Derek POVish:

Failure. One word that a doctor never wants to associate with himself. You were there with her till the end. Two minutes away from the hospital she passed out. She was taken into surgery, but you couldn't save -- you couldn't bring her back this time. She was too far gone, and you had to call it.

"Time of death 12:52."

Sunlight has past
And the twilight has gone
Slumber my darling
The nights coming on

You remember the last thing you said to her when you were in the ambulance. Her vitals were falling and you knew that this was going to end in going to a funeral, and she knew it to.

"I love you Meredith."

"No you don't, but thanks for saying it." And before you could do anything her eyes rolled into the back of her head.

Sweet visions attend they sleep
Fondest dearest to me
While others their revels keep
I will watch over thee

So you sit here in this metal chair. Its been six days since it happened. Six days of tired days and drunken nights. Six days of blaming yourself for the reason why all of you are here right now. You look to your left, and then to your right. They are all crying. All of them. The blonde one walks up and puts a white rose on top of her coffin.

"Meredith was a great friend. She opened her house to me and George when she hardly knew us. We have been through a lot together, a lot more than I wish to have happened. And I will always remember her. Bye Mer."

They go up one by one. Sharing memories and past events as you sit here and cant keep your eyes off of that solid oak casket, leering over a six foot grave. Its your turn now, you have to say something. So, you walk up to her, keeping composure and staying as emotionless as possible. You turn away from the group of mourners and face the wreath of flowers adorning the box.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. You cant keep doing this Meredith, you cant just keep leaving me. You were amazing. The hospital wasn't ready for you to go. I'm still not ready to let you go."

Slumber my darling
The birds are at rest
Wandering dews
By the flowers are caressed
Slumber my darling
Ill wrap thee up warm
Pray that the angels
Will shield thee from harm

"I loved you Meredith. So much. I haven't been sleeping lately, Addison left. She didn't want me hanging around the bar as much as I did. In these past few days I have drowned my sorrows, in tequila, in vodka, in whiskey, in anything I could get my hands onto. I started to talk to you. I mean full on conversations. And I know I am probably just another guy talking to his dead girlfriend, but sometimes you answered back. I could hear you. And now I'm scared."

Slumber my darling
Til morns blushing ray
Brings to the world
The glad tidings of day

"I know that doctors are supposed to save people. But when everyone is gone, who is there to save us? I know this sounds cheesey, but you saved me. You pulled me away from all of the hatred I had in my life, you made me so much happier. And I couldn't return the favour. I failed. I failed you. And I am so sorry. I just want you to know, that I am gonna miss you. I already miss you. Why'd you leave? Why'd you leave me? I hope you're somewhere better than here. As long as you're happy. I guess that means, this is goodbye."

You take the wooden token out of your pocket. Your aunt gave it to you when you were a kid, right before she died. You run your finger over the angel carved into the front, then you flip it over.

Death doesn't stop love,

It only delays it for a while.

You lay it on top of the wood of her casket and step back. You return to your seat. Everyone is looking at you. There is no doubt in your mind that they heard what you said to her. You stare mindlessly as they lower the casket into the earth, and you say goodbye one last time.

Thy pillow shall sacred be
From all outward alarm
Thou thou art the world to me
In thy innocent charms
Slumber my darling
The birds are at rest
Wandering dews
By the flowers are caressed

She's gone. She's really gone.

Slumber my darling
Ill wrap thee up warm
Pray that the angel
Will shield thee from harm

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Song: Slumber My Darling by Yo Yo Ma.

I used some parts of Alias and Buffy, my heavy inspiration…for now….goodbye