AN: Thanks for the reviews! I love getting them. Okay so this picks up right where I left off. It focuses on Brooke in her POV and then NH in Nathan's. More BL and JP coming up! Be patient with me. I have a lot of ideas! As always leave many reviews!

Chapter 14: You Are My Heaven

Brooke's POV

I walked around the mall completely helpless. This sucks. And not just the fact that I was broke and couldn't buy anything. What's worse than window shopping is that Lucas lied to me again. He swore we could trust each other this time. Yet time and time again he keeps letting me down. I had given him all of myself for a second time just to be vulnerable to hurt again. He should know better by now. After everything that happened between us, the way Felix had lied to me, and the bad relationship with my parents, he should do everything in his power to protect me from pain. But all he keeps doing is inflicting it. I promised myself I would never become that insecure girl again. So I guess we both broke our promises. Cause not only had Lucas let me down, but I let myself down.

I can understand why he told Haley. She's his best friend, but Peyton? It's like he choose her over me again. Why does he always do that? What is wrong with me? Do I not deserve to be loved and treated with respect? I know I was in California all summer and Peyton was there, but he could have called me. We might have not been on the best terms and our relationship up in the air, but he should have known I am always there for him. It makes me wonder what else he tells Peyton that he doesn't tell me. For all I know he could be withholding more. Maybe something happened between him and Peyton. She is his precious Peyton.

Deep down I know I am being irrational and jumping to conclusions, but it's not like it is that out of the realm of possibility. And why hasn't he told me since I've been back? Our relationship has grown so strong, or so I thought. We've been together for months and he's had plenty of time. And why didn't Peyton tell me? She might have felt Lucas confided in her and it wasn't her secret to tell, but her loyalty is supposed to be to me. I have been her best friend for ten years and she promised me she wasn't going to hurt me again. I was her Brooke. I guess that isn't as important as being her Lucas. And I don't see how keeping this secret helps anyone, especially Lucas. He has to be getting sicker as the months go on. And if Peyton cares about Lucas like she says she should want him alive.

I look up and notice I am standing in front of Suburban Filth. It's crazy to think that just a few months ago my biggest problem was them screwing me out of my designs and Rachel naked in the backseat. Now I could loose Lucas for good this time. I would give anything to go back to those days. Things were so much simpler. I sit down on the bench across from the store and think about how my world has come crashing down around me so quickly. All I can do is put my head in my hands and cry. I hear footsteps coming towards me and sense someone sitting down next to me. Suddenly there is a hand on my shoulder.

"Brooke are you okay?"

Nathan's POV

I didn't know where I was going but I just needed to get out and clear my head. I can't believe both my wife and brother kept something so important from me. It just reminds me of last year all over again. Haley lied to me about kissing Chris, left to go on tour, and left me in the dark. Then Lucas went to see her behind my back. This might not be exactly the same, or even the same at all, but I feel just the same betrayal. This time it is even more serious because this meant someone's life and not just my stupid pride. Both Lucas and I and Haley and I were finally back to the way things were and now this. They say bad things happen in threes and now I believe it. We had the school shooting, Keith's death, and now Lucas being sick. What was going to be next? Was I gonna find out my dad was a murderer? Why is this family so messed up? Why can't I have a normal life?

Then I think that if I had a normal life of a seventeen year old boy, I might not have Haley. I definitely wouldn't be married and thinking of a future with her. I suddenly felt really guilty for getting mad at Haley. She is the only sure thing I have and I blamed her. It wasn't her fault. She was being loyal to her best friend. It was that same loyalty to him that made me fall for her in the first place. When she had started tutoring me it was to protect Lucas. And she was still doing it. She was just being Haley, my Haley, and I had to get back to her. I had to apologize and make her know she did nothing wrong. I can't believe the things I said to her. How could I make her think she failed me again when she is the only one to do right by me in my life?

It was getting dark now. I didn't want Haley to be alone and worrying about me. She has enough on her mind. I was selfish to make this all about me. This was happening to her as well. Oh my God what she must be going through. First she lost Keith and now she could loose Lucas. She has to know she will never loose me. And all I was thinking about is how I was lied to. I turned around and ran all the way home. When I got there I saw my mother's car in the driveway. It made me feel a little better to know she was home. I had my family back. My mother and Haley are all I need. I figured they both must be in bed because the house was pitch black and silent. I would have to wait till tomorrow to talk to Haley. As I walked passed the living room I caught site of her out of the corner of my eye.

She was sleeping on the couch again with the same picture of herself, Keith, and Lucas. But this time she had something in her other hand. It was our wedding photo. She had the whole Scott Family in her grasp. Boy did she ever. She really had a power over us. I noticed she was wearing the Cracker Jack bracelet I gave to her that first day. I haven't seen that in almost a year. After Haley left and I found it sitting on the hall table I threw it in a box with a bunch of her other stuff. I didn't want to see anything that reminded me of her. Now that she was back I had completely forgotten about the box. But she must have found it while moving in. It made me smile. The one piece of jewelry I had ever given her cost fifty cents and it still meant the world to her.

Being away for a few months hadn't changed her. She was still that self-conscious little girl with the bad fashion sense that didn't have a clue about life. And I was still the same lost boy following in my father's footsteps. But somehow we had managed to find each other along the way. I taught her how to dream and she gave me a purpose in my life besides basketball. As much as I was enjoying this walk down memory lane and watching her beautiful form breath in and out I had to get her upstairs. She started to stir like she was having a bad dream that I knew I had been the cause of. So instead of waking her, I placed her in my arms and walked upstairs. We were going to our bedroom. How wonderful it sounds to say that again.

I placed her in the bed and began to remove her clothes. She slowly began to open up her eyes and looked up at me. "Hey you."

"Hey yourself."

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I should be asking you that."

"Nathan I am so sorry babe."

"Hales you have nothing to apologize for. I was the one who freaked and didn't even want to hear you out. I realize now that you were just doing what you thought was right. And it was right. I love you so much for it."

"You are too much Nathan Scott. Even when you have the right to be mad you manage to say something so perfect and sweet."

"It's what you deserve."

She smiled softly and gave me a sleepy look. "So what are you doing now Mr. Scott? Are you trying to take advantage of me?"

"Under normal circumstances I would love to Mrs. Scott, but I wasn't even thinking about it. I just wanted to make you more comfortable."

"You always manage to do that. Just being near you is my comfort. Now let's get back to the taking advantage." She began to remove my shirt and I put my hand over hers. 'What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong. I just think we should sleep tonight and hold each other. That's the best feeling in the world to me."

"Okay. I'm not gonna argue with that." I removed her shirt and unbuttoned her jeans before putting her into one of my t-shirts. As it went over her head she breathed in. "I love this smell. I wish it could last forever."

"It can and it will cause it'll always be next to you." I removed my clothes and hopped under the covers next to her. "Come over here and take a better wif." Haley rolled over and nuzzled her face in my neck while putting her hands on my chest.

"This is the only place I ever want to be." Haley said this with a yawn.

"Well that's good. Because it's where I'll always keep you." We then feel asleep in each others arms. The words that Haley sung what seemed so long ago played over and over in my head. This is heaven to no one else but me. And I finally knew what that meant.

TBC