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The void you left

Tony's pov

One year I tried, god knows I tried to be happy for her but I couldn't take it any more. I am tiered of pretending. I pretended to not care that she loves someone else, that the love of my life loves someone else. I am so tiered. So I began to write my resignation letter, it would end my time with NCIS but I couldn't take it anymore, I just couldn't.

I wished that things were different but last week …

Start flashback

For once I was the first in to the office. And thne she came in to the bullpen glowing, smiling, and then I saw the ring on her finger, a simple ring with one diamond, it looked like a engagement ring. I was afraid to ask; no actually Ihe was afraid of the answer, but I had to ask.

"So Katie, what happened to you?"

"Hey Tony, already here" answered Kate Todd with a smile on her face.

I knew now something was wrong see didn't even glare at me for calling here Katie.

"You seem happy, Kate what happened?"

"He proposed to me yesterday … "was al Tony heard the rest just didn't register in his brain.

And a peace of his heart broke for the second time.

End flashback

My resignation letter was finished, it wasn't that long it was plain and simple just the required pieces, my name, the date, a short text that explained that I want to quit, and my signature.

I felt calm during my walk to the director, I knew I did the right thing if I stayed I would ruin it for her, I told my self I did it for Kate, she deserves to be happy, but I can't watch it. So when I entered the directors office I started to speak.

"Ma'am here is my resignation letter, and here are my badge and gun"

The director was shocked to say the least. I could see it in her eyes; this was not what she expected. I saw she wanted to say something but before she could I already spoke again.

"Before you say anything, I made up my mind I can't work here anymore, you can't change my mind."

"ok, DiNozo. If you really want this I accept your resignation. But may I ask why "asked jen.

"I rather not say ma'am, let's just say it is personal."

"Ok, I won't ask more, but before you leave remember you are one of the best agents we have or had there will always a place with NCIS when you want to come back."

"Thanks, but I don't think I will be coming back."

I stepped out side the director's office and started to walk to my old desk, I already cleaned it out piece by piece so I could leave strait away. When I arrived at my desk I looked around one last time and then I grabbed my back pack and walked towards the elevator and when I pressed the button to close the elevator door, I couldn't help feeling a bit lost.

And so I left my team, my family, my love, myself. When I drove away I hade to try to not look back but inside I knew I made the right decision. I just could take it any more.

To be continued

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