gasped at the sight of the jewelry and felt a single tear roll down her smooth gray skin as he put it around her neck.
"You've got the key to heart. I love you, Raven." With that said, they kissed with great passion.
♪ "You see you've got the key to my heart girl
Unlock me and take all my feelings apart
Cause when you said you had to leave
Had to go away you closed the door on me
You see you've got the key to my heart girl
Unlock me and take all my feelings apart
Cause when you said you had to leave
Had to go away you closed the door on me yeah
You threw away the key." ♪